In my career and real life I have always traveled to a different drum. I am a child of the 60’s who never abandoned my 1960’s values. Somehow I managed to develop a career that allowed me to follow my socially responsible values and still be modestly successful financially. I am not rich at all but have enough to retire without financial strain. I retired three months ago at 67. I was confident in my career and was recognized for my offbeat leadership. The career path I followed was on the edge of mainstream and out in the open and known. But while my socially responsible career was known by many in my real life, there was this sexual side of me that was curious, questioning, unsettled and hidden. The only outlet I had for it was my rich fantasy life, erotic daydreams and written expression in my highly personal recreational erotic writing. Women were always the focus. Yet in the back of my mind was this plaintive fantasy that wouldn’t it be amazing if an orgasm would last for more than a few seconds and I wonder what the turn on is for homosexual men.