Another HFWO – my enemy can’t leave me

Well my sessions don’t improve, and worse than that it’s so incredibly rare to have a good session. And when things are interesting 95% of the time I end up having a HFWO.
In fact I feel this is related to my premature ejaculation. And that’s like 90% of my depressed mood, it’s just so frustrating and aneros ends up being just another colateral damage.
This affects me so much I’m gonna post another message here I wrote in another forum, as I’m getting really desperate as I feel no way out of this nightmare:

“Well, where to start.
I’m 30 and I have always had premature ejaculation.
I’m 1,73 m high (5ft 8in) and 100 kg (220 lb).
When I was a teen I didn’t care much about it because my mindset was “when I grow older this will improve”.
So time went on and on and on… and nothing changed.
In the last 5/10 years I’m been burning inside with all this, I’ve sought plenty of help (including professional) but nothing ever helped.
I’m reaching that point where I’m starting to get desperate.
I feel so hurt inside, and it is getting worse.

So details.
Like I said this always happened, but I didn’t care much of it when I was a teen.
I’ve always been a very introvert, calm, person, and another (un)related thing is that I’ve never loved anyone.
Yes, I’ve never felt any kind of crush or anything of that. It’s totally alien to me.
I didn’t care of it when I was younger but now it’s another thing that is hurting me.

“A Respite From Chastity”

I had been having some discomfort in my groin area and thought it would be best if I suspend my night-time use of “chastity cups” for a while. Glad to report that the irritation is clearing up. But, for the past two nights, I have been sleeping only in my PJs. What a difference! Let me explain…..

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I awoke several times last night with an incredibly strong erection; so much so that I thought my wife slipped me some Viagra! Not only was I erect, I had ample precum oozing from my cock. I felt it right down to my prostate. I honestly felt like I was headed for a wet dream or at least an unassisted, spontaneous ejaculation. At one point, I removed my PJ bottoms and gently squirmed on the bed on my stomach, waiting for the discharge. I had at least three or four fantasies run through my head during this time (some male, some female). I thought how wonderful it would be to have an Aneros session right about now! A HFWO for sure!

But, alas, it was morning already and I had to put aside all this pleasure for another time…. I thought chastity was a real turn-on. But when the “chains” are removed, the unhindered sexual freedom has emerged! I feel like a newlywed ready to “spin the wheels”, trying out all my “equipment”! I am eagerly awaiting another night!

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A Rare “Dual” Session!

While suffering with a head ailment for about 2 weeks, I am feeling much better now. I have not had a session for that long and felt it long overdue. I had slept in my SD “chastity cup” since early this morning and felt ready. I lubed-up the HIH 950 and began the session. No sooner did it start that I had an almost immediate erection and several auto-fuck contractions! That is always a good sign! This session was quite arousing and I began squirming, moaning and thrusting. I positioned myself differently on the bed and—oh my!—I felt a blissful state of my prostate that I have not felt before! I still kept on the cup since I didn’t want my cock involved at all. But then…..

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I decided to take-off the cup and just see what would happen. Honestly, I didn’t care if I came on the bed. And guess what? I began to lightly caress my balls (and my cock only a little bit) and I began to get a an erection and more direct stimulation on my prostate within my session-in-progress! So I kept it up. My erection subsided a little then went back up. All the while, I was producing precum now like crazy! I thought that maybe I would have a HFWO. But after a while, things settled-down and so I stopped…..I didn’t have the feeling that I needed to ejaculate.

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Being rewired

I have been in this prostate journey for some years now an it’s crazy that my body still finds ways to sexually surprise me. I like to make far in-between journey entrys to really show I’m being authentic. So I have a few toys but it has come to my attention that my A-less sessions be the most exciting as of late. Just now I’m laying here righting this spent an still gasping for air. I decided to read a few erotic novels. It’s a great passtime of mine. The nastiest the better. So it’s it’s chilly here in the Midwest and I’m just in bed reading a nice hot an heavy story about a boy an his older lover having a epic sex battle. As I’m reading I feel a churning in my stomach an then my legs begin to shake. As I continue to read my dick just gets rock fucking hard. These stories always get me hot but has never kicked off a aneros session before. As I continue reading it’s getting harder an harder in my pants. I’m beginning to gasp for air cause this page I’m reading is getting so intense. I begin to leak precum as my body starts to shake uncontrolling. Trying to keep it together by calming my breathing as I’m mmo’ing back to back. I’m reading an churning and shaking an boom. As soon as the young reached his orgasm with his lover I began to stream globs of hot cum out if my now erect stiff penis. I couldn’t do anything but just let it happen. Oh it felt so damn good. I love having hfwo. Once you tap that prostate he continues to work even when you least expect it. I have been having after shocks the whole writing this. I am still so happy I found this site an learned about prostate play.

“Ways Of Coping With Horniness”

Why write this? I have found lately that being in semen retention longer than 7 days can bring-on extreme horniness. How each guy deals with it is a very individual thing. Here are some of my coping skills (in no particular order):

1 Masturbate or jerk-off. This always cures what ails me, especially if I have a nasty case of “blue-balls”. I can just rub-one-off or get more sophisticated with a sleeve, an anal plug or binaural beats. I keep a calendar of ejaculation history so if it hasn’t been that long, I won’t bother.

2 Just ignore it, stud! This works usually at night when wearing a “chastity cup”. It feels so good but can go on for a while (sometimes 45 minutes or longer). That horny feeling sometimes is too much to bear! Thank goodness I am wearing a cup!

3 Fantasize – – What I do here is pretend that I am being “prepared” for a medical procedure (usually on the prostate). I need to wear a sexually-stimulating device (a supporter/cup) for a given period of time and I am powerless to do anything during that period. Usually works for me and keeps my mind focused on something else while enduring a powerful, stimulating erection.

4 Get active! Works well for me. I do something else like physical activity such as swimming, cutting grass, etc. This will almost always help to quell an active erection. But I wear a jockstrap in the pool and that fact sometimes can be another turn-on! Whoah!

“Still Having The Urge”

Still wearing my XO ProCup to bed. Woke up early (aroused as usual) and my prostate felt like it needed some relief. So I quickly lubed-up the HIH 950 and within a minute, began a most relaxing but stimulating session.

I decided to take a break from the SGX (which is more intense). Rather, the 950 provides my prostate with some gentle massage…..or so I thought! I suppose that due to the fact that I was already aroused and had a recent session with the SGX, my prostate was already “ready” to give me pleasure. It did not disappoint me. At one point during this ~45 minute session, I began to arch my back/hips while performing contractions and I immediately felt it in my prostate. I kept this up for a while and it actually felt like I was on my way towards a HFWO! I actually was moaning from the 950, if you can believe it! I am now having a sweet, delicate Aless, certainly not intense like the SGX but enough to let me know that my prostate is alive and well! Take care!
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PS As I have noted before and confirmed by @BigGlansDC, each prostate massager has its own unique “signature”. Take advantage of that when you are considering a session. Why hit your prostate with a baseball bat when a much smaller tool will do? If you only have one Aneros, please consider adding to your “collection” like I did. You won’t be disappointed! Just be sure to “choose wisely” —- think about what you are looking for in prostate pleasure and then go for it!

“This Session Went Deeper”

Wow! I was ready for a session, but I wasn’t ready for this. Let me explain……

I had listened to some stimulating binaurals for prostate and anal orgasms early this morning and was really getting turned-on. I quickly decided after about 35 minutes or so on a nice relaxing session with my HIH 950. Now I am considering getting an Aneros SGX, which I have never owned. After this mornings session, I believe I need to get one. Here’s why…..
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One thing I did differently this session was to insert the 950 much DEEPER than I usually do. I wanted nice, firm pressure on the acupressure tab which I achieved easily. As a side benefit, I got more direct pressure on my prostate. I turned-over on my right side and immediately (I mean immediately!) felt the presence of the massager against my prostate! I have not felt this before! I got an erection almost immediately. I felt “paralyzed” with pleasure right from the beginning! It wasn’t too long before I felt p-waves and what I would call “rolling waves of orgasmic pleasure” coming from my prostate. I was tensing-up my whole body and couldn’t release it. I knew it had to be an orgasm because I felt a “pumping” and a strong desire for a HFWO almost from the beginning. I felt like my prostate was really being “milked” during this session. No teasing this time! I had whole-body convulsions and was moaning. It felt wonderfully good!

“My Prostate Had A Yearning”

Oh my! What an unexpected pleasure! Let me explain…..

I had been listening to some nice, soothing, erotic tracks for about an hour. I had switched “chastity cups” from my Mueller to my Bike (which gives a much more supportive and restrictive feel. And then I went back to bed to lie down. No sooner did my head hit the pillows, I had a very strong sensation that I needed a session. But not with my HIH 950. This session was to be with the Mangasm Flux Prostate Stimulator. I have not used it in a while and so I was ready for some prostate pleasure.

And the Mangasm Flux did not disappoint me! As soon as I inserted the smallest bead, then the next largest and finally the largest, I began to do some rapid kegels and immediately began to feel the effect! Now the Mangasm Flux definitely massages the prostate but it is very gentle (similar to the HIH 950). However, it didn’t take too long before I began to feel the p-waves! With every contraction, I felt more of a gentle “tickle” on my prostate (just like a finger) and the feeling was unmistakable. I wanted to go on longer but I needed to end this amazing ride since it is almost time to get up for the day. I honestly felt like I was headed for a HFWO with this stimulator! I wish I had more time to experience it.

“This Nice Session Had All The Right Ingredients”

It was time for a session. I had lost track of the days since my last one. I woke up wearing my Mueller “chastity cup” and had listened to some nice soothing tracks beforehand. I was ready. I headed-up to the bedroom, lubed-up the HIH 950 and quickly started this nice session.
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No sooner I started it that I knew this would be a good session; I was right! I started-out doing nothing, but that quickly developed into the massager wanting to do its own thing right from the beginning. I felt like a helpless participant. I began to have fairly quick auto-contractions and they quickly escalated into more arousal. I had several erections in sequence during this session and my prostate stimulation seemed to match. At one point near the middle of the session, I developed a tingly feeling in my feet and my hands and even felt a tingle progress up my spine (that one was unusual). I had abdominal contractions and general all-over body shakes. I had a definite discharge of some fluid from my penis and at one point (when I had an erection) I honestly felt that I could experience a HFWO! Because the 950 is shaped so much like a finger, I also experienced some nice erotic fantasies.
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As usual, the HIH 950 knows when to stop and so did I! I was surprised that the 45 minutes seemed to fly-by. Where did the time go? What else did I experience during this nice session? The 950 is a perfect gentlemen; he’ll never tell!

Re-wiring: Closing The Circuit & Welcome, Bad Boy!

Hi guys, here are my reports of the last week, me deeply enjoying to suffer from semen retention (SR), discovering my microcosmic circuit, falling to femdom again – following CEI and edging commands, enforcing arousal by ballstretching and saying welcome to my new pick of the bunch – Progasm ICE – teaching me autof*ck in a rude way. Editing this post I achieved day 12 of SR! Yeah! My balls are aching so bad!

Wednesday, 12/7

Today my Progasm ICE was delivered and I must say: Welcome, Bad Boy! WTF! After some exciting moments, when I shot that slippery tool all through the bathroom, frightened that it might be broken, I finally got it in properly. I went to bed and lay down for five minutes only, when first involuntary contractions began. What was following was the hottest ride out ever. It raped me autof*cking me into pure bliss. Comparing with the Syn Brothers it’s a very filling sensation, more like a real c*ck inside. To me it is of perfect length and size. Perhaps up to it’s slippery surface it seems to even move more easily than the Helix Syn.

Thursday, 12/8

On my 7th day of SR I failed to get along w/o Shibby. Looking up her files for posting some comments in the Aneros forum on wednesday night a certain file name had evoked my curiosity and I could not resist to listen to the whole file three times at work on thursday. It’s called
“I want to make work HARDER for you*”
*(Wait! All links may be NSFW!) having some mean instructions for you while you’re at your office and some orders for later at home including teasing, edging and, of course, denial.