It finally happened but not in the way I was expecting

Long post – sorry…

As the title says I FINALLY hit my first Super O and it wasn’t at all how I thought it would go. I’ve been playing for several years now with varying degrees of success – some sessions are great, some I experience nothing. Still, I kept at it and when I LEAST expected it it finally happened.

I wrapped work up early yesterday and decided to have a session. After a quick 10 – 15 minute meditation to clear my head I popped in my helix syn trident – no porn – just some ambient music to give me something to focus on and zone out.

I’ve noticed that no matter how much I try to not “chase” in the past I always end up chasing and trying too hard to make something happen. Also, I realized I keep expecting it to feel like a traditional, penile orgasm and so I’m probably searching for something that just isn’t going to happen. This week I decided my focus would be entirely on FEELING and LISTENING and being okay with whatever happens while also ignoring any pleasurable feelings that may involve my penis and focusing as much as possible on my prostate.

Nothing actually came of my session other than some light p waves and honestly I was okay with that. However, it finally dawned one me – I’ve been feeling these p waves all along but was failing to recognize / let them build before because as soon as they’d happen I’d clamp down and scare them away, basically. Anyway, I showered up and went along with my day.

After dinner, I’d taken an edible to unwind (my daytime session was 100% sober, btw) and I was sitting on the couch watching tv with my partner catching up on some Netflix show and out of NOWHERE I started to feel the light p waves from earlier in the day. I closed my eyes and just enjoyed it but these got stronger and stronger until it felt like my while body was radiating energy! My head was swimming and I just felt this amazing buzz and warmth everywhere. Mind you I was doing zero contractions. After they subsided I initiated some sexy time with my partner – nothing too heavy, didn’t touch my dick at all but things still felt amazing. After he finished I asked if he’d manually stimulate my prostate to which he agreed.

Not sure if it was due to my earlier session but I was having trouble relaxing enough to be entered but I noticed just him rubbing my lubed up hole was starting to feel pretty great so I told him to please just do that. I’m not sure what happened next because it blindsided me but I remember the p waves starting up again and increasing in intensity and suddenly my prostate was just BUZZING. I was struggling to even say anything. It felt like my prostate was dancing in circles or like it was the spin cycle in my washer. It’s so hard to describe. I was stuck in this state of pleasure that completely took over my body. And it really was my entire body. The feelings were most intense at my prostate but would radiate outwards through the rest of my body .

I must have looked uncomfortable because he kept asking if I was okay but all I could muster up were a few moans and some laughter. Side note – why does nobody talk about the laughter? Is it just me? It was so pleasurable and blissful I couldn’t help but smile and chuckle to myself between the moans. I never spoke a word (I couldn’t) and my dick never even got hard. It didn’t seem like there was an end in sight because It didn’t stop but just got better and better. I don’t know how long I was stuck but I’m glad my partner was able to realize what was happening and kept rubbing me despite my lack of communication.

When I finally did manage to catch my breath and slow down my prostate felt ABSOLUTELY GLOWING AND RADIANT,if that makes sense. I felt so calm and peaceful but also shocked that after so many years of trying and failing with different toys my partner was able to get me there with just a finger and it wasn’t even in me!

I’m still in disbelief this morning.

I just wanted to share my experience to encourage folks to keep at it and to also be open to different types of pleasure than what you’ve known.It really did take me letting go of all expectations and getting out of my own way.