The beast awakened and unleashed

I went to bed last night at 9:30, as I needed to get up at 4:30. Having had an amazing 2.5 hour Aless session from 4am yesterday morning, followed by a 2 hour session with the Helix, culminating in a Super T, my prostate was humming all day.

Lying in bed, it only took 15 minutes of aless, just focusing on tiny motions pulling in my TA muscles, before I was swooning in whole body warmth, with what I assume were Dry-Os. From quarter past midnight, I was drifting between sleep and awake, feeling the contractions of my abdomen, PC and anal muscles taking me through the most seductive of pleasures. Although I did not experience any orgasm after the early ones, I got plenty of involuntaries, where the Helix was sucked in so deep, it felt like it wanted to come out the other side.

I tried to focus on the energy ball suggested by @SOwithoutAneros, which had the effect of helping me relax my muscles rather than tensing up.

After getting back from the gym this morning at 7am, the Helix went straight in and I spent the next 90 minutes, feeling a myriad of sensations. I definitely felt the small pulsing of blood in the anal muscle and the resultant tiny movements across my prostate.

I did NOT Expect this when I started my journey!

I have been on the journey for almost a year now, and have been achieving incredible super-orgasms of amazing heights and depth, always evolving, sometimes in giant leaps, and sometimes in gradual crawls. I was no stranger to Aless sessions and mind-blowing Super Orgasms, but recently I discovered new levels of communion with an endless orgasm-energy.

I posted recently that I felt like I was in a lull of sorts, a place where I could not imagine or envision where to go, but at the same time, having an unmistakeable sense of there being much more to explore. I felt like I had dug far “linearly” but once there, I had not explored “broadly” if that makes any sense. I took to heart the advice of being mindful of what wolf I fed, (in my personal life) and not worrying too much about WHERE to go. After these recent incredible sessions, I fully understood that destination implies a hunt, a specific start and end, which is not what this is about (as I understand it) it’s much more of getting in SYNC with an ever-present pleasure-energy, and opening new and wider channels to enter “communion” with it.

been a bit

Been a bit since last entry.

So a few weeks ago I had a strange session where I got super bad heart burn, long of the short is ended up ‘pushing the energy down’ (see post “first time for everything”) once I did that the heart burn went away like it didn’t exist but along with it any sensations in every session after. So I put things away for a bit and went back old school. Without getting into great details I started to feel intermittent unasked for sensations again, beginnings to a-less orgasm starting to ignite. It was like my prostate was asking “what about me? HELLO! I thought we were friends, where’d you go?” I gave it a few more days to make sure it wasn’t just my mind playing tricks on me, and each day I had the slow quiet ignition. That weekend I joined w/ JR while in the shower. I also happened to do something I don’t normally do, I slowly edged feeling JR rubbing and tickling, staying fully relaxed, enjoying all he offered me. I just let this go and started to ooze cum, felt so relaxing. JR was taking care of me so gently, working over my prostate so slowly, I literally got a hand full of cum (I don’t know why I caught it but I did) and I had ejaculated 2 days before and got next to nothing. I finished my shower but instead of dismounting I decided to stay joined w/ JR (I have masturbated when joined w/ Miss MGX on purpose 2 times before but always dismounted after). He gave me several lovely orgasms during that session, that’s all I can say, I should have wrote it down.

“Sexual Regularity”

Introduction
Having slept in my Mueller Flex Shield cup overnight and now in a new Day 3 of SR, I awoke at about 1 AM. I wanted to retreat down to the comfort of my sofa and I selected a nice, soothing track for Solfeggio 639 Hz meditation: “It enables creation of harmonious community and harmonious interpersonal relationships”.

Almost as soon as I starting listening and meditating, I began to make an important connection. Let me explain…..

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{Note: this connection may seem somewhat bizarre and absurd at first, but please hear me out!..}

I have bouts of constipation from time to time and thus was the case a couple days ago. Having been irregular for a couple of days, I knew that I needed some help. I needed to take a laxative. I waited up until bedtime without success, then made the decision to take it. I did and then retired for the night. After about 4 hours, I felt it starting to work and was relieved that 10 hours later, when I awoke, I was “regular” again!

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Now, what does this have to do with the meditation, you may ask? Well, it occurred to me that our sexual selves operate, in fact, with regularity. Let me give some examples….

Our NPTs which almost all of us men experience at night, occur with great regularity. If they did not, something would be wrong with our sexual “plumbing”. I anticipate these and sometimes am prepared by wearing a “chastity cup” to negate the stimulating effects of the ensuing erections.

Calm Blue Ocean

Started out with what is the usual routine now – warm, relax, flex, lube. Getting the Peridise in place was easy, as my body has been craving it all day. At certain times earlier, I could feel an almost purring or thrumming inside the space between the base of my scrotum and my anus. Could be my prostate? Hard to know. It was a subtle vibration, in some ways, and it felt good. When my body pulled the device in on its own accord, it took it in up to the last bulb, where the last nub stayed half in, half out of my anus. Gentle contractions didn’t pull it in any more than that, so I decided to keep it in that position unless my body pulled it in further.

Again tried the “do nothing” approach. I didn’t get the same sweet feeling inside my anal / prostate / scrotum region, but in relaxing, I could feel my body sometimes making involuntary movements with the device. I could feel it gently moving a bit here and there, and it felt good. As I let my body relax throughout the session, even though the device wasn’t moving much (at least consciously?), I felt a gradual increase of pressure on my prostate. It engorged with seminal fluid, and I could feel the pressure building inside. Mostly my penis remained flaccid, but with that pressure, more precum started leaking out the tip. At times, I was incredibly tempted to start conscious muscle contractions, but fought the idea away and tried to stay relaxed. The mounting pressure in my prostate was amazing, and it was craving release. At the end of the session, my body reluctantly gave up the Peridise, and released a significant amount of precum throughout.

What a strange session …

This was different indeed and quite the learning experience.

Flushed myself out with an enema. Lubed up with the organic shortening which I’m really starting to like. Popped in the Progasm. Face down on the bed with a couple pillows under my hips.

Had four SO’s in about six minutes. These were REALLY nice orgasms. After that though the intensity dropped off. I could still get to an orgasm but not with the intensity of the first four or even close to what I usually get. They were kind of what I’ll call “sideways”. This is how I refer to a traditional orgasm when you’ve tried to hold it to let it build then it all falls apart sensation wise. You still climax and ejaculate but you’ve blown the best part of the sensation.

Anyway, I stopped and took a break for a few minutes then I popped in the PS-New. Same results. Got up took care of a few things around the house. Grabbed the Helix Trident, not even close to what I had with the Progasm and PS-New. Kept this up back and forth for an hour and decided to stop.

Finished up around the house and decided to give it another go. Same thing. Face down, on my back, pillows under hips, no pillows, on my side, nothing worked. Gave up again and decided to get the big butt plug out and enjoy it for a while.

Shaking in the Calm

I was thinking after my T.O. on Friday morning that I might be out of commission for a while. SO I thought I would use the downtime to do lots of reading and research. As an added bonus, A neighbour who I had done some work for, gave me some cash so I was able to buy some more tools for my toolbox. I had been torn between a Trident Maximus and a Trident MGX. I had thought about the Trident Eupho, but my reading had shown it to be for more advanced users. With this added cash in hand, I decided to do some shopping. I found a site, Global Sex Toys, selling the Maximus, MGX and Eupho for 70 bucks minus a whopping 25% first time customer discount. This should be lots of fun; I won’t know which one to try first!
By Friday night, I was feeling randy again, even though I’d had a T.O. in the morning. I stuck with the Helix and shortly after I started, I was enjoying the usual dancing routine. I had been reading Rumel’s post in the archives (Instructions-Older Version). I realized that to really start reaching new levels, I had to try and simmer down the shaking and improve my breathing. I grasped that reducing or eliminating the shaking would allow me a better chance to feel whatever came from the prostate and other areas. The Helix is so much more subtle that I felt that gentler shaking would be easier. So when the shaking starting, I eased the contraction slightly and let my head loll back a little. Per Rumel’s advice, I started stretching my legs back, very, very slowly, so as to not break the wave of feelings.
With the shaking reduced to a bare discernible vibration deep in my lower core, I focused on the feelings from my prostate (a kind of humming), the gentle tapping on my perineum from the p-tab, and the movement of my sphincter muscles as they helped the Helix pop in and out. With the realization of those feelings, came the waves, heavy and warm with promise and pleasure. My head stayed back and my legs stayed straight, my feet pointing straight down. My upper body began very slowly to move downward and then sideways, in a writhing motion. Swinging forward then back, off to one side and then another. I didn’t get spots this time, but it felt like the room was streaming with bright light beyond my closed eyes. Depending on how I held the contraction, I could reduce or increase the inner vibrations. For a very long time, I did nothing but writhe very very slowly on the spot. I heard nothing and saw nothing but the bright light sensation. When I came back, I hazarded a quick glance at the clock and saw that 5 minutes had passed by.
With a light contraction, I started back in and had the same experience, over and over for a prolonged duration each time. When I finally came back to earth after the fifth time, I took a break. My heart rate hadn’t really gone up, I never, to my knowledge, achieved an erection. But I was warm and glowing with a very light sheen of sweat on my body. I saw that an hour had gone by now, and I took a break. When I came back to bed, I was able to recreate the experience on my other side as well as on my stomach. And when I removed the Helix, I was able to get almost to that same point, but by now, I was more than good with my trip.
And I was only awakened twice after I drifted off for a couple of really good Dry-O’s.
The journey continues and I welcome all the steps, big or small!

She’s so nimble!

I’ve been away from posting for a couple of days now, and I thought I’d better post before I start forgetting things. Not like people of a certain age like myself to forget stuff! Thursday afternoon I finally got my Helix Syn. It was am excruciating few hours from then on, until I could deal with supper, and deal with the usual aspects of life. The entire time, I was tingling with anticipation and when me time rolled around, I was ready to go. Thorough cleanup, then onto the rubdown. All primed, eager and ready!
The Helix is so small, it’s hard to believe that this thing could do anything. Hold it alongside my Progasm and it’s like a toy. Lubed up I started slipping it in. I got it past the first bump and then it pulled itself in without any more help from me. I felt it leave my fingers and I wouldn’t have been surprised if I had heard a click when it locked itself in. The crack of my butt is fairly deep and this handle was perfectly nestled deep down there. No way that this device was going to rotate.
Already I could feel tingles, but I made to sure to do some deep breathing anyway. 5 minutes later, I knew I was ready. It takes very little relaxing to get over the initial insertion, compared to the Progasm, because it’s so much smaller. Right away, it started twitching and moving and the more contractions I did and the deeper I did them, the more this little princess danced around. I relaxed and let it start working. I felt much more subtle waves with this Helix than the Progasm, which makes sense to me. But I wasn’t ready for the control I had on her. A light contraction and I would start waves easing up my body. Harder contractions and I was sinking and curling up. Ease off a little and I could pull back and breath through the waves.
This little honey was dancing away on my perineum and prostate so much, but not slamming like the Progasm. Almost like butterfly wings would feel. I was getting constant tingles at my anus and I could feel it popping up and down. So much pleasure! Every position I tried was letting me enjoy the light flashing, sound blocking Super O’s. By the end of the night, I was able to start experimenting with suppressing the shaking and letting an even deeper wave of nothingness and pleasure start to approach.
Rolling onto my stomach was much more comfortable and then I was able to truly able to let the subtleties of the Helix go to work. My butt cheeks, perineum, anus, upper legs and thighs were tingling and fluttering and when I completely relaxed, p-waves would sweep in and deepen and then ease away. Trying to really get to sleep wasn’t a possibility though, because she would suddenly say ‘C’mon, let’s play some more!’
After I removed it and tried to go to sleep, I could still feel my anus fluttering and the p-waves went on for quite some time. Finally sleep came to me after a really fantastic session.
The next morning, I took care of the usual routines of life and after a really erotic feeling shower, I knew that I could definitely stand some more Helix time. After a short while, I switched over to the Progasm. I went from a nympho disguised as a mousy little librarian to an Amazon Queen who was holding me down and saying, ‘This is gonna happen!” Much more intensity and more shaking and moaning than the night before. But I knew I still had more exercise to do as of the Progasm finally popped out. Back in with the Helix. Not so much enjoyment now. I think I was still tuned to the larger device and just wasn’t feeling what the little Helix was doing. So I decided to finish off with a T.O.
That proved to be a little difficult in an enjoyable way. As I was stroking, of course I was flexing my pc muscles and I would get two or three strokes in and start curling in and then relax and repeat. It wasn’t the best finish and I think next time I have a T.O., I’ll leave the device out.

“All-Aboard The SR Express!”

Background
Ultimately, the choice whether or not to remain in chastity remains with me. Yesterday, in Day 8 of semen retention, I thought it would be “fitting” to end this current SR “run” on Valentine’s Day. I even “nudged” my wife to help finish-me-off. But apparently, she had another idea. She started out caressing my enlarged package and I thought I would finally reach my goal. But she had another plan and so, after about 10 minutes, I was left still in chastity and possibly with a case of the blue-balls pending. How frustrating but yet arousing at the same time!

I decided to sleep in my XO ProCup overnight to avoid any temptation; I was still feeling like I needed to ejaculate and so I could not tempt an unintentional release.

Later-on in the evening, I was awakened by a rather arousing erection within the cup and I felt kind of close to the PONR. I went to the bathroom and then decided to switch gears—I put-on my Duke swimmer’s jockstrap and a pair of my Perry Ellis silky briefs—a nice combination! I went to lie-down on my comfortable sofa, but without music this time around.

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Fantasy or Reality?
I began to relax and possibly wait for another erection. But then, something quite unexpected happened. I began to dwell on a “fantasy” with imagery so real that perhaps the line between reality and fantasy was blurred for a while. Here is what developed…..

Major Breakthrough!

So, as my Helix still hadn’t shown up yet, I decided last night to get together with the Progasm, despite having trouble with it staying in. I followed my usual routines and when I got to bed, I stayed on top of the sheets for about 10 minutes, giving myself a rubdown of sorts. I use the fingertips to ever so lightly touch my skin, starting from my shoulders and running down my sides, abdomen and upper legs. I approach my nipples slowly and when I do get to them, rubbing and pinching harder and harder. All of this caressing is sending energy waves into my perineum and scrotum.
After I lube and insert the Progasm, I can feel tingling as I breath nice and slow and deep. When I can feel I’m ready to move on, I start contractions and over the course of the next hour, I had some pleasant feelings but nothing special. I removed it and took a break for about 20 minutes. When I came back to the Aneros, I took a lot longer with my breathing, about 20 minutes. Then within about 2 minutes, I started feeling the sensations working up from my prostate. As they swept through my abdomen, they went through my head as well, closing my hearing to the ordinary sounds of the bedroom. But instead of curling up in a tight ball and shaking, I started to pogo instead. My head was bobbing up and down and my legs were pushing down and pulling up. My arms were bouncing up and down. It was a different reaction to before, in that this time, I didn’t feel tight. Instead, my body was flopping, with little control. I was clamping on the Progasm as tight as I could. I felt another wave of energy coming up and I let it flow through me and envelop my head, and every part of my core. That’s when things got really wild. My head and the entire rest of my body started flopping from side to side, and my hips were simultaneously thrusting back and forth and my penis was getting hard. Vocalizing was totally out of my control, and I could vaguely hear, off in the distance, groans, moans, and whimpers. It lasted at least 2 minutes and ended only with, as usual, the damn Progasm slipped out. I quickly re-inserted it and the Super-O started again. Same as before, just not quite as intense. I had to re-insert each time and I had a total of 4 Super-O’s. I pulled out the Aneros and got up to take a break.
While I sat at the table, I was moaning and rubbing my nipples, and giggling at the same time. My anus was fluttering and I had buzzing through my cheeks and perineum. When I finally returned to the bed, I decided to go Aless and see what would happen. I was up so high at this point, that within a minute or two, I was going through another 2 SO’s. Not quite as intense as that first one half an hour ago, but still extremely satisfying.
I rolled onto my stomach and decided to go to sleep. I wasn’t thinking of anything in particular, and before I could stop it, another lesser Super O rolled in. It took me by such surprise, that I couldn’t even contract and breath to try and keep it going. When it eased, I could feel more Anus flutters and tingling, and within a few minutes another one rolled in. I was ready for this one and managed to turn it into 3 multiples.
Now, I’m starting to worry that I’ll never get any sleep. I rolled onto my back and thought about ways to stop things. Then, I remembered Penis,NOT and took hold of it. I started another orgasm right away, and thought that that didn’t seem to help at all. When it eased off, I was left holding a hard penis, sexual level on extra high.This sucker was red and stretched at the end, but remained dry. I said out loud, ‘Fuck, I need a pussy to shove this into!’ That started me off again. I turned onto my side, still holding my penis and as my hips thrust back and forth, my arm was slapping against my thighs as I held on. At this point, the slightest sexual thought pushed me over the edge, and I ended up seeing spots again, with my head and arms flopping around.
After, I really tried to calm myself down, but my body wasn’t quite done. I had several more Dry Orgasms as the night went on, and by 3 am, I thought the worst was over. I continued to feel flutters and tingles, along with twitches all over. Somehow I managed to fall asleep.
I’m glad I was able to sleep in a little this morning.