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past week +

Things just went side ways.

Friday 1/18 I some how buggered my neck at work, cant tilt to the left at all. Tried heat, cold, even tried a muscle relaxer from back when I pulled my back. nothing worked. I couldn’t get out of bed Saturday, ended up rolling off the bead as any movement made my head scream in pain. I went to the walk in clinic, they gave me a few shots & some pills to help.

Saturday 1/19 night tried the Jr just for s&g. I got nothing, almost couldn’t tell I was joined w/ him.

Sunday 1/20 I went ahead and did a full double release to restart my cycle,

Monday 1/21 tried some edging, it was like my cock was numb. I could feel myself stroking but got no sensations and only got half hard. Once I did get something it was to late and I just blew if you will, was an ultra lame orgasm/ejaculation. It was a waste of time. May as well give up till I stop the pills. You would think taking a muscle relaxer would work the same way as weed but seems not so much. Read more »

current findings & updates

Latest updates. Some findings, things I’m going to do different, kind of long.

Got helix all polished up, ultra shiny and as smooth as progasm jr. Going to do a little more to see if I can get that deep glass look, almost there. Joining is so much easier, glides in so smoothly and takes hardly any lube unlike before. I have also changed over to using just straight silicone lube, ‘wet anal’. Only takes .3cc prelube and a drop on the tool spread out to go all night, plus because of the molecular make up it is not absorbed into the skin, molecules are much larger than water based lubes so no drying out or having to reapply on those long sessions. A side benefit is it makes the skin feel smooth and supple even after cleanup.

I think I am starting to get a feel for my rhythm. Whether pre ejac release or full on refractory ejac I have an every other day cycle, ie day 1 nothing, day 2 things start to get moving, day 3 slightly more than nothing but not much, day 4 really picking up, day 5 caries on from day before. day 6 ok but not great, day 7 getting better but seems to plateau but duds seem fewer but not great. So based on these findings and my previous experiment I was going to start doing light pressure releasing, just enough to keep things flowing. Read more »

My Christmas present to myself. (out of order)

This is out of order since I am just now getting around to finishing editing. I Have had a really good vacation. Best in a long time.

I purchased the progasm jr & peridise kit. They both came in today, Friday 12/28. I am super excited about these and couldn’t wait to try the jr. Up to this point I have never had any real involuntary contractions, just muscle fluttering from trying to induce so these new pleasure tools should be interesting.

I got everything washed / cleaned up and took a good look at the progasm jr first. So smooth and shiny but also looks kind of intimidating because of the size since the helix has been the largest I’ve had in 25 years. Prepped and joined with my new friend. I followed the process outlined for the progasm doing the scoop motion to join, my friend slid in so easily. Wasn’t in for 10 seconds when involuntary started promptly causing it to be pushed out before I knew it. This is going to be fun. A quick rinse & relube w/ a few drops before rejoining, again sliding so easily. I am defiantly going to polish all my others to that glass smooth finish since it is forcing me to hold some contraction to maintain the integrity of the joining which is inducing involuntary contractions, unlike the mgx or helix that just stay put although mgx will start to slide out if I stay relaxed when standing, ie going pee. Read more »

Watched a blue sunrise

I went for a ride with my new friend last night, progasm jr. I was a slight bit concerned at first going for a long ride as my first meetup he gave me a very good orgasm but it turned me very cold, it was very intense though. Last night I think he knew my feelings so instead of going for it he took me on a long slow journey that only lasted 30 minutes or so but felt like hours. Let me start from the beginning.

I had been trying to get something going with my new friend for around 40 minutes on my left side, completely cleared mind, deep belly breathing. It felt like it was not to be tonight so I rolled over onto my right side looking at the clock, 12:3? couldn’t see more than that. Once rolled over I decided to try to get a few zz’s. My mind started to think of things instead of nothing and that was the start. Every time I would feel a flicker of something I would clear my mind, and every time I did that these feelings would go away. jr wanted me to think of things other than him. Read more »

I have no words

Holy Shit is all I can say

So I woke horny as anything on Christmas day, a hard pounding cock screaming at me. I stroked for about an hour give or take, bringing the sensations to about 50% and just letting them hang there. I finally got up to “open gifts” around 9:30.

Around 10:30 she decided to take a short nap so I went to take a shower. Joined w/ helix and decided to continue with my earlier self pleasure. It was mere seconds & I could feel the ponr rapidly catching up to me, so I just stopped and relaxed as I didn’t want to loose the rest of my vacation to refractory period. 1 solid pulse and out oozed a goodly amount of prostatic fluid. Pulled it up again and stopped, another goodly amount of fluid. I did this 3 more times till there was nothing left to extract, making sure to keep from going all the way. Each time I could feel helix pumping against my prostate trying to push me to go over the edge but I refused her that pleasure, I wanted to keep my cock hard as stone. Once cleaned up and out of the shower I sat on the couch in the newly found position that allows me to feel helix moving in out of my canal kissing my prostate. I had some wonderful feelings emanating from with in but none increased more than a fine electric tingle in my testicles and cock root. I released helix from my love grip as I knew I had more things to do and would not be able to spend quality time to really give all my attention to them. Read more »

my personal experiment. good strides made

This is a recreation of my original document and may not contain all info but will try as best as possible to not leave anything out. My computer decided to do an update and for some reason deleted the entire saved file. I also don’t claim to be a story writer so expressing my sensations will be lacking. I will endever to try to make strides in the future, for now this is just to get it down before forgetting things

I have just finished a 21 day SR and found it do do nothing for me. I don’t feel any more feisty but that is to be expected since I have nothing to get excited about. This is going to be the documentation of a 7 day experiment of using only the aneros product, either helix or mgx, no masturbation, edging or stimulation of the sweet spot. I want all stimulation to be from prostate massage either internal w/ said tool or external from deep tissue massage. I will use massage of the sweet spot to get things going if needed when using one of the tools only. each session will be about 1 hour long or there about and do nothing sessions.
EDIT. I really pushed the time on Fri, Sat & Sun. having gone several hours. Read more »

Some progress

I’ve made little progress since my last blog. I’ve actually felt some pleasure not in my prostate but in my anus. I’ve decided that since I can feel sensations in my anus I would focus on that since I don’t really feel anything in my prostate. Not until I’m very aroused anyway. Here’s how my session went. I began by taking a hot shower, witch is something I’ve found helps me relax, then after I dried of I lied in bed and did some deep breathing. Then I began caressing my thighs. Then I applied some lube to my anus and gently messaged to relax the anal sphincters. At first I didn’t feel anything so I began focusing on my anus near the opening. That made me more aware of of sensations but I still couldn’t feel much pleasure. That’s when I realized that I had to have erotic feelings if I wanted to feel any pleasure. So I began I set about finding a fantasy that would help. But that didn’t work either so I just lied there and focused on the physical sensations. Then I started thinking of the sensations as pleasurable instead of just there and that’s what did it. That’s all it took. I didn’t have an orgasm and the pleasure wasn’t constant it came and went, kinda like waves. But that’s ok because I enjoyed myself. I guess before I wasn’t able to get of some of those nagging thoughts in my head that prevented me from feeling anything. I think I’ve a great leap but there’s still a lot left learn about myself.

Hummmm

Possible progress?

Fridays session found more of the same. No sensations unless I initiated it manually by massaging the sweet spot but I did something slightly different. Rather than push through the sensations to completion I stopped short and let them linger a second than performed a pc contraction. When I did this the sensation burst from my prostate and flowed over my body. I did this several times. Felt wonderful but did not expand further than that.

Sunday I thought I would have some me time so I joined w/ helix. Turns out she had other plans. Fuck it, I stayed joined and did what running needed to be done. I didn’t have time to feel or enjoy being joined but knew I was getting ‘seat time’. While sitting on the couch several hours later I was leaning against the hand rail on the left side and my knees were in front of me, kinda like side saddle. I reached behind and found the handle/tabs. I started to slide my finger over this in a flicking type motion. The sensation went straight to my prostate. I changed to a scratching across the fabric of my pants. It felt really good. After about 20 minutes I felt the sensation of an orgasm start to build. I kept at it till it went away. This wasn’t strong and didn’t last but mere seconds but showed me I could reach the same feelings without manual stimulation of my sweet spot. Read more »

Tried to recreate the night before.

I should have known better by now.
I tried to recreate what I had the other day. Joined w/ helix. While taking my last pee of the night before bed, instead of a pleasurable glow starting I got something very strange. I had what felt like an electrical shock that started in my right testicle and proceeded to go straight up through my belly. It was a shock (sucks, I know). I had some pleasurable sensations but nothing close to the intensity of just 24 hours before. That’s ok I’m moving forward still. Another strange thing that happened, I rolled to my side for some do nothing and fell asleep hard. I have never been dead to the world, just kinda cat napped and always woke up 30-40 minutes later. Not last night, I woke to the alarm at 6:30. I didn’t remember getting up to remove because I didn’t feel anything, but sure enough helix was still joined with me. Got up and turned off the alarm and cleaned up. Got back in bed for a brief time. Was on my left side again when I felt the start of an orgasm. I started slowly and grew slightly before spreading over my entire body before dissipating. Several minutes later it happened again. I just laid there and enjoyed them. I didn’t try to make them come back or intensify them, just let them happen. Read more »

Another step in the climb to bliss

Damn it, I was …………this close.

There I was standing to take my last pee before going to bed when she decided to say hello. I could feel helix starting to ever so slightly move around causing my prostate to say “Hay, what is this? OOOOOHHHH this feels interesting, I’m going to let the brain know this feels quite nice. A tingle started that changed to almost an itch than changed again to a feeling I don’t know how to describe but it was starting to expand to an almost glow. Out of nowhere I heard “I need to use the bathroom also”. SHIT!!!!! it all went away just like that.

Got into bed and waited for this to hopefully restart. Nothing. Left, right, back, even tried the front. Nothing. So what to do? Do what I know works. Glance at the clock it’s after 12 now. I really should roll over and sleep but nope I need an orgasm of some type. I reach down and start massaging the sweet spot ever so lightly but my finger keeps bumping into the p-tab and each time it makes something happen inside. I stop massaging and grab the p-tab and ever so gently rock it back and forth, just enough to make the head jiggle against my prostate. The feelings I had just 45 minutes before started to return. A tingle, an itch, than the feelings of electricity reaching back to my anus. I let go and ever so gently contract/release, wait, again. The sensations slowly changed to a feeling I knew from external massage, this was moving into an orgasmic feeling. I have had more intense by hand but this was the first time that one was sustained by the tool only no hands involved. This was enough to make me satisfied, I had opened a door if ever so slightly. By the time these sensations ended it was after 1 something. Read more »