Some reflections

Just jotting down little ideas that pop into my head at random times during the day. Things that I might wish to look into more, or just observations being made. Postcards on the journey!

Seat warmers
I’ve got them in my car, and I’ve noticed since I started this journey, that when I use them, I get cool p-waves and flutters down there. I don’t use seat warmers very often or for very long usually, but now I’m getting some pleasant feelings. Not distracting me from driving, but just a general addition to my level of sexual feelings.

Constant Arousal
I’ve become much more aware of how high my level can get to, and that awareness of course, serves to heighten it more. It’s winter right now, so I’m wearing hoodies a lot, but sometimes I’ll crank the thermostat a little to shed some clothing. After my morning shower, I’ll usually walk around the house wearing just underwear and a t-shirt. The underwear is made of modal material and is very sleek and form fitting. It keeps the package out front more, which makes me aware. The shirt is usually a workout shirt featuring dry-wick material. It rubs against my nipples through the day.

Physical Chastity – My First Experiences

Hi Folks,

all the reports about chastity cups, mental chastity and semen retention here intrigued me a lot. Finally I couldn’t resist to give physical chastity a try. As usual the first cage a man orders has been much too big, although it was difficult enough to cool him down to a really flaccid state and his smallest size to get him at all even into that bigger model of those tiny tubes. But with a lot of lube and a lot of persuasion it suddenly happened.

LOCKED UP!

I’d never thought, that being locked up alone already would feel so arousing, even if doing it myself is still enabling me to free myself whenever I’d like. Of course I don’t want to spoil my own party, why I will try to endure the situation as long as I can bear it, but it all still belongs to my own decision. How I now can empathize with all the lucky poor guys who have given away their only key! Ooh, writing this, the next wave of arousal engulfs my whole body.

The only problem with that first too big cage has been my ability to start an erection, thus my member could squirm and writhe and fill my cage to the max, what already has been too much and why it‘s been so painful.

Now I can already proudly announce to be back in physical chastity again, caged in my CB-6000 for the second time.

“Sexual Regularity”

Introduction
Having slept in my Mueller Flex Shield cup overnight and now in a new Day 3 of SR, I awoke at about 1 AM. I wanted to retreat down to the comfort of my sofa and I selected a nice, soothing track for Solfeggio 639 Hz meditation: “It enables creation of harmonious community and harmonious interpersonal relationships”.

Almost as soon as I starting listening and meditating, I began to make an important connection. Let me explain…..

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{Note: this connection may seem somewhat bizarre and absurd at first, but please hear me out!..}

I have bouts of constipation from time to time and thus was the case a couple days ago. Having been irregular for a couple of days, I knew that I needed some help. I needed to take a laxative. I waited up until bedtime without success, then made the decision to take it. I did and then retired for the night. After about 4 hours, I felt it starting to work and was relieved that 10 hours later, when I awoke, I was “regular” again!

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Now, what does this have to do with the meditation, you may ask? Well, it occurred to me that our sexual selves operate, in fact, with regularity. Let me give some examples….

Our NPTs which almost all of us men experience at night, occur with great regularity. If they did not, something would be wrong with our sexual “plumbing”. I anticipate these and sometimes am prepared by wearing a “chastity cup” to negate the stimulating effects of the ensuing erections.

The first few days

In the beginning, there was darkness. Hmm. I think maybe that one’s been taken. Try this. I remember my first sexual experience. It was dark, I was afraid, I was alone. Hmm. Not much better. Okay, focus here. My story, insofar as it relates to this part of my journey starts about two years ago. Being a 50 year old male with a healthy sex drive, but a less than healthy marriage, I knew the end was near. I started exploring other facets of sexuality and came across this phenomena known as the Prostate Orgasm. My only experience with the prostate to date was that lovely once a year date with my doctor. (Where do I hang up my pants, Doc? Over there beside mine!) A nitrile glove slathered with enough ice cold lube to float an ocean liner had me convinced that there was really nothing up that dark alley that could make me feel good.
Nonetheless, I decided to look into it further and stopped in at the Stag Shop to peruse their selection of toys for men who wanted to expand their horizons. I let myself be talked into buying a small anal vibrator for about 30 bucks. It was very basic, powered by a bullet that slipped into the massager. I read up on how to relax, use a pillow and keep a towel handy. All I got for my efforts was a lubed ass, and trace amounts of precum. But my next bowel movement came out quite quickly, so there is that. I guess.
Fast forward to January of this year. I’ve been out on my own for some time now and decided that I had the time and privacy to look into this subject again. I had scavenged the bullet, taking parts to fabricate a blender/ice crusher. Sadly, that brought me more pleasure than the original manifestation!
On to the Stag Shop website, where I looked again at a veritable cornucopia of passive and dynamic arse and prostate toys. I settled on something called the Aneros Progasm. The name Progasm just clicked with me. Hey, it sounds like Orgasm! So, I based my first serious choice of tool on word association! Boldly, I clicked ‘Add to Cart” and sat back to wait.
Or did I? I had started reading up again on this subject, and found out that I need not wait, twiddling my thumbs. There was something less effective, known as external massage. So that evening, I put some erotic porn on the tablet, and lay back and got busy. I was surprised to find that although it is not effective, what with the prostate being buried deep behind skin and muscle, I still was able to get something from it. It was small and very localized, centered around the perineum. Numb, yet tingly. After two of those, I proceeded with a T.O. and it felt a little more fulfilling. The ejaculate was thinner, whiter and a little more powerful. The next night, I tried again but I must have pushed a little too hard the night before, as things were a little tender. Just the same, because I’ve got a very healthy libido, I finished off with a T.O.
Wednesday, 30th January 2019, 1600 hours. Our intrepid Shadow66 enters his local postal outlet and nods to the clerk behind the counter. They exchange pleasantries in Cantonese, but since neither of them speak Cantonese, it’s all lost in translation. (Ooh! Ooh! Just had a thought! Remember at the beginning of that movie when Scarlett Johansson is lying on the bed in sheer panties, ass facing the camera? Oh yeah baby! Lock that one away in the internal hard drive for later!)
Back on point here, sex-fiend! Our hero returns home where he carefully and savagely removes the wrapper and opens the box. He is temporarily blinded by the 10,000 Lumen beam of light emanating from the box. He pauses and looks around the room, trying to locate the source of the heavenly choir singing Hallelujah! He slowly and carefully removes the Progasm from it’s nest.
Wow! This thing is pretty hefty. And big! Maybe not the Anal Intruder from the movie Top Secret, but it looks like putting it in me arse will be like running an SD70 locomotive through a 1920’s tunnel.
That night I shower and clean up the portal, grab the seductive, grown up, more realistic porn, as opposed to the juvenile look-at-beach-balls fakery so prevalent nowadays. Something about an amateur wife moaning and stroking herself to a genuine hip-bucking, sheet-thrashing O is so much hotter than the alternative. My selections are more for the audio aspects anyway. Less distracting and more opportunity to build the set and situation in my mind. I think I’d better move on, since I’m starting to feel a little too horny to type properly.
I lube up aith some KY liquid at the door and on the Progasm. Position is paramount here people! And breathing. And relaxing. It goes in surprisingly easy. So, it’s time for darkness, breathing aaaand, nothing. For 3 hours, nada! Patient and relaxed for 3. freakin. hours. I can feel it in there. It’s not terribly comfortable. So I finish off with a T.O. while it’s still inside. I do notice that when I stroke myself up, the head is shiny and red, much like when wearing a cock ring. So the head is bigger, and it takes twice as long to finish, but the shot is powerful enough to knock the spider out of the corner of the ceiling, and it’s thin and whiter, so obviously, I’m clearing out the junk and such from my prostate.
Thursday night is the same. No pleasure. But at this point, as per Aneros’s packaging, I find the forum and start lurking. I end up trying this Progasm for most of the night, trying to sleep with it in. It’s heft works against me as I find it trying to slip out when I walk around. I finally take it out, and try it again early the next morning. Again, no fireworks and I finish off with the usual T.O.
Saturday afternoon, I’ve registered for the forum and start reading some more. I see a couple of notations that catch my eye. 1: the Progasm is more for expert level and I should be looking at something like the Helix. 2: the Progasm needs lots of lube. It’s Saturday afternoon, baby it’s cold outside and I’ve got some time to dedicate to further hands-off research. This time, with nothing better to use, I break out the Vaseline Intensive care. I know that it’s a petroleum (oil-based) jelly but let’s get after it! Between the coating on the Progasm and my butt, I could Tokyo Drift around the hairpins at Nurburgring! I slide this Exxon Valdez in and immediately it feels better than the last time. The lube provides a soft cushion, a buffer between the massager and the prostate, instead of just the hard plastic. With the audio playing in the background and some belly breathing and kegels, I start to work. I’m not paying attention to the clock so I don’t know how long I’ve been there. I’ve stopped the kegels, I’ve stopped the special breathing, and I’m kind of dozing very lightly. I can feel something happening. I can’t describe it exactly as I’ve never felt anything to compare it to. It’s like a sheet of sensation over my body, my abdomen and chest, even in my lips. It’s numb, yet tingly, and I can hear my heart beat. It’s not beating much faster, but I can hear it. My body seems to be shutting out external sounds, wiping out entire frequency ranges. I no longer hear the cat snoring nearby, and I barely hear the ceiling fan. I know I’ve got a little smile on my face, and I’m feeling very peaceful and calm. Oh, yeah. This is feeling pretty cool. Not as good as the 3 or 4 seconds during the peak of a T.O., but it’s lasting longer. How long, I can’t say, but probably a good 30 seconds. I’m letting myself get into the moment, and not trying to analyze it. It fades away and I breath a big contented sigh. It’s not a Super O, but it’s a new experience and I’ve enjoyed it. I roll over onto my other side and since the tablet is now closer, I can hear the beautiful woman moaning and gently stroking right by my face. I’m fantasizing about her laying in front of me, face to face, and after a while, I realize that it’s happening again, about the same time that I realize that I’m not even listening to her. I’m in my little cocoon and I can feel the same sensations rolling over me. I feel something beating a tattoo on the bed, and I think at the moment that the cat is scratching herself. Only later do I realize that the cat never moved. I was gently vibrating on the bed.
After this second experience, I glance at the clock, and decide to run errands. When I get up, I notice that there is a squirt mark on the towel that is a little damp. I didn’t feel it happen and that’s the way I want it to go. Just let things happen. But Saturday night, after a cleansing shower, I decide to try again. I’ve noticed that I only have to do kegels for a while and not all the way up to onset. Must research this more. I’ve also decided not to have any audio stimulation, but instead do some gentle, non-distracting fantasizing. I breath deeply for about 15 minutes or 2 years; not really sure, since I’m not watching the clock. I also do the exercises during this time, drawing tight, holding for 3 seconds and then slowly releasing. I get a small localized sensation in the perineum again, but even as I relax more, it goes away. I get a couple of smaller versions of the sensations I had earlier that day. And then, after time passes, I get a bigger one again. This time, it’s a little bigger than the afternoon. I let my head roll back a bit, and I gently smile, knowing that it’s a good thing, and I’m open to it, and I welcome and want it to envelop me and take me wherever it goes. My eyes are closed and oddly, I can see the darkness slowly rotating in my mind. Soft dots of lights, like distant stars are present. My penis is getting stiff, and I’m lazily chuckling in the back of my mind. It eventually fades but I know it was a little more intense.
I roll onto my stomach, which is my sleeping position, and over the next little while, I feel 3 more times, lesser sensations beginning and then quickly fading.
Now it’s time to get up, have a dart and a drink of water and do some reading. I’ve already ordered the Helix Syn and now I’m reading that abstinence makes the prostate grow fonder. So it’s Super Bowl Sunday, and I’m going to swear off T.O.’s for a while and swear off prostate massage until the Helix comes in. In the meantime, I’ll practice my kegels and breathing. Next update coming up soon.

Mentorship

In 2013 I was extremely active on line, perhaps too active. Work was really stressful and I used this forum and two others as a means to let off steam with sexual chat and sharing information and experiences with like minded people of both sexes. I also mentored some men just starting with aneros. Here in the Aneros Forum many of the chats I was having in PM were with guys who were just getting on board and were looking for coaching and personal help. That’s how I met my number 2. He was a 29 year old post army college student in his senior year at Bowling Green University. He was single and heterosexual, but had a very open attitude towards sexual relations. Looking back on it after having spent time with him I would say now that he was bicurious.

He introduced himself to me in the chat room in a PM. There was something about him that came through even in instant messages. He was a really nice guy. He had just started Aneros a year earlier and was making outstanding progress; he was having super o’s, but was having trouble with focus. His mind kept drifting off in the throes of ecstatic orgasms. As his thoughts drifted his O’s withered. We chatted about that problem ending in our first chat with me offering a variety of ideas how to manage it. That first chat was followed by many others. Over the course of the six months that followed we began to interact in another IM tool out of the forums here.

Pleasure generating pleasure

Recently, the Aneros stroking my prostate has been so pleasurable in itself that I haven’t found the need for audio files like I always do in my previous sessions. The pleasure causes the PC muscles to contract and moves the Aneros to stroke the prostate and the cycle keeps on going.

The pleasure from the Aneros combined with erotic fantasies and circling around my nipples has been enough to tip me over to orgasm. This lets my body determine when it wants the orgasm instead of letting the audio dictate when I should receive pleasure.

I also noticed that my porn consumption has decreased because I realise that if I ejaculate, the session comes to an end. I would rather enjoy a longer and relaxing Anerosession than a rapid masturbation session and worry about ending it too quickly by ejaculating.

Woah

So it’s been maybe a month since the last time I played, but man was the craving there. Same set up as always, helix syn, porn, and my trusty hash oil pen.

Pretty normal session, aside from the fact that I was very horny from anticipation. The porn choice I selected is arguably more tame than what I’d normally watch, but how my body was feeling watching it you’d probably wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. I’ve found that I prefer watching something more audible (lots of moaning, screaming, etc) is way more stimulating while playing since I might not be watching. About half an hour in I decide to hit the vape pen and it really gets things going. About another half an hour goes by of riding the wave up and down and I had another wet orgasm. Instead of stopping the session here, I decided to keep riding it out for another 10 minutes since I was still feeling it.

I got up to clean up and take a shower and this is where things got interesting. As I was washing my hair I would close my eyes and I when I did it almost felt like everything was on a slant. I was having some audio hallucinations as well, must have been spilled over from the porn I was watching. There was very much an enlightened/euphoric feeling I was having while showering, and feeling very self aware of all the sensations while I was showering. If any of you are experienced with psychedelics, this was very similar to (if not exactly the same) as the “peak”. For the rest of the day I was feeling insanely horny, probably tugged it out 5 or so times haha.

Close call

Last night I had started with ET and switched to Max T after about an hour.
Rolled on my side with knees up high when I had almost a soft thrumming in my head with an undulating blue gray canvas display in my visual cortex. This was followed by a rapid series of porno images rolling through my mind. Very strange. I was awake so this wasn’t dreaming.
Lasted maybe 5 or 8 seconds.

It was all very subtle and I wanted more, but it faded out.
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Sixth Year Milestone

In the summer of my sixth year, mid way to my seventh year of Aneros the nature of my need for sexual pleasure and my response to arousal had shifted totally as a result of rewiring. Arousing images and fantasies still coaxed my penis to erection but at the same time a sexy woman or male penis porn or an erotic dream or writing my erotica would make my anus tingle and twinge and make my nipples erect.

However as much as rewiring bent my sexuality in an arc that I never would have predicted it also enhanced my sex practices and expanded my existing desires and proclivities.

My sex life began in reality when I was 19; from that date on it was focused solely on penis in vagina sex and masturbation. When I met my wife and we became intimate my prurient focus added oral sex on her. For both of us the most intense and pleasurable orgasms we both have occur during oral sex, whether it is me on her or her on me or in 69. Aside from rewiring and my orgasms I absolutely love my wife’s pussy. Licking her slot, suckling her clit or massaging her G spot with a finger it’s all good for me. Likewise I love to be sucked; the visual turn on is a huge influence on my orgasm and ejaculation. Fucking has been and still is a way for me to feel close to my wife. Like many women she loves it because she loves the fullness that penetration with my large penis provides. She loves the lurching tug of my shaft inside her and the swelling contracting action of my cock head that accompanies pumping of my ejaculate inside her. Having her juice my penis as I embrace her provides a visceral bond that is not available through any other means.

still here but less riding Kegel helps?

I’ve lost some of the faith for the SO but still really enjoy the riding and now have a new job that is a big time suck.
HOWEVER…. I have noticed something very strange lately – instead of a a-ride, I have just masturbated with porn once a week or two weeks. I am married but heading for a divorce and seeing another woman that we will start an affair soon – this idea of being with her and while I masturbate less frequently has led some very powerful orgasms – tingles all over, breathe taken away and head nearly hitting the desk (if I am sitting) – I am assuming that my PC/kegels are much stronger than ever and am wondering if others have noticed a much longer/deeper/tingle than normal masturbation- it really feels like the p-spot is activated and driving this? If so, happy man!
anyone?