I think something has awakened inside me…

This ended up being a bit wordy, so I put a TL;DR at the end.

So, to start with – I’m straight, married, with children. I’m very new to anal play (with the exception of maybe a sharpie when I was like 14). I’ve been going through a bit of a lifestyle change, losing weight, going to the gym, eating healthier, etc. and have been pretty successful over the last 6 months. I have some time off work and the house to myself for a bit. Based on an AskReddit thread, I saw the Aneros Helix mentioned as one of the naughty items that have changed someone’s life or some BS like that.

I do sometimes enjoy tickling my anus a bit while masturbating, and am myself quite open to experimentation (the wife, not so much). So I did some reading and research, and found out about this prostate thing in my bum. So I ordered myself a Helix Syn (and a couple other things, a new sleeve, etc., just for shits) as a self reward for my big life change.

I was highly anticipating it’s arrival, even though I know it may take some time to really get into it. It arrived a day early. I immediately drew myself a nice bath with jasmine salts, and relaxed for a bit. Cleaned myself out as best I could (note to self, buy a new turkey baster), and set to work.

Having never had anything substantial up my pooper before, it was a little tough to get it in, but some relaxing and going slow helped immensely. I was a bit shocked at how nice it actually felt, once I relaxed and got over the initial discomfort. I did some breathing, listened to a couple gonewild audios, and tried a couple different positions over the next 2 hours. Didn’t feel a whole lot, but I liked what I did feel. And a surprising amount of pre-cum. I finished myself with my new sleeve, which didn’t take much and cleaned everything up.

The next day I couldn’t wait to try again. Losing weight has made me *really* horny. Got everything prepped, grabbed some coconut oil this time, and tried it again. I still couldn’t find anything substantial, no prostate, nothing. Being really horny, I decided to try my wife’s [vibrator](https://shevibe.com/silhouette-s15-rabbit-style-vibrator-by-california-exotic-novelties-pink.aspx) for a little more external stim. Felt good. Looking at the nub, I thought it might work inside. Felt really nice, especially with the big end on my perenium & balls. Before long I was bored and figured I’d try the big end a bit. At this point I was so turned on and the vibrations and coconut oil helped ease it in, with only a little discomfort. Wow, being filled up by this large vibrator felt really good. No orgasm or anything, but it was just really nice (and naughty). Still took a bit to get it in (and out at the end), and that part isn’t really appealing. Finished conventionally again.

So today I figured I’d double down on this prostate and ass-play thing, drove down to a sex shop, and bought myself an [anal/prostate vibrator](https://shevibe.com/silicone-wireless-pinpoint-probe-vibrating-anal-toy-by-calexotics-black.aspx) (as well as a proper anal douche/bulb!). It’s got this ball that moves back & forth, has different vibration patterns, and feels *really* good. I pulled up some porn, and played with it in all sorts of positions for the better part of an hour. I also tried out the Helix again, but it’s totally different. Tried the wife’s vibe again, but ended up back on the prostate vibe. Then, nearing the end of my now 2+ hour session (needed time to clean up before the family got home), I started thrusting my hips a little and clenching some muscles a bit and I started to feel some involuntary contractions. Not sure if it was a mini-o, or just because it felt *really* good, but wow. I want to try this more.

And now the rest of the evening I’ve been feeling a bit… Lighter. A bit more energy, a tingling in my bum, and just happy in the anticipation of my next session and what might be to come in the future.

So, that’s my story. I think I might try putting the Aneros Helix in before bed and just have a relaxing session as I fall asleep and get more comfortable with it. And I can’t wait for tomorrow, as it’ll be my last day with the house to myself for a while (no more vibes for me for a bit).

Some thoughts:

– I know that this is a process, and that the more I play, the more I will be comfortable with it and hopefully I can get myself to have a prostate orgasm. I intend to continue with the Helix, and the vibe when I get some alone time.
– I was much less horny today, on account of my session yesterday, and my wife allnofna sudden wanting some sexy times last night. Most of the time it’s a dead bedroom and I’m left to my own or my fleshlight. But last night she wanted, and I delivered (and lasted longer and came harder, surprisingly). I think for the next few days I’ll withhold ejaculating and let myself build up to aid in prostate stim.
– Any tips or tricks that you guys use? Best positions? Other toys or products? I’ve been looking at getting an Njoy Pure Wand, and would have today but can’t get it locally, and now after the vibe I can’t spend any more without raising suspicion.
– I want to tell my wife, and maybe get her involved down the road. Maybe after I get the Pure Wand, as I can use it on her too (I bought her the vibe as a gift, as she’s only used bullets previously) and maybe introduce anal play then. How did you fellas approach the subject if you discovered it on your own?
– Is sleeping with the Helix an ok idea? Heard of people waking up with contractions and good feelings. I also don’t want to over do it this early, but I really just can’t wait. Thinking I’ll take a couple days off after my next session tomorrow.

**TL;DR** – Had a week with the house to myself, so treated my straight virgin ass to the Aneros Helix. It was good, but not great, and I’m impatient. Over the next three days I’ve quickly graduated to my wife’s larger vibrator, and now my very own anal/prostate vibrator. Possibly had a mini-o, otherwise just a really nice feeling. I’m absolutely hooked. Any tips/tricks or experiences you can share to help me along this journey? They would be much appreciated!