Ready to give up on the toy – Advice needed

I bought an Aneros Helix Syn Trident about 7 months ago and I must say it is not doing it for me. I respect it and what it has taught me about my prostate but I think all the involuntary shaking is just painful and frustrating. While it has felt good, I have gotten nothing close to the pleasure that everyone talks about on here. It’s as if the strain on my body being so tense and spazzing around is significantly worse than the amount of pleasure I get from the toy. I also get weird bouts of anger while using the toy kind of like a super orgasm but of overwhelming anger, it just pisses me off for no reason lol.

Anyone else experience anything similar? Any advice? I am one more session away from throwing this thing in the trash. Also sorry to anyone who praises the toy I mean no disrespect and I do believe in the positive attributes of it but I’m starting to think that it may just not work for some people.

Side Note: I am no stranger to psychedelics/smoke weed daily and have never experienced any aggression or anger in the slightest. I barely even get angry in my daily life so I am not sure why the Aneros does this to me.