New user, loving it, but do I have the wrong toy?

I am guessing I fall into a different category here than most. I don’t really like lying and relaxing with the Aneros and I don’t like the audio files that some here recommended.

BUT I also do NOT fall into the category of “I started using it and feel nothing!”. Quite the contrary.

I feel absoluty joy even when inserting, almost rolled my eyes the first time I was putting it in, I really do feel my prostate stimulated the moment I put it in. I do moan every single time I put it in, it’s so nice. It feels absolutely great wiggling and moving the toy around (something which you are supposed not to do). Not going to sugar coat it, I enjoy the feeling of the toy “fucking me” and rythmically pressing against my prostate. I also played with the idea of fixing it somewhere and riding it. It’s so much joy that I honestly can’t lie there and do nothing, even the muscle contraction movements are not half as good as manually moving the Aneros for me personally. I am still a beginner, but I bet that it will make me orgasm some day just by moving it back and forth with my hand, I feel a light rush but lose it because of overexitement.