Long post – sorry…
As the title says I FINALLY hit my first Super O and it wasn’t at all how I thought it would go. I’ve been playing for several years now with varying degrees of success – some sessions are great, some I experience nothing. Still, I kept at it and when I LEAST expected it it finally happened.
I wrapped work up early yesterday and decided to have a session. After a quick 10 – 15 minute meditation to clear my head I popped in my helix syn trident – no porn – just some ambient music to give me something to focus on and zone out.
I’ve noticed that no matter how much I try to not “chase” in the past I always end up chasing and trying too hard to make something happen. Also, I realized I keep expecting it to feel like a traditional, penile orgasm and so I’m probably searching for something that just isn’t going to happen. This week I decided my focus would be entirely on FEELING and LISTENING and being okay with whatever happens while also ignoring any pleasurable feelings that may involve my penis and focusing as much as possible on my prostate.
Nothing actually came of my session other than some light p waves and honestly I was okay with that. However, it finally dawned one me – I’ve been feeling these p waves all along but was failing to recognize / let them build before because as soon as they’d happen I’d clamp down and scare them away, basically. Anyway, I showered up and went along with my day.