Haven’t felt any pleasure with any types of prostate play

I’ve been an avid anal player for a few years now, but solely because I aspire to experience the pleasure that some describe comes from prostate stimulation. (Also the thought of bottoming is hot lol).

Over the years, I’ve purchased a dual-density silicone dildo, an NJoy Pure Wand, an Aneros Helix Syn, the Lelo Hugo, and a variety of vibrating, self-thrusting, firm, soft, quick, and slow toys. None have worked in the slightest save for the mental pleasure I’ve experienced.

I am convinced that I was born without a prostate or something. And yes, I know where it’s located in the body. I have studied every anatomy diagram, every prostate wiki or tutorial, every instruction list there is. I am able to experience the “peeing” sensation when i apply pressure, but I haven’t felt any pleasure before.

Do I give up or not? It is sort of annoying at this point that I’ve spent time and money on supposedly the best of the best products with nothing to show for it. Should I keep trying myself or wait for a real guy to help? Do I need a special angle, pressure, toy, shape, lube, arousal, penile stimulation, or drugs to experience this pleasure? Or would I be better off not trying anymore?

Any tips at all are appreciated. Thank you very much!