Some reflections

Just jotting down little ideas that pop into my head at random times during the day. Things that I might wish to look into more, or just observations being made. Postcards on the journey!

Seat warmers
I’ve got them in my car, and I’ve noticed since I started this journey, that when I use them, I get cool p-waves and flutters down there. I don’t use seat warmers very often or for very long usually, but now I’m getting some pleasant feelings. Not distracting me from driving, but just a general addition to my level of sexual feelings.

Constant Arousal
I’ve become much more aware of how high my level can get to, and that awareness of course, serves to heighten it more. It’s winter right now, so I’m wearing hoodies a lot, but sometimes I’ll crank the thermostat a little to shed some clothing. After my morning shower, I’ll usually walk around the house wearing just underwear and a t-shirt. The underwear is made of modal material and is very sleek and form fitting. It keeps the package out front more, which makes me aware. The shirt is usually a workout shirt featuring dry-wick material. It rubs against my nipples through the day.

She’s so nimble!

I’ve been away from posting for a couple of days now, and I thought I’d better post before I start forgetting things. Not like people of a certain age like myself to forget stuff! Thursday afternoon I finally got my Helix Syn. It was am excruciating few hours from then on, until I could deal with supper, and deal with the usual aspects of life. The entire time, I was tingling with anticipation and when me time rolled around, I was ready to go. Thorough cleanup, then onto the rubdown. All primed, eager and ready!
The Helix is so small, it’s hard to believe that this thing could do anything. Hold it alongside my Progasm and it’s like a toy. Lubed up I started slipping it in. I got it past the first bump and then it pulled itself in without any more help from me. I felt it leave my fingers and I wouldn’t have been surprised if I had heard a click when it locked itself in. The crack of my butt is fairly deep and this handle was perfectly nestled deep down there. No way that this device was going to rotate.
Already I could feel tingles, but I made to sure to do some deep breathing anyway. 5 minutes later, I knew I was ready. It takes very little relaxing to get over the initial insertion, compared to the Progasm, because it’s so much smaller. Right away, it started twitching and moving and the more contractions I did and the deeper I did them, the more this little princess danced around. I relaxed and let it start working. I felt much more subtle waves with this Helix than the Progasm, which makes sense to me. But I wasn’t ready for the control I had on her. A light contraction and I would start waves easing up my body. Harder contractions and I was sinking and curling up. Ease off a little and I could pull back and breath through the waves.
This little honey was dancing away on my perineum and prostate so much, but not slamming like the Progasm. Almost like butterfly wings would feel. I was getting constant tingles at my anus and I could feel it popping up and down. So much pleasure! Every position I tried was letting me enjoy the light flashing, sound blocking Super O’s. By the end of the night, I was able to start experimenting with suppressing the shaking and letting an even deeper wave of nothingness and pleasure start to approach.
Rolling onto my stomach was much more comfortable and then I was able to truly able to let the subtleties of the Helix go to work. My butt cheeks, perineum, anus, upper legs and thighs were tingling and fluttering and when I completely relaxed, p-waves would sweep in and deepen and then ease away. Trying to really get to sleep wasn’t a possibility though, because she would suddenly say ‘C’mon, let’s play some more!’
After I removed it and tried to go to sleep, I could still feel my anus fluttering and the p-waves went on for quite some time. Finally sleep came to me after a really fantastic session.
The next morning, I took care of the usual routines of life and after a really erotic feeling shower, I knew that I could definitely stand some more Helix time. After a short while, I switched over to the Progasm. I went from a nympho disguised as a mousy little librarian to an Amazon Queen who was holding me down and saying, ‘This is gonna happen!” Much more intensity and more shaking and moaning than the night before. But I knew I still had more exercise to do as of the Progasm finally popped out. Back in with the Helix. Not so much enjoyment now. I think I was still tuned to the larger device and just wasn’t feeling what the little Helix was doing. So I decided to finish off with a T.O.
That proved to be a little difficult in an enjoyable way. As I was stroking, of course I was flexing my pc muscles and I would get two or three strokes in and start curling in and then relax and repeat. It wasn’t the best finish and I think next time I have a T.O., I’ll leave the device out.

Major Breakthrough!

So, as my Helix still hadn’t shown up yet, I decided last night to get together with the Progasm, despite having trouble with it staying in. I followed my usual routines and when I got to bed, I stayed on top of the sheets for about 10 minutes, giving myself a rubdown of sorts. I use the fingertips to ever so lightly touch my skin, starting from my shoulders and running down my sides, abdomen and upper legs. I approach my nipples slowly and when I do get to them, rubbing and pinching harder and harder. All of this caressing is sending energy waves into my perineum and scrotum.
After I lube and insert the Progasm, I can feel tingling as I breath nice and slow and deep. When I can feel I’m ready to move on, I start contractions and over the course of the next hour, I had some pleasant feelings but nothing special. I removed it and took a break for about 20 minutes. When I came back to the Aneros, I took a lot longer with my breathing, about 20 minutes. Then within about 2 minutes, I started feeling the sensations working up from my prostate. As they swept through my abdomen, they went through my head as well, closing my hearing to the ordinary sounds of the bedroom. But instead of curling up in a tight ball and shaking, I started to pogo instead. My head was bobbing up and down and my legs were pushing down and pulling up. My arms were bouncing up and down. It was a different reaction to before, in that this time, I didn’t feel tight. Instead, my body was flopping, with little control. I was clamping on the Progasm as tight as I could. I felt another wave of energy coming up and I let it flow through me and envelop my head, and every part of my core. That’s when things got really wild. My head and the entire rest of my body started flopping from side to side, and my hips were simultaneously thrusting back and forth and my penis was getting hard. Vocalizing was totally out of my control, and I could vaguely hear, off in the distance, groans, moans, and whimpers. It lasted at least 2 minutes and ended only with, as usual, the damn Progasm slipped out. I quickly re-inserted it and the Super-O started again. Same as before, just not quite as intense. I had to re-insert each time and I had a total of 4 Super-O’s. I pulled out the Aneros and got up to take a break.
While I sat at the table, I was moaning and rubbing my nipples, and giggling at the same time. My anus was fluttering and I had buzzing through my cheeks and perineum. When I finally returned to the bed, I decided to go Aless and see what would happen. I was up so high at this point, that within a minute or two, I was going through another 2 SO’s. Not quite as intense as that first one half an hour ago, but still extremely satisfying.
I rolled onto my stomach and decided to go to sleep. I wasn’t thinking of anything in particular, and before I could stop it, another lesser Super O rolled in. It took me by such surprise, that I couldn’t even contract and breath to try and keep it going. When it eased, I could feel more Anus flutters and tingling, and within a few minutes another one rolled in. I was ready for this one and managed to turn it into 3 multiples.
Now, I’m starting to worry that I’ll never get any sleep. I rolled onto my back and thought about ways to stop things. Then, I remembered Penis,NOT and took hold of it. I started another orgasm right away, and thought that that didn’t seem to help at all. When it eased off, I was left holding a hard penis, sexual level on extra high.This sucker was red and stretched at the end, but remained dry. I said out loud, ‘Fuck, I need a pussy to shove this into!’ That started me off again. I turned onto my side, still holding my penis and as my hips thrust back and forth, my arm was slapping against my thighs as I held on. At this point, the slightest sexual thought pushed me over the edge, and I ended up seeing spots again, with my head and arms flopping around.
After, I really tried to calm myself down, but my body wasn’t quite done. I had several more Dry Orgasms as the night went on, and by 3 am, I thought the worst was over. I continued to feel flutters and tingles, along with twitches all over. Somehow I managed to fall asleep.
I’m glad I was able to sleep in a little this morning.

What a day!

I no sooner finished writing my last entry, then I was having more of these sensations! I think, from what I’ve read in the descriptions that these weren’t Super-O’s, but rather dry orgasms. With little effort, I was having these Aless moments all afternoon. I even had to knock off practicing kegels in the car because I could feel one starting to come on. The last thing I needed was to start curling up in a ball behind the wheel and drifting off the road into a tree! I was pretty excited though, because I was heading to the post office to pick up my newly arrived Helix.
When I got there, I was disappointed to find out that the delivery would be delayed due to weather! I was all set to get back home and shove that thing in me and tap into all of this sexual energy that was still roiling around inside! So instead, I decided to go home and “put up” with my Progasm, my new friend for almost two weeks.
I lubed up and put her in and even while I was doing my breathing, I was getting tingles, telling me that I was ready within just a few minutes. I immediately started into my newfound exercises and it wasn’t long before I was curling up tight as a sow bug and the experience was even better than Aless. I was still having trouble keeping the massive Progasm in, but despite readjusting after every shakedown, I was still able to bring on the feelings!
I had an inspiration after several moaning sweaty tingly sessions. Exploring with my fingers, I found that the Progasm was not all the way in past the second bump. I spread my cheeks with one hand and found that it went in and seated perfectly near the top and felt just fine! Then I relaxed and breathed normally, feeling actions from my prostate and and ass. Then suddenly, things changed. The p-tab started tap-dancing on my perineum, and I could feel my prostate vibrating against the Progasm. I started curling up again, but this time it was different. I wasn’t bouncing in the same way, but more shaking. It felt different, although strongly similar. My moaning sounded different too. A lot more shaking in my voice as the shaking in my body was so pronounced. I was curling up in a ball, but now with my eyes closed, I was seeing green spots, and I had gone completely deaf. My arm, which had been under my pillow supporting my head, was suddenly out and flopping against the pillow repeatedly. I was completely lost and having the time of my life! And then, just as it was ebbing, I felt the p-tab going crazy again, prostate buzzing and I was all set! Then the damn thing popped right out.
Sonuvabitch! More kegels in the daily planner. The problem is that when I’m in a highly charged sexual state like today, doing kegels just sets me off. But I will power through if it means I can get waves of Super-O’s! Yes waiter, I’ll start with some kegels, then for my entree, some more kegels, then for desert, even more kegels!
I finished the session off just after that, feeling really good! Still highly charged, but feeling pretty peaceful!

Riding the Rail

I have had a blog on and off for 14 years. My blogs have been both here and in other forums and on Word Press. Between all 4 blogs I had 10,000 subscribers and 800 pages (single space) of 600 + entries. That 14 year written log was a weekly diary of my sex life, what I was thinking, doing and feeling during that entire time. It also inspired a complete erotic novel and 2 others that are in the works.

That written record has been incredibly useful to me now as a tool to read and reflect on where I have been, what experiences I had and what I learned. All of the times, dates and details I have written here in this latest blog came from that written record. The timeline nature of this blog and the perspective that I am offering in these entries is a summary of lessons learned. In the context of all the entries I came to realization that my 9th year was a turning point in my journey.

The Tempo is a TRUE treasure

So I woke up fairly early this morning. 5:17am to be exact. I was laying down actually reading through the whole Jeff Bezos scandal with AMI. All the slutty details. My mind started to ponder…if this guy had an Aneros (he could buy the entire company if he wanted)…it would probably solve his problem at 54 years old.

Then I thought to myself…well…I havent had a session in a few days…lets start with some Aless…

Almost immediately I was in a pleasure state. Which basically signaled to me…An Aneros model will be a must to take advantage of my aroused state. Dashed to my top drawer…looked over the models…the box with the Temp basically exploded in my face. I lubed it up and slid it in. Went back to the couch. Closed my eyes and I let the dark of the morning just come over me.

The temp really has a mind of its own. It seems to be the one device that has zero thought of relenting. It stays on top of my prostate and literally I am in a constant state of super-O….the intensity changes…it goes down and just becomes a murmur…and then a moment later it skyrockets into exquisite and intense waves of orgasmic pulsing. It makes me wimper and sweat and my cock twitches ever so slightly when it kisses my prostate. This lasted for an hour. I am sweat drenched…had to change all of my clothes….right down to the underwear…and now as I write this I’m just overcome with Aless waves knowing full well the Tempo and I are not done for today…

The Journey So Far

So I have a MGX Trident and I’ve used it maybe a dozen times over the last 6 months or so. I figured I’d share what I’ve learned in case anyone out there can benefit from it.

For lube, I use only olive oil. It’s a bit expensive, but I know it’s safe to eat and I feel like if you’re going to stick stuff up your butt, it should probably meet that minimal criterion. To help get things going I use a standard 10cc syringe (without a needle of course) and put about 4ccs of olive oil right up in there. Then slowly work the Aneros in and out 2 or 3 times until everything is nice and slippery.

Then I just relax and basically try to do beginners yoga meditation. Close your eyes. Breathe in for 5 seconds and out for 10 seconds. Then relax your bladder and bowels. Just relax them, do not “bear down”. Never clench any muscles or exert any force anywhere. Your only goal should be to find more and more muscles that can be relaxed. It’s slow to get it started, but after about 45 minutes I start to have two distinct types of orgasms.

The first kind is centred on the tip of the penis. There will be a lot of tingling and generally good feelings down there. Sometimes I get slightly hard (briefly) and sometimes there are contractions that stimulate a few drops of precum or urine (or both?) to come out, but never an actual ejaculation. So these orgasms have no ejaculatory refractory period and will occur repeatedly. People here sometimes call them “dry orgasms”.

Relearn, Rewiring for 2019

I decided to make an effort to relearn/rewire my prostate orgasm this year
Due to stress and hectic life, I have noticed I started to get lazy to prime myself for a good session
Instead, I getting more frequent having my prostate massaged together with penile stimulation
This caused some quick and fast intense super-T and slowly corrupted my previous learning about ‘pure’ prostate orgasm
I have tried all of the aneros models that I could but the sensation without penile stimulation slowly diminished until I could not longer bring myself to super-O without stroking.

I started to miss full body orgasm that caused me to spasm and convulse recently and could not wait to reawaken my prostate again! So, from now on, no more penile stim while my prostate being rubbed

“No Guarantee”

[Some erotic language; readers be aware]

Introduction
Over the past 3 years, I have thoroughly enjoyed my Aneros sessions. Some have been mind-blowing while others have been duds. Why the sudden switch in sensations? I don’t know for sure but I thought about this after this morning’s session. Let me explain….

Session
Yesterday, I had a nice, thorough Aless stim of my “lower” region, especially when sitting-down. I felt that my prostate was “begging” me for a session. Well, I couldn’t have it then and so I put it out of my mind. Early this morning, while still wearing only my PJs (I did this all week), I awoke with a semi-stiff erection and yet my prostate was still nudging me onward! I listened and almost immediately I got the sense that it “wanted” the HelixTrident. A good choice? I was a little doubtful, since my last few sessions with it were less than stellar. Anyway, I obliged, lubed-up and began. I also put-on my Mueller cup just for good measure.

My! Right from the start, the HT nestled-right-in where it belonged, with the P-tab and K-tab pressing where they should. I lied-down on my right side, left knee slightly raised and began to relax. A nice progression of feelings, and I knew I was generating some precum. Then, about mid-way through this 30-minute session, something unexpected happened!

Session 6-Success!

I know that I decided to take a break for a few days from the Progasm, but here it was the next day and I was getting a little worked up. Reading other experiences made me to eager, what can I say? So I ran through the usual evening rituals, and decided to try Astro Glide Anal Gel for a change, instead of the Vaseline. Erotic stimulation, then insertion. Relax for a few minutes, then start exercising, working the anal and lower abs and rectum as well. Deep sobbing or ragged belly breathing for about 20 minutes. Then I lay back in the dark, no other stimulation aside from simple fantasies running through my head. I had one wave start, but I wasn’t able to keep it going. Aside from a few minor starts that quickly died, it was not a dud at all, as it’s all learning, but there were no fireworks. No worries. Learn from it and move on, right? The session had lasted about two and a half hours, and it was time to clean up and go to bed.
With my Progasm safely tucked away in her own little bed, (what a great storage box they send!) I laid down as usual on my stomach and prepared to drift off. After I lay there for about 15 minutes, fantasizing bemusedly about introducing a girlfriend to my Aneros tool box, I felt a little wave just barely starting. For a laugh, I decided to contract my rectum a little and see what would happen. Holy Cow! It started to build. I had my legs pretty much together and one arm tucked under my pillow as I always do. I figured that it would start to fade as it usually does when I’m on my stomach. It didn’t fade. The more I contracted, the more it built up. My arms and legs were starting to shake a little, and the more I squeezed, the more I shook. If I eased off, they would ease off too, so I would contract more and it would hit harder. You couldn’t have fit a sheet of paper between my ass cheeks. Then my legs were bouncing off the sheets and then my whole pelvis bucked a couple of times. I could feel moisture seeping out of the edge of my eyes. My penis and balls felt like they were swollen to an enormous size. I kept up with the contractions as long as possible, panting shallow breaths. I probably should have stopped contracting and shallow breathing to see if it would build, but since it’s early days yet, I just wanted to enjoy it! I think it went on for at least five minutes and I felt I had to ease off and give my glutes a break. I sat up on the side of the bed, wiped the small tears from my eyes, and started chuckling and saying Wow, over and over. After about five minutes, I returned to my usual sleep position, but, just out of curiosity, I started contractions again and it right away started building up again! Not to hips bucking off the bed, but leg shaking and that same all enveloping feeling of tingle and well being. I could sense a deeper primal power throughout my body again. When I couldn’t carry on, again I let it subside and rested for about two minutes. Then again and again, four more times, resting in between. By the fifth time, my muscles were pretty much done, and I finally gave up. Now I don’t know if the first one was a Super-O or the even the other ones, but my reading has indicated that the shaking will subside and I’ll learn much more. The coolest thing is whatever it was, it was A-less!
The next day as I driving around, doing errands, I was practicing my kegels, I could feel sensations building up, and I couldn’t help but wonder just how well my re-wiring is going!