9-20-2019 – Njoy Pure Wand

Got the Njoy Pure Wand today. Hoping to find my prostrate, or some direct stimulation. Not much luck, moved it all around, front back sides. Got some good feeling going mostly when moving it in and out. Nothing earth shattering. Tried to really focus on just feeling it. I was somewhat disappointed. Will have to have some more sessions to keep at it.

2-19-20

Great session today, I was trying to “hold” the device with 40% pressure. That was tough, used my fingers to feel it and trying to get used to what that is. Warmed up with Helix Syn, had some good feelings. Switched to Eupho and kept trying to just hold the device, and as I got feelings, “P Waves”, I tensed up my body subconsciously. So I tried to relax into it, seems like maybe I was learning a little about how my body works and that I can hold the device @ 40% without tensing. At this point I had some VERY intense feelings and very erotic fantasies popping into my brain. It did not last too long, maybe 2-4 minutes. I tried to stay there as much as possible, but relaxing my body seemed to take it down a notch. A couple times i realized I was arching my butt right off the bed.

Eventually things seem to cool down some and I switched to the Progasm. I was lubing it while holding the Eupho in partially and seems like I started up again, almost like being distracted with the lubing was a good thing. So I spent a few minutes and kept lubing the Progasm. Eventually inserted the Progasm but the most pleasure was the insertion. So I went to the Njoy, small end first, nothing, switched to large end. On my back hands free I started to contract the PC. The small end was on my thigh and the extra feeling on my leg seemed to be a turn on. I had an even more intense feeling here, and at one point was not sure that I was voluntarily moving the Njoy or if it was going on it’s own. This was also a turn on, this was the most intense feeling I have had yet, so this is greatly encouraging.

MB 9-5

Not sure what is up with me right now, out of control.

SR #4 Expecting nothing

Started with 15 minutes guided meditation. Nice relaxed session. No hard on. Caught myself chasing feelings when they built up, trying not to do that. I did pretty good one time, trying to just stay where I was. Kind of a overall “warm” feeling sort of thing. Couldn’t stay there long, but at least I tried. I think when I get aroused feelings I build or chase them. I need to NOT do that, so trying to just let go and let whatever happen. So different from a normal orgasm.

About 45-50 minutes in I almost fell asleep. I let it happen, stopped moving, stopped touching. Not sure if I really went to sleep or just a hyper relaxed state. But the one track ended and I came out of it. I felt pretty aroused then, probably chased again. Really need to just ride the balloon, let it take me wherever.

SR #7 OK session – MB

No meditation to start, it did not seem to hurt or help my session. Lots of warm fuzzy all over feelings, pretty good pleasure from my nipples. After about an hour or so I rolled over and tried to do nothing, focus on the music. I seemed to want to move the Aneros some. I rested a while doing little moving to nothing. Then moved and tried different positions, my arousal built at this time. Then a new track came on, my native american track and I immediately got really horny. I did some fantasizing about Indian maidens watching me and slowly disrobing. I got pretty hot. When I realized I was tensing, and (maybe chasing?) I tried to slow down and relax, but that seemed to take the edge off my arousal.

Maybe my arousal is still wired to the traditional penile orgasm of building to a conclusion. But I am working on it and being aware of these things are good. I tried to go on a “balloon” ride, going along and having no idea where I am going. Some pretty amazing feelings, lots of arousal, up and down like waves. “General pleasure throughout session” I have not had an erection since the first one or two times.

Ended with masturbation.

MB – Pumping

Got a penis pump yesterday, first time was frustrating, but got myself hard enough with a cock ring to maintain a useable erection, not great, but useable.

Read about ED & pumps, makes sense that it could help. I will try to pump daily for several weeks and see if there’s any improvement in my erections.

Took a pill today and had a good old wank. I think I’ll try to start over on the SR route again.

SR 2 – Exploratory session

Tried to just find my prostrate, so not so much a session as just a spelunking expedition. Not sure, kinda think maybe I did. I did a lot of manual movement trying to find what feels good. Had some sensations so I guess I hit it or was close. It might be in further than I thought, nothing when pulling the toys out more. OR it is right where it is supposed to be. Might order a NJoy wand to do a better manual search and for more direct milking.

The beginning

I’m creating this blog to track my own progress. but will be adding more details than I would need for myself in case anyone else reads it and finds it helpful.

This is my introduction in the forum….. https://www.aneros.com/community/forum/general-discussion/166053-a-new-world

June/July 2019 I started exploring anal play, I had no clue what I was doing. And while I had explored it a time or two when I was young and never seem to do anything for me. And I also had all sorts of societal hang ups as a straight male RE: gay, this is just wrong, etc.

But this time I discovered finger fucking myself created an extra level of pleasure to my masturbation sessions. And so I progressed and started using a toothbrush and that was even better. At this point I decided I needed something specifically designed for this. So I ordered a vibrating butt plug. I still had no clue about prostate massage nor had I yet heard about Aneros. I was simply exploring ramping up sexual pleasure and was pretty clueless.

It took about a week for the new toy to arrive and while I was waiting for it I was reading things on the internet. And I ran across this Aneros website. I read all about prostate massage and how to have a “session”. My initial thoughts were, oh boy, this sounds intimidating and seemed like a long learning curve, not so sure I wanted to go there. All these posts were so foreign to me, yet it had enough of an intriguing spin that I was interested and I continued to read as I waited for the new toy.

Vibrating butt plug session?

July 24th 2019 – My best memory of what happened about a month ago

My vibrating butt plug arrived today from flesh light. I’m quite excited to try it out see what it will do for me and my masturbation sessions. I am only at this time beginning to learn about prostate massage in the Aneros toy. So when this vibrating toy was purchased, it was simply going to be a bonus or turbocharger for my masturbation.

Having read how to have an Aneros type session I actually was working on that a little bit. I started out with inserting the toy, & turning it on. it has several different styles of vibration and I wanted to experience them all. but I think I tried a brief amount of relaxation and some clenching of my PC muscles. And I also had some strangely good feelings that were not related to my penis at that point. This was new, very mild, but definitely new.

At this point 98% of my goal was simply to improve or turbocharged my masturbation efforts. However because I had overall good feelings I couldn’t describe, I became more intrigued with purchasing an Aneros device and trying to go further down that road.

I had several traditional masturbation sessions with the butt plug that were quite pleasant. But I continued to read the forums here, and then ordered a helix syn.

First Aneros session

August 5th 2019 – My best memory from 3 weeks ago…..

My first session with the helix syn was quite intriguing. I had a lot of OMG moments when I couldn’t really figure out what was happening. Possibly P waves, definitely lots of new feelings and some anal, prostate pleasure going on. I really don’t know what is what as far as terminology at this point, I am very clueless. It was all very sexy and very intriguing. I had a limp cock for most of the time. But at one point it got rock hard but then receded again. I had no idea that I could feel pleasure like that without a hard-on.

I would call this session and major win seeing as how I had no idea what I was doing or if I was doing it correctly. And also because I wasn’t sure I was going to feel anything. But I read somewhere that it might take a year or more to get a super O. And while I got nowhere near that level, I felt something new, and the promise of new things and multiple orgasms was extremely exciting to me.