Prefacing this by saying I do not judge those who use porn in anyway. I’m a recovering porn addict of 20 years. Never got to the point where I had PIED or escalation to seriously taboo or illegal content but definite impact to my ability to become aroused outside the bedroom (i.e. by myself). I’ve been pornfree for nearly 6 months and before my last relapse in June I was porn free for 2 months. So 2022 has been a good recovery year and the one that I think will serve as the foundation for long term permanent porn abstinence.
Anyway, I’ve been using the aneros off and on for the past four years. I can count on one hand the number of times I feel like I’ve gotten even remotely close to a super on and two of those times has been in the last month. So I have a renewed interest in practicing this but obviously so many years of penile-focused ejaculatory orgasms to porn has made it very difficult to tap into innate arousal and experience a lot of success. My routine is usually to put my device in and do nothing for about 20 min other than deep breath and focus on lowering heart rate. I’ll then do some light contractions and try and differentiate between my different muscle groups. Lately I’ve been trying not to rely on any mental fantasy but it’s usually required to get me started with some involuntaries. At that point I’ll stop fantasizing and try and focus only on sensation and let my body do the rest. This is where I’ve had the most success and experience what I think are p-waves. But eventually I lose control of my breathing or try and maintain the right level of muscle contractions and lose everything. Eventually my involuntaries start to feel kind of one-dimensional I.e. I feel them only in one muscle group, usually my rectum and it will take me a awhile to get back to where I was.