More Admissions

Two of the most amazing and wonderful things about this orgasmic journey I am on is the awakening of my sexual response and the expansion of my sexual interest, gender wise. For most of my life arousal has consisted of getting an erection when looking at naked women and feeling the desperate need to ejaculate to seek relief from the sweet frustration that accompanies arousal and erection. By its nature arousal for me was 100% cock and female focused. Ejaculation was a much desired but fleeting experience. I remember after I discovered orgasm when I was young I used to fantasize how amazing it would be if I could sustain the sensation of an orgasm for more than those extremely pleasurable seconds of pumping bliss. In the absence of that skill I replaced the fantasy with the reality of unending masturbation; I would tug to orgasm a dozen times in a day. Sadly though, the more times I came the less pleasurable each successive ejaculation became.

For years fantasies of anal penetration intrigued me; occasionally I would watch videos of guys masturbating with curious fascination as I got modest erections. I experimented with home fabricated devices for anal penetration; in the places that I lived, sex toy stores were not around every corner. I could best describe those early anal penetration experiences as not thrilling, except for the visual aspect of seeing an object penetrate me.

Uphigh

Since my last post, I've learned how to reconcile both partnered sex and riding my Aneros. It just involves timing… Aneros weekDAYs, sex weekENDs. Easy. Lately, my sessions are kind of duds, and I'm pretty sure it's because I'm using Rite Aid brand KY jelly. KY is a bit too viscous and once my Aneros locks-in, it won't move enough. I was having mind-blowing experiences with Swiss Navy lube, which isn't any cheaper online as it is from a retail shop. )Worth every pump, though.(

Journeys

Realized that 3 years have come and gone without me logging any events. Time flies. For the first couple of months aneros really didnt do much for me and but kept remembering what I had read in the aneros blogs and discussions so I pushed forward. As most folks the water based lubes were not good for me and took over a year for me to make the change to silcone lubes and now coconut oil. I had a reaction that created digestive problems and flared up gaseous problems to point I thought I was having a heart attack and had difficulty breathing. The doc said I had acid refllex, but after several visits and different types of acid meds it was something else- took trial and error on my behalf to figure it out. So now after using coconut oil it seems better. My aneros days I thought were over.
Now after three years I'm starting to actually have a better feel of the aneros and think I have a better understanding on what I should be concentrating on and when to stop. Starting to have better sessions now. In the past I focused to much on trying to get sexually excited vs paying attention to what the aneros was doing. I also listen to trance music (electronica) while on my knees and butt up in the air so it better hits the prostate and to totally relax and let the aneros do it's thing. I usually stick my helix in the freezer for a few minutes and the apply the coconut oil so the oil stays in place during the session. I also now take t- booster supplements daily and drink with pur-erh tea with maca and ginseng. I'm 56 years old and the sexual drive needs a boost.

Taking cat for a hare

I started to have sessions with a mild sense of good feeling. Had some with that and some sessions with nothing. I had a good feeling going through my spine one time. Also when passing gas and aneros moving in response to that made it good.

I bought the toy looking for an awesome orgasm, but what i got instead )so far( were three effects i wasn't expecting. You guys say " buy a pig in a poke", we here say " taking a cat for a hare". First was on sex: i was harder, and with more cum and pre-cum. The second was that the sessions uplift my mood. Even though i don't have an orgasm, i'm happier afterwards. Third is that i get sensations through my body afterwards when i'm not using it, so the session lingers.

I find that breathing through my belly keeps my focus on breathing and not on what is happening down there. When i am feeling somewhat good i'm usually with a very shallow breathing. Also found porn distracting.

So far so good. Let's wait and see.

Touched for the very first time

I decided to start a blog here so i could someday look back on my experience and also to share with the aneros community how it goes for me. I'm Brazilian so my english won't always be what it might need to be, so i ask for your patience on it.
I'm a 31 years old, straight, married guy.
I bought recently my first Aneros which was a Helyx Syn, and had my first session with it last tuesday.
The forum is very helpful and i understood i shouldn't have expectation as result might take time.
The Helyx Syn is very smooth. i was surprised how bendy the P-tab is. I heard the P-tab could be painful, and i doubt that it is the case with the Helix Syn. Also thought it was smaller than the pictures.
I don't like the whole idea of an enema, and i didn't do one. I won't Wax, won't enema….
I was somewhat aroused by the new experience that i was about to undergo but not highly aroused.
I used water based lube and the aplicator, and lubed the helyx too
I was impressed on how easy insertion was. It wasnt disconforting even though i don't have experience in the anal departament. About half way through insertion it was sucked in by my ass unintentionally. It was like it said "Give me that!!" and i was like "what the fuck?!?"
It wasn´t disconforting with it in me
I tried to breath throught my belly and relax as much as i could but sometimes when i thought my esfincter was relaxed it was really not, it kept coming back to a somewhat tense mode.
The aneros kept poking me inside, sort of like ringing a bell constantly, especially when i relaxed more the esfincter. That didn´t feel neither good nor bad. The orgasm did not feel like answering the door. But i was impressed it did that inside me, as i thoght nothing would happen, i thought it would just sit inside me, i thought to myself "That shit is alive for sure"
Tried some positions and it seemed to move more when i'm on my stomach
I was hard about two times which was dificult lying on my stomach, made a disconfort pressure. It moved faster inside me when i was hard.
There was a moment i thought i was gonna shit myself. Thank god it was not the case.
I tried some light contractions, that did nothing for me that time.
At some point, my ass started to throb a little, quick ones. It was a nice small feeling. Like i get when i stop myself so i won't cum when i'm just on the edge to, or the one when i´m having a dry speel and in need for sex )i don't know if that is common or not(
I thought i did not have any pre-cum, but found evidence otherwise. But it was not much at all.
It was an overwall surprising experience, but i would't call it good. I was happy with it. I wanted to stay with it more time but it was past 1 hour of session and i was a good student. The Wiki said don't overdo it, 1 hour in the begging tops, and i did not want to have bad consequences as i was just starting with that, so i called it quit. Afterwards I did not feel like finishing it off the usual way.
As i did not do an enema it came out dirty, and no matter how much i cleaned it, it stayed with a bad smell. I won't do enemas anyway.
The next day i got a feeling. You know when you are on the see for a while and you come out and you still feel the waves are moving even though you are not in the see anymore? I got kind of a feeling the aneros was moving there. My ass was hangover, it was neither good or bad. I wasn't hurt there either.I did want to have a session that day but thought it would be wise to take it easy, especially with whatever the hell was happening there.
That night i woke up to a feeling of pleasure going from my ass to my balls going through my perinium, when i contracted,)it scared me( it went away. That happened sooo fast that i am not even sure that it happened. did it happened, was it a dream… i'll never know.

Testicular Orgasm?

Again in my journey I had to arise and blog. Things ended a little different this time and the buzz is so gentle its special.

I began with cleansing out my anus and inserting a large portion of coconut oil. I wanted Maximus to be fluid and the fluid nature of things to last a long time. Coconut Oil does this and has an added benefit of feeling so smooth inside. Well we settled in together and soon max took over.

As I concentrated on his cycle he would touch and squirm inside me. I started to breath much slower and deeply keeping in tune with him. Max started a series of p-waves much quieter than before, so relaxed as he would touch different areas of me. I decided to try moving my cramaster muscles this time just to see what would happen. I soon felt it was just to be a learning experience, but Max decided to reward me.

My balls began to feel as if they were pulling upward into my groin. As the feeling repeated itself a tingling from the very core would radiate from each of them. Each time I relaxed a new wave of these radiating tingling vibrations would hit my scrotum. It felt as if semen were flowing from them yet it wasn't. After at least five or six of these new sensations that were focused only on my balls came to a climax they settled down into a calm and blissful rest.

Downlow

I'm starting to believe that I can't make this Aneros experience work unless I keep it secret from my partner. That is… it's use. I'm not gonna super-o in front of him. I look like a seizure case. Plus, I want him to try it out, use it right, but he gives up so fast. First it was about piquing his interest, but he doesn't know what to expect. Now it's about my own journey with the device. What disturbs me is that I may be starting to prefer working with Aneros than sex with him.

urologist's visit

My old urologist moved away from the little city to the big city. New urologist is a she. She has an idea on how to treat my impotence. The idea involves three things – encouraging blood flow – with a small daily dose of Cialis, increasing pressure / desire by refraining from ejaculation and using a new drug that shows promise in terms of nerve ending re-growth. I am warned it will be slow. A good sign would be semi-erect and increased flaccid size.

I asked about aneros and she said nothing wrong so long as its not pushed – e.g. take a break at any sign of discomfort. Specific to my situation, no ejaculations. Wet dreams are ok since I have no control.

I told her about my recent almost wet dream and being semi-erect and she said that is a very good sign.

Introduction

I am a 51 year old married man who is impotent [erectile dysfunction]. Erections began to fail about ten years ago but intercourse with my wife was possible. Mornings helped, as did strong coffee and the right kind of stimulation. But at the same time her libido plummeted so there was little motivation to work to get erect. In the words of my urologist, when erectile function starts to flounder, working it helps to keep it from getting too much worse.

About three years ago my wife's libido came back gangbusters. By then my erectile function was pretty much toast. I tried Viagra, Cialis. They worked, well sort of. These gave me partial erections and headaches. The problem with the partial erections is that it was not enough for penetration.

Sometimes acceptance is a good thing. I have come to accept that I am impotent and there are other ways to pleasure and be pleasured.

When my impotence was first noticeable I saw my family doctor who referred me to a urologist. The urologist performed prostate massage, or that is what he called it when I asked, what are you doing to me! I then googled the subject, found out about the Aneros, and ordered an early model. I think it was actually through High Island Health.

My Second Encounter

Last night in a chat with Brine he asked me to do an entry describing my second liaison with a guy. Brine and a few others have asked about my twice venture into male – male sexual intimacy in the last two years. It is difficult to describe the experience without putting it into context. In a recent chat Brine and few of us were explaining MMO / Super O to a newbie. Brine commented that it was an integrated physical – mental – spiritual thing. He is absolutely right.

For the last 20 years I have been engaged in a discovery process to understand my sexuality. I dipped my toes into Tantra, Zen, Kundalini, edging, anal penetration and erotic massage to name a few. There were also workshops, strip clubs, gay bars, books, pod casts and myriad toys and porn. The frustration of all of them was that they all seemed to fall short or they required a life change to really engage. I was not ready to become a monk or a sex worker LOL.

Then 8 years ago quite by chance I was surfing the net looking for porn when I wound up on the Aneros site. I ordered my first toy exactly 8 years ago this month. That following year was dedicated to learning to use it. When I had ben successful for 8 months or so the rewiring process started. I am guessing that by the end of that year I was rewired. My sexual response, spirituality, physical – sexual capability, and mental state were all synched and in a sense I was sexually reborn.