Long sad journey. Please

I’ve been trying to get a prostate O for over 6 years ever since I first came across this sub. I’ve been obsessed with this sub on and off, and I’ve read it all and tried everything over the years. I sometimes think of this as unfair cuz I can’t experience what I’ve been craving for so long.

The thing is that I don’t have a device and I’m actually looking for someone to get me one. I hope I’m not breaking any rules, I’m already broke enough to be in this position. Please dm me if you can help in any way.