Fifth Session – Taking a slightly different approach

I think I'll hit the forum with this bit, but I have to say there is a lot of mixed information as to how one should approach using the product. )Reference to the prostate toys – not Peridise or others(

Some say manually contract and relax. The instructions say contract and relax. Some users say do nothing and see what your body does. Others say if your Chakra and life is out of balance to work on centering.

It's rather frustrating. Not intended to sound negative towards anyone either. All the information is great, it seems to be more of a belief system than a real scientific or medical approach. If you believe in it, chances are it will work )Mind over matter I guess(

OK! On with it!

So this time around I've decided a different approach…

First off – the usual. I prep my space to get ready for my session. I've found some nice relaxing tracks that I put on my phone to listen to with headphones again. These tracks are peaceful soft music with woman and/or men softly moaning in the background. Some of them are instructional in the sense they remind you to breathe or focus on specific aspects of your session. Not really goal oriented, just "pay attention to these feelings and go with the flow" kind of instructional reminders.

Aneroless ejaculation

I've owned an aneros progasm for nearly a year, however I have been exploring the back door for years. I have had other prostate massagers prior to the progasm and also currently own a nexus revo 2. Both so much fun.

I can reach hands free ejaculation anytime, with or without anything inserted.

I have incredible sensations. But nothing is ever as intense as when I ejaculate hands free.

My deepest curiosity is if I am missing something.

Is it likely that I am experiencing numerous super o 's prior to finally ejaculating?

Or am I ejaculating before actually making it to the super o?

leading up to my hands free ejaculations all my 'orgasms' feel like they just aren't reaching the cusp of something. They are just a building sensation until I finally ejaculate.

When I ejaculate hands free, with or without an aneros, I experience a small refractory period of about 10 minutes )if I ejaculate hands onm I could be done for days! – exaggeration (.

My refractory is less if it is an anerosless ejaculation.

So some days ; I ejaculate aneroless and handsfree, then go to aneros and a super T, then feel unsatisfied the rest of the day but can't get back on the horse so to speak unless I just do regular masturbation and ejaculation.

Fourth Session Busy busy – no fun

It's been hellishly busy for me this week with work. And coming home dead tired and lacking energy for any form of arousal is almost depressing…

However! I did decide to prep and just pop in my MGX and try to relax. Nothing really fancy to report though.

I put in my relaxation CD 2 and slide my toy home nice and sloooow. I ran a session for nearly an hour. From hard contractions to feather light flutters.

I think I may have found my current auto contraction spot? About half strength and if I can find the right spot my anus starts to flutter on it's own. It's currently requiring some concentration to keep the muscles just relaxed enough for it to happen, but it is a first. I was able to duplicate the feeling a few times during this session. The longest was about 30 seconds of auto contractions. I did not have any real "feel good" sensations this session, but with my exploring I did start to figure something else new about my body.

So two fold – First time auto's, brief, but note worthy in my experimenting.

and second. I got some much needed relaxation. I was not aroused at any point, and you know what? That's ok. I was not disappointed at all!!

This weekend I have some time off of work, maybe I can get a nice sessions in? =D

My Ride Gets Even Better

I haven't been able to ride my Aneros for at least two days now and this evening I was tired, but I needed a ride. I prepped by showering and douching as normal. Injected lube, and coating my Progasm. I began my session relaxing on my side.

Since I was tired I slowly drifted off to sleep with that wonder'ful' feeling in my anus. Probably at least 30 minutes went by and I was awakened by the Progasm being moved by my sphincter the Progasm was gently massaging my prostate. I slowly began to allow the rhythmic movements of the Progasm to touch and stimulate more and more of my P-spot. Waves began to flow. My experience to date has proved to not fight this movement and to just relax even more while concentrating on the sensations. The P-waves continued and then just as slowly as they built up they resided and I fell back to sleep.

Minutes went by again and memories of my youth began to flood my subconscious of the first time my High School buddy and me realized we were gay and we had to experience each other for the first time. The Progasm again awakened me as my whole body is moving in my bed with more intense P-waves. By now I feel a quiet giggle in my belly that I must let out. It feels good to giggle with the P-waves and a body that is controlled by my Progasm. Again my body slows its involuntary movements allowing me to rest blissfully again.

Silent Seduction

As usual I have to put in my disclaimer…this is total fantasy. I was inspired by somebody but not fact…only fiction. Hopefully it will get some of your sessions off to a good start.

I swing the door open before he even has a chance to knock. I look up at him, "Come in." He does and sits down. He's sick, I hand him a tissue. He takes it and blows his nose, I stand there and watch him. Funny how sometimes even the most disgusting things in life can be interesting. He's sitting there blowing green goo out of his nose but its such a real moment in time, it helps me to remember he's not a total fantasy. It doesn't turn me on…but it doesn't repulse me either. Once he's finished I take the tissue to throw it away, I see him watching me in my peripheral vision. When I come back he seems comfortable, quietly relaxing, I sit next to him. I feel him looking at me, I look over at him not truly believing he's here. He trails his finger down my arm leaving goose bumps in his wake. I slid closer to him nestling into his side wrapping my arms around his torso. He feels nice warm, soft, but not too soft. I avert my gaze away from his eyes, not wanting to make it too painfully obvious how aroused he's making me. Instead I elect to caress from his chest down to his tummy and back. He puts his arm around me resting his hand on my hip. I notice he's rubbing the cotton material of my undies…I smile to myself. I wasn't expecting him so I was only wearing a t-shirt and panties. Its then that I remember how much he says he likes cotton guess he was serious because there is a suspicious bulge in his pants that wasn't there before.

Why She's Not On Board…(part 1)

Thanks to the guy who gave me my writing bug back…

So I know a lot of guys here are into what some (mostly Americans) find as "alternative" sexual practices. I don't view it as alternative but hey…I'm just one fish in the ocean. I also know there are many men who wish their wives (or spouses or mates or partners pick your word and use it) were more into it with them. Now keep in mind I'm not a doctor or any of that crap. I'm just a woman who has been in enough relationships and talked openly with enough women that at the moment I feel like putting some ideas out there for you all to ponder on. There is no way I can cover all scenarios so this will be pretty general. If you want specifics…hunt me down lol (don't literally use the inbox dummy!!!). So with that said this first part will be on the most fundamental aspect of why a lot of women are hesitant about this topic…themselves…and how they feel about themselves.

Outside in and Inside Out

This is an entry to talk about the ebb and flow of my erotic life. It has been a week without a wet orgasm for me, which is relatively unusual. Scheduling pressures, and myriad distractions actually overpowered the chance to interact with J and be intimate. So instead, this hs been a week of MMO sessions.

I was recently talking to a friend here who was experiencing the same thing. Now as I am sitting here writing this I am telling myself the same thing I told him: “hey it happens”.

So as I sat drinking a cup of tea on the couch in the quiet of our kitchen a short time ago, I pondered this inside out and outside in character of my sexuality. It is this mysterious thing that motivates me to have liaisons with it in the remote solitude inside my own body and inspires me to celebrate it with J, showing off for her as we both admire the physical beauty of each other’s sexual response.

As a guy my sexuality was very cock focused . . . I couldn’t help it. It was engrained in me. I was and still am fascinated with my own cock, and now other guys cocks too. I do stand in front of the mirror occasionally and admire it as I tug it to stiffness. I have done videos of me self pleasuring myself in elaborate backgrounds and wearing all kinds of erotic props. I have taped and watched in fascination as ropes of thick white pearlescent cum rolls and sometimes is hurled from my swollen cockhead as I shudder in explosive orgasm.

Third Session, before during and maybe after

Last night during the chat session my better half was sending me to the moon in other ways.

Just to give you an idea about 2 weeks ago she wanted to start exploring sext messages. She loves the idea of turning me on whenever and where ever she can. I have no problem with this, but MY GOOD LORD does she press all the buttons! And the pictures? Steamy!! Now mind you they are not bare it all pictures, they are those naughty little hints. The edge of sexual desire kind of things. I'll give you the world, but you can only see a tiny slice of it. Those are my favorite. I love teasing more than anything. It's the power supply to my sex drive (and perhaps many other people)

I spend time out of town on the weekends, so this is her way of reminding me of what is waiting at home. Sheer bliss, that's what!

So you get the idea. She was ramping me up the whole night until nearly 2am. I wanted so bad just to grab hold and have an amazing tension release! I was so hot and bothered I was literally soaked.

I decided not to take care of myself and also not to have a session last night (this morning) because for one thing taking care of myself might ruin any later attempt with the MGX and I wanted to keep that tension for the experience. And for the other I as drinking while I was chatting and I decided it would ruin the experience as well. I wanted it to be as pure as possible.

Taking time to open up – between sessions

This isn't so much a regular blog as it may be a reflection of sorts.

Last night I logged onto the Aneros chat room for the very first time. I wont lie. I was very hesitant to even do so. I know that the internet provides me a bit of anonymity. I still feel, in a way, that I am walking naked into a room of people. Do they judge? Or are we of equal minds to some degree?

I sat quiet for a moment and just read what some of the users were saying and it occurred to me fairly quickly that no real judgement is going to be passed. I am in a room of people like myself, curious, explorers, people determined to do it how they want to and anyone else be damned if you judge them.

That being said – I had an amazing time last night just opening up and talking to everyone. You will have to forgive that I have a slightly bad memory for names, but I spent some quality time reflecting on topics with devajones, and I know it's already known – but my thanks extends to you sincerely. You truly helped make my first night fun, entertaining, extremely informative, and most of all you helped put me at ease.

There was no shortage with any user so please do not think I am dismissing any of you. I am not!

Second Experience

Been thinking about my session very little throughout the day.

On the way home from work though that's just about all I could think about. What will this next session bring – make sure everything is setup so we can get right down to business!

Last night just before I went to bed I purchased and downloaded the Hypnaerosession CD, awfully pricey, but hey…

So I get home, setup everything. I run into the computer room and transfer the CD to my Samsung S2 and pop out my Siberia V2 headset from the computer and plug it into my phone )awesome sound By the way(

It's 6:22PM – I hit the bed and insert my MGX slowly and let my muscles do the rest. At this point I tap play on my phone and listen to the first CD.

I have to say this much. I am not usually into subliminal anything, but when you actually WANT to relax and you really WANT to follow along, it does have a way of swaying you new levels of relaxation.

I won't bore you with the base details of the CD – I followed along, breathing, contracting, feeling, going deeper and deeper.

At some unknown point I must have dozed off. When exactly I really don't know because I recall thinking to myself, "I am super relaxed and still really alert". Either I told myself a fat lie or I was just so into the CD that I did as I was told and just listened.