(also posted on the officifal forum)
Hey there Aneros Community,let me type my story, because I need a place to put it. I have nobody else to speak because, I feel so ashamed about it. I was too embarrassed about it to bring it up in therapy so far.
When I was younger I got interested in my butt and for a gay guy this is nothing extraordinary. Somehow I stumbled about the topic Aneros and got interested in it. One day I bought Aneros and tried it several times. Then I abandoned all toys I had, since they did not do it for me and I was still living in my familys place, a bad place for secret butt toys.
After moving out I got interested in it again. I bought aneros again and this time it worked. I orgasmed with it. One very long session (+porn) made me panic. After two hours or so I felt sore and dried out – I didn’t drink all the time and stared non stop at the screen. Something didn’t sit right with me and I was wierded out and was disgusted.
I stopped and ejaculated normally and this was a moment of panic. My dick felt so different and I was worried I had damaged it – after such very long time of sexual stimulation. I was afraid to ejaculate, but did it anyways. I was using porn and then I wanted to ejaculate a second time, which I did again on porn.I was so terrified this evening and my prostate wouldn’t stop tingling. It was there all the time. I quit the topic completely and brought the toy to the garbage – again.