Out of a relationship, into a new journey

I’ve been using an aneros since I turned 18. I’m turning 25 this year, and I think only now have I really understood my body and how it responds to the prostate and the aneros. I’ve used a good amount over the years but I had long stints of no anal play. I’ve had a ton of dud sessions but I’ve had a ton of amazing sessions where I learn so much about myself but also life kind of. I have never yet had a super o, but I feel like I have small dry wave like orgasms, but I feel like I am getting closer.

I’ve been in a relationship for nearly 4 years, but we broke up a couple months ago. Before that I was single for a year and in a 3 year long relationship before that. Way too long for a young person. I’m not going to go into details, but I think only just now have I been realizing that I need and WANT to be able to do what I want more often. I feel so free and able to do whatever I want. Especially since I don’t want kids. I have also come to the realization that I am bisexual. All of these things together have really put a hamper on my aneros use. For months I would jerk off like normal. I’ve always wanted my prostate and ass to be my only source of pleasure. Because I am single now, I feel like I can be me now and I can do what I want.