testing testing. i guess i added a visitor message asking if it was the blog function necause this is my first post and i have no idea what i am doing here. first post. much delayed.
so yeah there was something about doing kegels somewhere, and i am a hemophiliac and i think, well, i don’t know for certain but maybe it was the kegels, but now my hole is seriously bluepurplebruised, and hurts like ohholyeverlovingmotheroffuck, hurts to sit, hurts in the restroom, ow. anyone else ever have this as an issue, bruising yourself doing kegels??
i bought the helix syn when i discovered that my housesitting gig was extended somewhat indefinitely. there was no internet unless i used my phone which makes internet hella expensive, so, first thing i did when the gig was extended was i bought the device and that was most of the internet for me.
no internet is magical. and freed up time for experimentation.
but yeah, do your kegels, or so they say. can kegels wreck your ass?
anyway, lots of play with the thing, for the duration of my gig, another 7 weeks.
and now back around people and can’t play with the thing for awhile because walls are thin, but, kegels.
anyway, i know i’m capable of ejaculation-less orgasms because i couldn’t have an orgasm otherwise for more than a year (this joy brought to me by proscribed benzodiazepines) and yet, i managed to have orgasms having sex with others somehow. no jizz, but all the other twitching, heaving breathing, contractions et cetera. so, this is possible. just haven’t gotten there alone. i can get waves and contractions and alter my breathing (gasping & moaning) by tuning into something, a memory, a fantasy of one of my . . . one of the guys i play with, fuckbuddies, lovers, friends-with-benefits, (the latter two descriptions feel most accurate, at least to describe the ones that get me going)
been back internet-connected a week (mostly not really feeling the internet, honestly. there’s netflix, and maybe i’ll get back to a couple other sites i used to read but mostly not interested) and so, here we are, blogpost one.
this bruise is going to last for months, (i have a faint one on my side from about 8 to 9 weeks ago) but really, in terms of screamingly-obvious visiblity, maybe only a few weeks, but pain? dunno how long, this is uncharted waters here.
oh yeah, one more issue: death grip. one of the reasons i got interested is that i have a deathgrip thing going on when i jerk off. only one kinda thing got me off for a long time, which someetimes, unlubricated, led to rubbing off skin, and actually having orgasms in the sack with a guy is a rarity, so to some extent this device is a hopeful remedy; no more deathgrip allowed, and go play with the toy and other nethods of trying to get off. so i’ve only had like 3 orgasms in like 11 weeks now. semen retention? i got that down. can’t say i’m loving it.
that’s about it.
Source: https://www.aneros.com/blogs/hemophilia-bruising-and-kegels-and-deathgrip/