I… I am simply trying to grasp what happened. Sorry this is long but I need to type this out.
Introduction. Bought an Aneros years ago. Couldn’t figure out how to enjoy it properly. Put it away for a few years, brought it back out every once in awhile to try again but still, no luck. About 2 months ago I decided to really put some effort into it, really practice, so I started placing it in during the later evening and just relaxing. Vaping some weed, sitting on the couch and just letting myself be.
Then for the first time ever, after about an hour or so, I felt something. Something different. It didn’t feel good per se, but it was a sensation in a region of my body I never had felt before. The first few times I did this, I thought, “I’m just high, this is all in my head. I’m pretending this sensation is there.” But with more times just sitting there with it in and high, it started pinpointing it more. One night, I had dozed off with it in, and suddenly woke up to something pulsing underneath. It was pleasurable, and I suddenly realized that this was not in my head. Went and sat on my bed and just let it happen. It felt good, but I didn’t feel rushed. You know how when you’re stimulating your penis, and it feels so damn good, but if you stop, it just feels… wrong somehow? Like it’s almost upsetting, you HAVE to keep going or you’re the experience will not be worth it? You just NEED to keep going? This sensation is different. It’s like, and I’m synesthetic so bare with me here, penile sensation is sharp, pointed and linear: it demands more and more. But this new sensation? It felt more circular, spherical, like a soft bubble floating up from the depths and pushing my insides. I didn’t care if it increased, it just felt really nice. For years I had never understood how my wife (and other women) could say that sex felt great *even if they didn’t orgasm*. It just didn’t make sense! How could you not want to finish? Doesn’t it make you feel antsy, almost angry if you don’t?