Author: Alaska

Sleeping with my Mistress Aneros

08-07-2019
(I copied this from a forum post I made August 7th)

Fantasy and reality, the line is getting blurry…….

I could not sleep last night after spending an hour or so on the forums starting about 10:30 pm. (Note to self, reading this forum gets me worked up, maybe don’t read @ bedtime). After tossing and turning a bit I finally gave up on sleep and wrote my first post last night. I then turned on some binaural beats (props to this forum), then rolled over to go to sleep. I lay wide awake for a little bit, all the while my prostrate mistress was whispering in my ear. I finally gave in to my growing addiction and got up at 1:45 am and inserted my Helix, that is the last time I looked at the clock until I awoke with a raging hard on @ 7:17 am. But what happened in between, in the twilight hours was hard to describe.

After my final peak at the clock @ 1:45 – I finally fell asleep and woke up some unknown time later in a dream state of fantasy and reality. Foggy, groggy, lovely. I felt like I was having a religious experience, bliss? I was on my side and I was semi hard, but that only annoyed me as it was distracting me from my religious/bliss feelings. Getting annoyed with a semi hard on is not something I have ever done. I usually run down that road to wherever it will lead me. I have been controlled by my cock my entire life. To have a blissful experience without it, or even more so, to be annoyed by it is really not reality to me. (Where in the world is this prostrate mistress leading me?) Read more »

Overthinking it all

8-7-2019 through 8-18-2019

I had several sessions that were only so-so, I think I had expectations from the awesome overnight session. These were frustrating for me. I did spend a lot of time reading posts in the forum trying to figure out what the magic bullet was. I have now discovered there is not one and I need to just ride the waves however they come.

My frustration led to desiring a traditional orgasm at the end of a session. As a side note I’m older and take Viagra to create & maintain a hard-on. So when I had to rub one out it was a softie, but I was still able to achieve that goal.

So apparently I still have a good bit of work to do to rewire my brain. This frustration plus all of my reading in the forums got me to buy the MGX Trident in hopes that it would somehow “hit the right spot” for me. Sadly my expectations of it being a magic tool created a couple of not very good sessions when that toy arrived. (I was looking for that magic bullet, others posted amazing experiences with it) (your results may vary…..)

Advice to others that follow: Don’t chase like I did, slow down, take it easy, take what mistress Aneros gives you. It is going to take some time to rewire a lifetime of traditional masturbation and orgasms. Read more »

What happened? Mind Noise?

08-10-2019 – (forum post)

I had a really amazing session the other day, and in the midst of my blissful feelings, my mind wandered away. It was almost like a detached brain thing and I was trying to go through the checklist to figure out what feelings I was having. As I think back on that, I think, what the heck was I doing? (Shhhhhhhhh) be still brain.

Then afterwards I was trying to think back on what happened and compare it to my limited knowledge of what I’m “supposed” to feel. And then I thought, who cares? I don’t care what Joe felt, for what Sam felt. Let this “thing” just take you where it wants to go. I seem to have limited control anyway, and pretty much everywhere I go has been awesome.

(Note to self) SHUT UP… Just ride the sessions and enjoy them. They are all unique so far. Some of the feelings are the same and some are different. This is really a heck of a journey, I had no idea I could feel like this without an erect penis. Read more »

MB – 10 days later

8-29-2019

Back from the beach and a 10 day break from sex, aside from looking for bikini clad babes on the beach with my cousins. Spent the first night with the Helix in. Some pleasant feelings before going to bed. Woke up and spent time playing around, not really a session. Nipple play etc. I was thinking of no masturbation till I had a proper session. I tried the vibrating butt plug again for an hour or so. Tried the MGX Trident, also played with both the Peridise models. Did some stuff around the house with the smaller Peridise inserted.

I downloaded the HypnAerosession and used the Helix with that in up to, but not including, the final track. Really liked that. Nothing was rushed, but it felt more like I was just playing around, not really doing a “serious” session. Maybe I was just getting reacquainted with my Aneros.

After that session I cleaned everything up, put stuff away and was done. But a while later I got very horny and started to finger my ass. That progressed to the toothbrush, and that progressed to masturbating without a pill. I had a semi hard on. It felt pretty good and I thought maybe after this I would try some SR and have a couple day break and then come back to the hypnotic sound track. I am not disappointed about this or frustrated.

MB – great day

I have not had a proper hard on / orgasm since getting my Aneros. I was missing it and set out today to have a good old fashioned masturbation session. I took a pill at 9 am, I also did some nipple play, I can’t believe how amazing they are now. I am getting much more arousal from them and find myself wanting to touch them every time I take my shirt off.

I wanted to stretch it out a bit, but not too much, sometimes I go too far teasing and then lose it. I did some computer work and seemed to be having Aless? I had some very nice feelings I was not expecting. I was not thinking of anything sexual, doing computer stuff and a warm feeling came over me. First time for me, not much, but very cool.

I suddenly decided I wanted to put in the peridise – small, even though I actually wanted to keep this cock centered. I wore it while I went about some chores. I went to my computer and listened to the touching track and played with my cock, nipples, balls. I loved looking at my hard cock. Spent about 15 minutes enjoying and teasing. Then I ran to the store to pick up a few things, I wore the peridise. Upon getting back I was fully aroused, super horny, so I got to work on my cock. It was a pretty amazing orgasm. I left the peridise in during this session and it did not seem to interfere which was one of my concerns. Read more »

MB oh boy

Well writing my last blog entry I got horny again. Went took a pill and had another quickie with the flesh light. It was really good, pretty strong intensity, not super hard. Not surprising since it was such a short time.

Since I’m planning on SR maybe that was in my mind to just go ahead and get another one in if I could. We’ll see how long I can hold out now and get back to the Aneros.