Almost there….maybe

I feel like I have finally got to nirvana but am not quite sure how to tip over the edge. My sessions are so enjoyable I’m not too worried at the moment but the first time I got there I barely did anything – just put my helix syn in and I was off. Any movement that was going on with it was on a subconscious level – I wasn’t actively controlling it or thinking about it.

Just to rewind a bit I’ve been experimenting with prostate play for about 5 years (not always consistently) but without any success. About 6 weeks ago I started trying out Mindgasm – only tried the free lessons so far. I found that this really helped to awaken me in that area and I had a great session within a week – kept feeling like I was building to some kind of climax and this would happen over and over in cycles but no actual climax of any kind came and eventually the session just ended as the climax cycles ebbed away. In the 5 weeks since I’ve been completely unable to reach that kind of session again but a couple of nights ago I made a batch of “special” cookies. I have very limited experience with weed but read on here about the success people have in this journey with the help of weed. I can’t smoke it because it just makes me feel sick but having it in edible form is fine for me. Anyway – about 2 hours after consuming it I got really horny and put in my helix syn and it was instantly incredibly pleasurable and within no time I was on this crest of waves and feeling like I was near to reaching a climax. I went on like this for about an hour and in the end I did what I probably shouldn’t have and I finished myself off the traditional way – I was just so incredibly turned on I couldn’t help myself. Anyway, last night I did the same again and once again a major success almost instantly after inserting the helix Syn. This time I decided I wasn’t going to finish myself off so I just kept with the near-climax cycles. Eventually they died down and I started drifting off to sleep.

So once again no actual climax but incredible sensations where I kept feeling on the edge of it. But the question is – what now? If anything – maybe just carry on the same way? What is a P-wave? Is that the sensations I was having? People talk on here about a warm feeling spreading through your body but my main source of pleasure was definitely emanating from my prostate area. I’ve heard people talk about a prostate orgasm and an anal orgasm and I’ve no idea how to focus on either (or if I even need to focus – maybe just keep honing in on whatever pleasure I’m feeling?). And I read someone say about not expecting to roll it over into a traditional penile ejaculation feeling as the prostate experience is a totally different thing. I’m still tingling there today and the whole thing has really encouraged me but just wondering where I go from here or whether to just carry on as I am. Incidentally I have lots of other Aneros toys (Eupho syn and plastic version, Progasm, tempo, Peridise and Helix syn Vibration model) but because of the success I’ve had with the helix syn I’ve stuck with that on both my recent sessions