Reprogramming?

Someone referred me to this subreddit to learn about reprogramming.

Context: I’m a 29 yo male who is bisexual, has always topped, has tried bottoming on more then one occasion, and I get absolutely nothing from it.

I’ve tried hitting the prostate, don’t feel anything, tried vibrators, larger plugs, absolutely nothing. The most I get is a pleasurable tickling feeling on the sphincter from vibrations.

Edit:been wanting a prostate orgasm my whole life, and can’t get it right.