Author: aneros_user50253

Releasing a bit of tension

So I had therapy today to talk about some of the stuff with my mom, so I was pretty chill when I got home. After therapy I went to a Starbucks and read a chapter of 12 rules for life about raising your children. It didn’t quite hit on the “don’t be an absolute monster to your kids” that I thought it would, but I also practiced laying out some of my feelings about my mom in the framework of crucial conversations. I had gotten a Facebook message from my mom asking “if I got her texts”, but since I had blocked her on my phone and unfriended her on Facebook, this message came as a surprise to me. I got home and meditated a bit after lighting a scented candle (which smells like boy’s deodorant :)). I was reminiscing about my adolescence. In practice, I tried imagining how it felt to have my whole being be in some pleasant adolescent memories (which I realized were rooted in the pleasantry of being away from my bitchy mother). I also wrote down some potentially “Freudian Nightmare” phrases relating to my mom and Aneros usage. I tried channeling my inner, vulnerable childhood voice and got emotional as I articulated:

* “Mommy why did you get mad at me for using sex toys to make myself feel good?”
* “Mommy, why don’t you love me when I make myself feel all nice and good inside?” Read more »

Progress updates

So I believe that an open blog like this, where I can talk about my progress and stories in an aneros-centric community, will help me with changing my mindset to not judge my sessions as “successful” or “unsuccessful” and to simply be mindful of what occurred.

I had found myself a little over 7 days abstinent going into this weekend. On Friday, I also met a cute new guy who’s going to be coming over on Monday to see me 😀 In our talking, I mentioned that I had been saving up my loads (in my own head for an eventual Aneros session), but he seemed to really like the idea of me being all horny for when we meet up.

Anyway, I was pretty busy Saturday with a concert so Sunday was my me time. I spent the morning running errands on my bike, but once I came back from doing my laundry my interests started getting naughtier. I was looking into buying a latex catsuit (since I’d love to try latex), and realized I was starting to get myself horny. Eventually, after browsing online long enough, I decided to lock myself in my Holy Trainer v2 chastity cage and go run an errand. Once I got back however is when things started to get hot.

I realized that I hold a lot of tension in the muscle that raises and lowers my balls when I put my chastity cage on. I had also discovered in previous aneros sessions that relaxing the tension in this muscle made for a good session, although I struggled putting it into practice. Read more »