Still haven’t achieved full prostate orgasm. But now in many many many situations, I start getting ‘blue-ball’ in my prostate. Kind of a burning itch/desire that can’t be relieved, any stimulation makes it worse, but you never quite reach prostate orgasm either.
This is really bad when driving, sitting through meetings, trying to get work done at work, wanting to do things like jostle my leg but can’t because that just makes it worse. Etc. Caffeine now always makes my prostate feel like it’s swelling with salt water in a good-but-can’t-get-off way. Vibrations while driving on the freeway are the same deal.
Out of ideas for actually reaching full prostate orgasm. Butt plug + perineum massage cradle with vibrators + semi-full bladder and belt pressing that down. Nope. Several different models of vibrating prostate massager + perineum massager. Nope. Hitachi wand to find my prostate. Nope.
Fucking christ I just want to get off. I can’t get off.
It’s now to where the major nerve going down my leg is slightly pleasurable to flex in a certain way, but not enough that you could ever get off on it. Super distracting.