Having hard time.

I’m having a hard time with the rewireing process. Progress hash been slow it took me quite a while before I even noticed any sensations but things are slowly getting better. Hardest part for me is getting over the fact that I’m not guaranteed an orgasm at the end. But I realize that the traditional ejaculatpry orgasm doesn’t serve me nor satisfy me. I need something more and I want so badly to experience this. I’m frustrated with myself for being impatient. So in the meantime I’ll just keep going with this I’ll get there eventually. Anyway I’ve had some great sensations in this session. Just the feeling of the aneros in my ass feels good, I hope that if I tell myself it feels good, eventually it will be result in pleasure. I also felt some expansion and I’ve found the most comfortable positions are on my stomach and on my side. I’m trying really hard to stay positive I really want this! And this is the end of my blog post

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