Some reflections

Just jotting down little ideas that pop into my head at random times during the day. Things that I might wish to look into more, or just observations being made. Postcards on the journey!

Seat warmers
I’ve got them in my car, and I’ve noticed since I started this journey, that when I use them, I get cool p-waves and flutters down there. I don’t use seat warmers very often or for very long usually, but now I’m getting some pleasant feelings. Not distracting me from driving, but just a general addition to my level of sexual feelings.

Constant Arousal
I’ve become much more aware of how high my level can get to, and that awareness of course, serves to heighten it more. It’s winter right now, so I’m wearing hoodies a lot, but sometimes I’ll crank the thermostat a little to shed some clothing. After my morning shower, I’ll usually walk around the house wearing just underwear and a t-shirt. The underwear is made of modal material and is very sleek and form fitting. It keeps the package out front more, which makes me aware. The shirt is usually a workout shirt featuring dry-wick material. It rubs against my nipples through the day.

New Areas

Sunday morning and even after my hot and wild session the night before, I woke up horny and heightened. I spent the morning after my shower doing odd jobs in my underwear just to try and keep cool. But I couldn’t keep my hands off myself and I would pause to run my hands over my ass and abdomen and nipples. I kept getting hard and at one point I took my penis in my hand while standing in the kitchen and imagined a hot babe on her knees in front of me, helping me relieve the pressure.
By last night, I was cranked right up and after an especially elevating shower, got to work with the Helix. I had spent the usual time breathing and self exploration and by insertion time, I was rolling into it! I had some minor shaking sessions and after about 15 minutes, I felt confident enough to give the Progasm a try. Lube up and pop it in. Even though it’s pretty massive, it didn’t take long to start feeling what it was ready to give.
My penis started to get hard and I started some shaking. I put my scrotum between my legs and let go for a few minutes. By then, it was rock hard, so I pulled back my foreskin and started some stroking. Now as I stroked, my hips would thrust back and forth. I stopped stroking when I felt streaks of energy flashing through my shaft, just like when I’m ejaculating during regular masturbation. I started rubbing my hand over the tip of my penis and felt a little pre-cum on my hand. I was so far into it at this point, that I pulled my hand up to my mouth and licked it off and started nursing my fingertips like nipples. Then, as my penis was still hard and stretched out, I started rubbing and pinching my nipples. I grabbed a clothespin off my nightstand and put it on one nipple. The flash of pain was exquisite and I cried out loud as the pain flew to my core, translating to something like a stab in my perineum and scrotum. I pulled the pin and started stroking myself again. With my body arched back like a drawn bow, I ejaculated and felt liquid streaming out of my head. It was clear, and instead of spurting in the air like a normal shot, it flowed in a stream, over my abdomen and thighs, onto the sheets.
I released some tension from my anal muscles and finally the Progasm backed off a little. I kept some tension on, just enough to keep it in and let myself calm down and catch my breath. I decided, that was good enough for the night, and cleaned up both of my friends and went to bed. I could still feel waves rolling up from time to time while laying on my stomach, but I resolved to try and get a good night’s sleep.
That was fine as long as I was awake. About 3 am, I was awakened by shaking and moaning, and realized it was me. Mini-O’s aren’t a bad way to wake up. I toyed briefly with the idea of going further, but I was tired. It was 3:30 by this time, after all!
One of the greatest side benefits of the Aneros, is that I’m waking up with a raging erection every morning! Good morning!

Dry Orgasm without Aneros

So it seems that I’ve reached a place in my journey where it’s possible to have p-waves without the device inserted. I don’t know if anyone else has been able to experience this, but whenever I close my eyes and start to relax, I feel it building now. If I let it go, it will go pretty far. No super yet, but dry ones for sure.

It’s just more evidence that the Aneros helps teach you to something you were always capable of. The pleasure comes from some internal source, not from an external stimulus. Learning to relax is the key.

“Male Chastity: Why Do I Do It?”

[This blog was inspired by @SOwithoutAneros]

@SOwithoutAneros has taken the chastity “plunge” with a CB-6000! And that fact brought back memories of my foray in the world of male chastity cages. I eventually bought a genuine CB-6000S which I wore for months. I generally did not wear it at night when NPTs are prevalent; rather, during the day including out in public. I did wear it through some very arousing erections, just as an experiment. While wearing it, you have to be prepared. It will be difficult to remove the cage until you are soft again. So there is a kind of “point of no return” while wearing it.

I had eventually switched from a chastity cage to a “chastity cup” and although the basic concept remains the same, the way they feel is entirely different. The cups are designed to prevent masturbation and although the cage does the same thing, a cage is designed to prevent erection. Thus, the feeling that an erection gives is different while wearing a cage than a cup. As I remember, I could “feel” the erection deep in my groin to the base of the penis. Not so much so while wearing a cup. Which one do I prefer? In all honesty, wearing a close-fitting “cage” is the real-deal in male chastity! Wearing a “cup” is, just, different. While the intent is the same (masturbation and ejaculation control), the physical restraint is different.

I did NOT Expect this when I started my journey!

I have been on the journey for almost a year now, and have been achieving incredible super-orgasms of amazing heights and depth, always evolving, sometimes in giant leaps, and sometimes in gradual crawls. I was no stranger to Aless sessions and mind-blowing Super Orgasms, but recently I discovered new levels of communion with an endless orgasm-energy.

I posted recently that I felt like I was in a lull of sorts, a place where I could not imagine or envision where to go, but at the same time, having an unmistakeable sense of there being much more to explore. I felt like I had dug far “linearly” but once there, I had not explored “broadly” if that makes any sense. I took to heart the advice of being mindful of what wolf I fed, (in my personal life) and not worrying too much about WHERE to go. After these recent incredible sessions, I fully understood that destination implies a hunt, a specific start and end, which is not what this is about (as I understand it) it’s much more of getting in SYNC with an ever-present pleasure-energy, and opening new and wider channels to enter “communion” with it.

“Sexual Regularity”

Introduction
Having slept in my Mueller Flex Shield cup overnight and now in a new Day 3 of SR, I awoke at about 1 AM. I wanted to retreat down to the comfort of my sofa and I selected a nice, soothing track for Solfeggio 639 Hz meditation: “It enables creation of harmonious community and harmonious interpersonal relationships”.

Almost as soon as I starting listening and meditating, I began to make an important connection. Let me explain…..

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{Note: this connection may seem somewhat bizarre and absurd at first, but please hear me out!..}

I have bouts of constipation from time to time and thus was the case a couple days ago. Having been irregular for a couple of days, I knew that I needed some help. I needed to take a laxative. I waited up until bedtime without success, then made the decision to take it. I did and then retired for the night. After about 4 hours, I felt it starting to work and was relieved that 10 hours later, when I awoke, I was “regular” again!

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Now, what does this have to do with the meditation, you may ask? Well, it occurred to me that our sexual selves operate, in fact, with regularity. Let me give some examples….

Our NPTs which almost all of us men experience at night, occur with great regularity. If they did not, something would be wrong with our sexual “plumbing”. I anticipate these and sometimes am prepared by wearing a “chastity cup” to negate the stimulating effects of the ensuing erections.

“All-Aboard The SR Express!”

Background
Ultimately, the choice whether or not to remain in chastity remains with me. Yesterday, in Day 8 of semen retention, I thought it would be “fitting” to end this current SR “run” on Valentine’s Day. I even “nudged” my wife to help finish-me-off. But apparently, she had another idea. She started out caressing my enlarged package and I thought I would finally reach my goal. But she had another plan and so, after about 10 minutes, I was left still in chastity and possibly with a case of the blue-balls pending. How frustrating but yet arousing at the same time!

I decided to sleep in my XO ProCup overnight to avoid any temptation; I was still feeling like I needed to ejaculate and so I could not tempt an unintentional release.

Later-on in the evening, I was awakened by a rather arousing erection within the cup and I felt kind of close to the PONR. I went to the bathroom and then decided to switch gears—I put-on my Duke swimmer’s jockstrap and a pair of my Perry Ellis silky briefs—a nice combination! I went to lie-down on my comfortable sofa, but without music this time around.

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Fantasy or Reality?
I began to relax and possibly wait for another erection. But then, something quite unexpected happened. I began to dwell on a “fantasy” with imagery so real that perhaps the line between reality and fantasy was blurred for a while. Here is what developed…..

Major Breakthrough!

So, as my Helix still hadn’t shown up yet, I decided last night to get together with the Progasm, despite having trouble with it staying in. I followed my usual routines and when I got to bed, I stayed on top of the sheets for about 10 minutes, giving myself a rubdown of sorts. I use the fingertips to ever so lightly touch my skin, starting from my shoulders and running down my sides, abdomen and upper legs. I approach my nipples slowly and when I do get to them, rubbing and pinching harder and harder. All of this caressing is sending energy waves into my perineum and scrotum.
After I lube and insert the Progasm, I can feel tingling as I breath nice and slow and deep. When I can feel I’m ready to move on, I start contractions and over the course of the next hour, I had some pleasant feelings but nothing special. I removed it and took a break for about 20 minutes. When I came back to the Aneros, I took a lot longer with my breathing, about 20 minutes. Then within about 2 minutes, I started feeling the sensations working up from my prostate. As they swept through my abdomen, they went through my head as well, closing my hearing to the ordinary sounds of the bedroom. But instead of curling up in a tight ball and shaking, I started to pogo instead. My head was bobbing up and down and my legs were pushing down and pulling up. My arms were bouncing up and down. It was a different reaction to before, in that this time, I didn’t feel tight. Instead, my body was flopping, with little control. I was clamping on the Progasm as tight as I could. I felt another wave of energy coming up and I let it flow through me and envelop my head, and every part of my core. That’s when things got really wild. My head and the entire rest of my body started flopping from side to side, and my hips were simultaneously thrusting back and forth and my penis was getting hard. Vocalizing was totally out of my control, and I could vaguely hear, off in the distance, groans, moans, and whimpers. It lasted at least 2 minutes and ended only with, as usual, the damn Progasm slipped out. I quickly re-inserted it and the Super-O started again. Same as before, just not quite as intense. I had to re-insert each time and I had a total of 4 Super-O’s. I pulled out the Aneros and got up to take a break.
While I sat at the table, I was moaning and rubbing my nipples, and giggling at the same time. My anus was fluttering and I had buzzing through my cheeks and perineum. When I finally returned to the bed, I decided to go Aless and see what would happen. I was up so high at this point, that within a minute or two, I was going through another 2 SO’s. Not quite as intense as that first one half an hour ago, but still extremely satisfying.
I rolled onto my stomach and decided to go to sleep. I wasn’t thinking of anything in particular, and before I could stop it, another lesser Super O rolled in. It took me by such surprise, that I couldn’t even contract and breath to try and keep it going. When it eased, I could feel more Anus flutters and tingling, and within a few minutes another one rolled in. I was ready for this one and managed to turn it into 3 multiples.
Now, I’m starting to worry that I’ll never get any sleep. I rolled onto my back and thought about ways to stop things. Then, I remembered Penis,NOT and took hold of it. I started another orgasm right away, and thought that that didn’t seem to help at all. When it eased off, I was left holding a hard penis, sexual level on extra high.This sucker was red and stretched at the end, but remained dry. I said out loud, ‘Fuck, I need a pussy to shove this into!’ That started me off again. I turned onto my side, still holding my penis and as my hips thrust back and forth, my arm was slapping against my thighs as I held on. At this point, the slightest sexual thought pushed me over the edge, and I ended up seeing spots again, with my head and arms flopping around.
After, I really tried to calm myself down, but my body wasn’t quite done. I had several more Dry Orgasms as the night went on, and by 3 am, I thought the worst was over. I continued to feel flutters and tingles, along with twitches all over. Somehow I managed to fall asleep.
I’m glad I was able to sleep in a little this morning.

“Helix Trident – My New-Found Friend!”

Background
My! What a session this morning with the Helix Trident! But I need to back-up first to the beginning….

I have been sleeping without wearing a “chastity cup” for the past week. Is it helping me to sleep better? Perhaps, but I am still awakened by some extremely-strong night-time erections (NPTs). One this morning was extremely arousing. I decided to retreat to my comfortable sofa and just chill with some relaxing music for a while. I was not wearing anything but PJs. After a while, I began to meditate and fantasize. And my erection switched “on” as if by magic! What caused the “switch” to be thrown? I believe it was when I began to fantasize about having a prostate procedure this morning in the hospital. When I contemplated this upcoming activity, my cock sprung into action! I could not stop another extremely hard erection from developing! And before long, I “knew” the rest of the fantasy was in store for me! Here it is…..

Fantasy
I am being prepared for a “procedure” on my prostate this morning and the prep will consist of two “phases”. The first is that I need to refrain from any kind of masturbation for a full two-hour period by wearing a hard-cup athletic supporter. I was given a Mueller jockstrap with FlexShield cup to wear and I put it on.

Don’t throw in the towel!

The sessions I had on Saturday and Sunday were nothing to write home about. Not that I would be writing home to tell anyone about this! At any rate, Saturday night wasn’t disappointing, it’s just that nothing really happened, beyond a few light P-waves. Sunday night was a little better, with stronger waves attempting to push through but not quite making it. I’m still having trouble with the Progasm wanting to work itself out.
Now Monday night. What an interesting evening, even though it didn’t start out that way. I’d had the shower and cleaned up. I settled into bed with my Bose noise cancelling headphones. Some sexual Binaural beats from youtube while I looked at erotic photos of women. Then some meditative breathing followed by a couple of rounds of contractions. I had found out that my Helix Syn would be delivered Tuesday, and I suppose that was on my mind. As well as thinking about whether the Progasm was staying in place caused some preoccupation and really didn’t help me. I got up, used the washroom and had a drink and then re-lubed and re-inserted. I let my mind completely relax and didn’t think about much of anything. After a time, I started feeling some fluttering and slight movement of the Aneros. I let the wave move up my body and suddenly, SLAM! The Progasm was jammed in right to the handles, and tight! Holy cow, it felt like I could have hung from a clothesline! It stayed in me for a long time, although I wasn’t getting any really strong feelings of pleasure. It felt good, don’t get me wrong. Very good! It stayed tight like that and then eased off a bit, still buried deep. The rock hard erection that had popped up, faded away too. I was all set to do a few contractions and enjoy whatever came next, but a four-legged varmint decided to change all that. My cat decided to move, and wouldn’t you know it the damn thing decided to park right against my ass! Okay, so that’s coitus interruptus!
So I got up, had a dart and read for a while. I had removed the Progasm, cleaned it and put it away. It was getting quite late and I wasn’t really up to more. Nonetheless, I laid down on my side with a pillow between my knees. I thought a few nice P-waves would be a nice way to finish the night. So, I contracted everything tightly and held until I started to shake. Then, I started feeling a light flutter around my anus, tingling in my butt cheeks and a different kind of wave gently starting to spread. I knew regular breathing would probably block it out, so I tried something different. Half breaths, with exhalation loudly and forcefully through a circular mouth. As I exhaled, I forced my emptying belly inward and down toward my centre. The wave would come back a little stronger each time I did that. My prostate and perineum started coming alive and I noticed that I was involuntarily moving. My head was moving down and my knees were drawing up as I finished each exhalation. I started shaking and soon I was moaning and groaning loudly, without even thinking about it. I was clenched up in a tight ball and my penis felt like it was ready to ejaculate. Outside sound and space vanished. It lasted for maybe 5 seconds and then eased. After a moment I contracted and released again. It started to build, I changed my breathing, and BAM! Curled up in a little ball again! More vocals, a little louder and more special breathing, and it stayed about 10 or 15 seconds. I felt like I was onto something unbelievable and so I did it 4 more times, each one a little more intense. Then I thought I’d better stop as my back was getting a little sore. Go to the kitchen and read and back to bed about 20 minutes later. While I’m reading, I can still feel fluttering throughout my lower abdomen, scrotum and prostate. Okay now, seriously, it’s time to go to bed. Onto my stomach for sleep. But the devil in me says, c’mon! Try it on your stomach. Yep, it worked, except that now my head is sliding down the bed and my ass is heading for the ceiling. And my penis dragging along the flannel sheets as I head skyward really intensifies the feeling of ejaculation, even though nothing is actually happening. I did it one more time like that and decided that position bears future investigation! Once more, then 2 more times on my side and now it’s really time for bed. 2:45 am and I’ve been at it for about 5 hours. I had a few gentle p-waves as I drifted off to sleep with, I’m sure, a smile on my face!