Author: DarkEngine

Paraphimosis woes

Break from the norm once again: this time it's a medical condition effecting the sea-monster. Maybe you heard of this, or phimosis?

If not: Phimosis is when the foreskin is tighter than it should be, making retraction quite difficult, and possibly painful. Resolving it is quite straightforward, with stretching exercises — and if subscribed, steroid cream to assist the process.

But what if one allows the foreskin to remain tightly retracted, and let hard-ons occur? Then there's risk of the condition's older brother: paraphimosis. This is when the skin is trapped under the head, and by extension blood. Trapped blood can eventually cause bloated swelling to form, ballooning part of the shaft under the head. The )flaccid( result is this:
http://www.tabletsmanual.com/img/wiki/paraphimosis_1.jpg

Gross. And it can potentially swell to much larger degrees. Luckily, mine is only by that much, pictured above. Saying this, when errection does occur, the is compressed into a ring, or 'mane' of sorts, around the head.

I've had paraphimosis for as long as I can remember. Back in high school, I wondered why my skin wouldn't fully retract, but that never got me into a rut. Trying to do so did hurt, though. Early college days, however, I finally decided to pull my skin all the way down and saw what was by then paraphimosis. I was ignorant to this, of course, and simply assumed this gross appearance was me doing something I shouldn't off – namely pulling the skin too far back. Read more »

Abstaining session

Been over a week since the 6th May, my blog last entry. I talked about having a break to build excitement — and last night's session made a point of that.

Over this week I abstained from anything sexual, and looking at anything sexual for that matter. No porn, fetishes, masturbating, touching, none of that. This was simply to make the next session a week later feel great, but I preferred this clean break from it all. In fact, just the THOUGHT of something like Aneros or a pin-up girl churned my stomach, it felt gross! My mind and body clearly needed this break, what a great choice I made.

What also felt gross, as the details above show, was the session. I stay in the city every week for work, for a few days. The few nights I sleep at the apartment are quiet and spacious — perfect, compared to the cramped conditions of my regular habitat )including virtually no sound-proofing(.

So Saturday is when I head back, and there was a growing urge to give the Progasm a shot whilst having the chance. At the same time, my conscience waves its finger on how lousy that decision is. It was stereotypically a 'Devil vs. Angel' on the conclusion front.

At first, no — "Let's just go to bed and move on." Then I had the bright idea to peek at some porn. It all caved in from there. Read more »

Should Really Take a Break

Nothing says Super-O desperation like three devices in one session!

I'm really kind of fed up right now, and it's effecting my sessions and overall attitude towards Aneros. Graduated from university this summer and I'm in that sickening, sludgy void of being unemployed. Want to be out of it as soon as I can.

And then in terms of Aneros, now I have this weird tinge that I've been relying on it too much as a source of my happiness or joy. Those new sensations, however brief, were incredible and unforgettable. There's always that itch of needing more. And boy, it's really opened up my senses to MMO in general. Even outside of sessions I can have bouts of pleasure in the abdomen.

At this point however, there are two layers of reality that have finally surfaced: a. I'm bored of Aneros/MMO
b. I've forgotten all the progress I've made, and ignore all the great vibes.

With the latter's meaning, great pleasures before DO still happen often during session. These were pleasures that, when starting off on the journey, made me consider the session a huge success. Now, though, I think…I take them for granted.

Before I thought "amazing!" and now I think "Meh, okay"

Ouch. It's really a stinker reflecting on my outlook over this. Although nice, pleasure waves of that magnitude don't feel like enough. I want stronger than before! But that's unrealistic and unaccepting <sp> of everything I achieved. Read more »

Dirty talking helped!?

TL;DR:
* Session had vague sensations but wasn't going anywhere
* Semi-forced anal contractions 2 hours in began creating sensations
* When a lot of arousal built up, began dirty talk began happening in my mind
* Out of body experience occurred when dirty talk kept going
* Sweet vibes in abdomen and anus afterwards

The session clarified some loose ends on how the Aneros works, though I say this in loose a way as possible. I'd like to think I'm inching ever closer towards understanding how the device works, but I frankly just do not know anymore at this stage.

Jumping into the session, I worked on understanding the unique feelings I get with the Aneros. On a semi-conscious level I do this every time, but that night I wanted to try and define the two separate aspects of MMO: general and Aneros. Anyone reading this will already state that MMO and Aneros go hand-in-hand. Yeah, I guess – but it's been a sticking point to me that a lot of great developments I achieve with the Aneros are actually pleasures that can be replicated outside of sessions. To me, this does not ring any bells that I'm utilising the Aneros for what it's worth. Read more »

2nd stage of prostate awakening…?

TL;DR:
* Tingles of pleasure in anus for first time.
* Genuinely felt the Aneros.
* Prostate engorging in sensation.
* Strong p-waves.
* Refractory period: sad, tense and desperate.

Maybe part of the fun in these sessions is never quite knowing what to expect?

I anticipated a mediocre time, but it was quite an experience. My mind wasn't feeling up for it that night but my body said so otherwise. I've partly forgotten part of what the whole thing felt like, as I usually write these entries asap, when the memory is still hot. It's too bad our internet was down these past few days.

From what I remember, the usual pleasure was all there: trickles of adrenaline, paced breathing, tense abdomen and the occasional stiff. But early into it…I felt the Aneros inside me. Well, that's a given actually. But I actually felt pleasure from its movements. When people say they felt their anus, rectum and such tingle – that MUST of been it. I'm not sure how I can explain it, especially now my memory has faded a little.

Basically, an image in my subconscious (?) sprung up. Fingering. Then I could feel sensations – albeit vague, develop down there in the anus. This must of been the bridge between my body and the Aneros, since after a bit I could genuinely feel pleasure coming from each stroke, and the prostate responding to it. Before long, it felt like the Aneros was doing this on its own accord – and I couldn't stop it unless I actually tried to. Read more »

Duds

Yup, I thought so.

So my previous entry praised and raved over the great new experiences from Monday night. Turns out they weren't discoveries with a permanent effect. I tried the MGX again tonight primarily to see if what I had uncovered in the previous session can happen again – either voluntarily or involuntarily. Nope.

It's nothing unusual though – a lot of the time I like to figure out the science of why sensations can and can't happen. It's why I started this blog after all – and why I specifically document great sessions over the norm.

Back to the topic: from what I can gather, it's being in the right state of mind. I did get nice sensations from this session, make no mistake. There were tingles and jolts that were typically enough to make me consider it great progress back last summer. And they only happened once every session or so. But this time, checking on the former entry's bullet points, almost none of that happened again. Why, I wonder? Surely I knew what to look for now, what areas to focus my mind on? How could these not repeat…? Read more »

Odd new involuntary massaging

TL;DR:
* Sensations flow naturally – doing nothing or contracting.
* Pleasure builds up quite easily now.
* First time arousal from anal contracting.
* Built up pleasure quickly, and felt wormy involuntary contractions.

I thought I hit the peak of my Aneros journey for a month or two, assuming that the reality should of accepted of what I'm experiencing as being end-game – that my pleasure wouldn't be all that cracked up. Well, nope, last night's session promptly popped that plane of thought.

The few sessions before in July/August were standard for me, last night was worth blogging based on a number of new experiences. As per usual with the onset of these firework sessions, I didn't really feel in the mood for the Aneros. Nonetheless, arousal was still evident in me so I wanted to give this session a go. Originally going for the Progasm, I stumbled upon my old MGX and pondered giving that a try instead. One forum poster mentioned switching up models as being effective means for getting the ball rolling.

I went for it and it admittedly didn't really feel great. Even recall wanting to just take it out within the first 10-12 minutes or so. Things fell into place after quarter of an hour though. I could feel pleasures building, especially with deep and focused breathing. Think I just limped there and 'surrendered' myself to the nice vibes washing in – felt great. Some positions worked great this time, especially lying to my left with my right leg upright. Could feel tingling adrenaline rush around my abdomen when doing so. Read more »

Prostate discovery

TL;DR
* Prostate finally felt – warm and tingly.
* No touching or erotic audio/visuals.
* Letting the body naturally shake engorges the sensations.
* Realising and understanding the unique feelings when Aneros is in, as opposed to out.
* Some positions worked better than others )Durr…(
* Shaking my right leg 'released' some pleasures, odd.

The session last night uncovered a few things that, while obvious, helped me to get proper usage out of the Aneros. Saying that, this is what virtually every entry goes into )if it isn't sulking(

Feeling perked by my project finally moving forward, I felt I could sleep for once that night. Some insecurities were dealt with and fear levels were down. My arousal took a flying leap from this, though. Maybe it was pent up by the stress all this time.

So I thought maybe giving the Aneros another go might give something worthwhile. It sure did. Putting it in I remembered to take note of what feelings I was getting in session. Within half an hour in – it occurred to me that the Aneros is generating pleasures from the prostate. Typically in sessions I use imagery and nipples to progress things, but this was the wrong way of doing it. This time I just let the Helix sit in there and do nothing else. Read more »

Powerful session

TL;DR
* MGX provided new sensations
* P-Tab was still too tough
* Mass itching nearly broke the night
* Progasm settled in nicely
* Feeling of 'fullness' developed and bolstered arousal
* Tug-of-War gave Progasm large strokes
* Plus, rocking back and fourth with strokes gave large orgasms

The itching and pains around my lower regions have settled down quite a bit now – great! And the irritations in my anus have almost disappeared – save for the occasional itch here and there. The cream I use must have helped more than I realise.

Been wanting to use the Aneros again these past few weeks – the culprit working against the intention was a sore sphincter. Thankfully that's passed and now only itches once in a while during the day. Yesterday I planned to give the device a round in the evening – it was worth it in the end.

Starting off I decided to roll with the MGX, partly in that I felt the prostate was being overshot by the length of the other models. That, and a change in models would help shift things around. Slipping the MGX in was discomforting at first but it calmed down after a few minutes. Pleasures and whatnot were standard and good, but trying to develop arousal would cause my anus and balls to itch like [i]crazy[/i] – the aches of the p-tab shoving against a swelling prostate didn't help. By about 1:40am I threw in the towel and took out the MGX. Read more »

Ah, and just to add…

Have been making good progress regardless, as the posts from before point out. Actually, a session two weeks back was great – I tried listening to 'Hypnaerosession' and on top of erotic imagery, waves of adrenaline tingled my abdomen non stop. There came a point where I clamped down intensely, and my dick was having dry ejaculations. On top of this, on occasion I moan almost involuntarily now and that really helps things – along with heavy breathing.

I discovered that my abdomen plays a big part in the experience, but also I have to allow feelings to shock me with this rush of 'adrenaline', else the whole session numbs out. I believe the numbness comes from both anticipation and expectation.

Really do want continue using the Aneros, it's just a bummer my ass is having pains and itches right now