WTF happened to me?

Yesterday I had the place to myself and decided to put in a session with my Maximus. I had taken a few drops of HHC tincture earlier on, and was feeling the effects. I felt very relaxed and quite aroused. I popped in the Maximus and laid down on the bed, on my side with one leg pulled up to my chest.

Up until now I haven’t had any kind of orgasm with Aneros toys, so I can’t be sure what has happened. I can only say that I never felt this much pleasure in my life, I was literally moaning aloud which rarely happens to me.

I usually get very pleasurable feelings during my sessions, but I have never experienced a P-wave. When I relax, my breathing tends to become slower and shallower. However, having read multiple times that deep and rhythmic breathing is key, this time I made a conscious effort to keep breathing slowly and deeply. What happened next is nothing short of amazing.

As I felt the pleasurable feelings grow in my prostate, my breathing went faster and even deeper, up until the point where I was a bit concerned I was about to hyperventilate. But I decided to be curious, go with it and see what happens next. I mentally told myself that I have permission to experience this limitless pleasure.

Super-O mindset?

I’ve been doing prostate play on and off over many years, without getting to the Super-O. Except once. I had been doing a session, initially without much success. At a certain point I dozed off, and as the toy got caught up in an involuntary contraction, something special happened. My prostate was sending waves of pleasure along my spine towards my head. That lasted a few minutes. Heavenly. Not full body shaking, just these highly pleasurable waves. This was over 10 years ago, and I’ve been unable to reproduce that sensation ever since.

Generally, I’m quite impatient (waiting in line is torture) and I have a very active and analytical mind. I’ve tried to go into hypnotic trance for a long time, using different files, but without any success. Even an IRL session with a certified hypnotist (just for helping me to relax) went nowhere. It would seem that I’m just unable to “let go”. Also, it takes a long time for me to fall asleep at night (30-60 minutes on average).

Where am I going with this? I’m wondering if I’m “doing it wrong” somehow. I’m not expecting a miracle solution, but I’d be interested if there are other people like me out there, and if they were able to “get there” somehow. What did you do to relax? Did you use a specific technique?