[Sorry, the expletives are necessary to convey the true feeling of this session.]
Well, I am into a new Day 10 of SR. Guys, I don’t know what got into me this morning. I was relaxing on the sofa in the early AM and listening to a favorite “lucid wet dream” binaural at very low volume. They are very low, pulsating tones and they feel good. I still had a small towel beneath my night boxers just in case. Anyway, I was just laying there and it suddenly hit me: I want to do a “real” edging session. Not a pussy-foot, beat-around-the bush session. But a real, no-holds-barred, so what if I ejaculate, “fearless” one. But what if I come? “F**K it!” I thought to myself. If I go off, what the f**k? I’ll never know the feeling unless I try. So I embarked on this very risky “mission”. At first, I was timidly stroking and caressing my scrotum like I have done many times before. But the intensity and the techniques changed quickly as I got further into this session. The scrotal strokes became more sweeping and faster. The erect penis was being engaged more and more. I was stroking it from every direction, side-to-side, up-and-down, round-and-round. The base, the shaft, the head. And even my nipples became absorbed in the action. I felt my head and it was starting to get wet. But I didn’t stop there. I continued stroking and getting closer to the PONR. It didn’t matter, I was fearless and, as I said before, F**K the consequence! At this point, I had an “attitude”.
I got as close as I wanted to get. I thought if I had to put a number on it, it would be about 99.9%. I felt my prostate starting to pump and right then and there, I STOPPED. When it was all over, I realized that this edging session was about 45 minutes long, the longest for me I can remember. Could I have gone further? I don’t think so, not without ejaculating. But the after-effects of this edging session seem to be lasting. I feel a general “tingle” throughout my ejaculatory “plumbing” now, right down to the tip of my penis. Will this help me towards my 21-day no ejaculation goal? I honestly don’t know but, F**k it, I am going forward today! I felt cocky this morning and even more so now!
PS This may sound strange, but ALL of my groin discomfort (which I have been feeling for about 3 days now) is GONE! Is this a coincidence or is it a result of the edging? I can honestly say that my male package feels “fresh” (if that makes any sense) and not full of stale sperm!
PS I am thinking to myself: is this “fearless” attitude necessary to overcome ED issues? I wonder…..