Finally making some progress

I have been thinking of posting here for a while. This is going to be a rambling post so TL;DR

I bought a Helix Syn in September of 2019 after seeing Aneros orgasm videos on the web for years. Decided to finally try it for myself. Used the Syn about twice a week for around one month and got bored with it and stopped. I found that it felt okay but after squeezing my PC muscles for about 10 or 15 minutes I would either doze off or decide to watch gay porn. The Syn did seem to enhance my penile orgasms but not so much that I felt like putting it in just for the enhanced penile orgasms. BTW I have a major, major addiction to gay porn. Or had. I’ll get to that later. Anyway, I would only pop the syn in every now and again 3 or 4 months at a stretch. That changed in January and it was the strangest thing. I got up to go pee one night around 3:30 AM. When I got back in bed I was just laying on my side and was just sort of sleepily squeezing my PC muscles (which I don’t usually do) and I began to think what if the pleasant sensation of peeing occurred further back in my prostate. Then I started to imagine what that would feel like while still squeezing my PC muscles. And that is when it hit. My muscles just started spasming on their own and I had this curious, very pleasurable tingling sensation from around my prostate. It only lasted maybe 5 to 10 seconds but I guess I got hooked. Mind you my Syn was in my dresser drawer, not even in my butt. Decided to start using the Syn again the next night. I’ve been trying to figure it out like a puzzle how to get those same sensations again and I am making real progress. Last night I went for about an hour and ½ and had the involuntary contractions + feelings of impending orgasm and that happened four or five times. With practicing deep breathing and kegels I feel that a progasm is within my grasp. Weirdly (again) about two weeks ago I suddenly lost interest in porn. Not altogether but it is much easier to just shrug it off and not watch any. Something does sort of concern me though. Around the time my interest in porn fell off, it seemed like maybe my libido fell off too. When I try to have penile orgasms now, they aren’t very satisfying almost like I’m not even climaxing. Also, it feels like there is a sort of congested feeling in my prostate.