Aftershocks

12 hours later I'm still not quite sure that my body has recovered. I'm feeling echoes of involuntaries. I don't think they're still happening now but definitely i'm feeling something. It all started last night. I'd been having a bit of a break for a while as my last couple of sessions had been bad. I don't think I was mentally on it at all and had plenty on my mind. I'd managed a few involuntaries but nothing really came of it. Last night I was finally feeling ready to get back to it. Saying good night to the flat mate I retired to bed and shot a good load of maximus up my rear end. It was a little bit more than normal. I then coated my helix with a generous coating of pjur back door glide…I really love that stuff. I inserted my helix and relaxed. Within 30 seconds it all kicked off. Involuntaries started but this time my hips just wanted to thrust with it which doesn't usually happen. Then some mini O's kicked in which is at which point I realised that I'd inserted the Helix back to front…d'oh! I rotated it at which point I was a gonner. One of the best sessions I've had in a while as orgasm after orgasm just came along. I hardly made any contractions at all and just let things happen. They weren't earth shattering but were just continuous. After probably about 90 mins and a quick comfort break I thought it was time I got my Progasm out and give it a go. I lubed it up with some back door glide and in it went. Not having much luck with the Progasm before I wasn't expecting too much but wow…tonight was different. What a ride and it's different. The Helix feels much more concentrated for me whilst the Progasm seems to give me more of a diluted sensation but it was sublime. I super o'd on the progasm and swapped back to the Helix and continued the ride. I was about 3 hours in now and I think my prostate was starting to feel a bit over stimulated as I was experiencing a little soreness so I decided to end the session. I cleaned up and fell asleep still naked in my bed. After an hour I woke up. I wasn't really with it and thought i'd fallen asleep with my helix still inside as I was awoken by my ass contracting. It felt as though it was still in there but when I felt around to my hole it wasn't. It dorned upon me that I was now into an Aneroless session. Waking up I tensed up a little and could feel the muscles in my lower stomach and around my groin contrating. I tensed a little more to the point that a super O cascaded through my body. I think this was the first time I've had this without an Aneros inserted. All I wanted to do was sleep but the p waves just kept coming with mini o after mini o. Eventually they subsided to a point where I fell asleep again. I woke up again after a few hours and fortunately this time the p waves had stopped but my body is telling me that I must have had quite a work out last night. My whole stomach and groin feel worked out and even just thinking about it now sends echoes through me. I'm home alone tonight…i'm wondering whether to have a rest night or just to plug and play again. Wow!

Update

I bet my poor Progasm is wondering what's going on. I haven't touched it since I got the Helix which really does provide a wild ride. Not saying that every session is amazing, as they not all are. For example last night I had a complete dud of a session. I've been ill with flu for the last few days and was on the tail end of it and feeling horny but all I could muster were a few involuntaries, so I gave it, took it out and went to sleep. I have had some mind blowing orgasms though with it. I'm not getting any of this body shaking stuff but as it has been said on here everyone is different. Maybe it will come one day, not that it really worries me given the sensations and feelings I get from rolling continual orgasms. I look forwards to when i'm fully over my flu so I can have a proper focussed session again.

The best night ever so far

Ok, so I think I'm falling in love with my Helix. After the night before last I think this is one of the best things i've purchased in a long time. I was on a day off from work and woke up a little horny. I had a quick session with the Helix, plenty of p-waves and a mini O but i felt compelled to go play with my other big toys at the time so ended the session there. I wasn't expecting to do anything that night as I was still recovering from my earlier toy play and had had a few too many drinks but I was horny still so thought wtf, lets have a go. Previous experiences combined with alcohol and the Helix lead me to believe I wouldn't have a great time as I wouldn't be able to concentrate properly. So I lubed up, with my ass still probably containing a bit of J-Lube from earlier in the day and inserted the Helix. Beginning some gentle contractions so lead to what I can only describe as the most orgasmic experience I've ever had since discovering that I was able to have orgasms as a kid. I seemingly keep having to reclassify the intensity levels that I'm experiencing as I go further and further along the path with this toy. Lubed up the Helix was dancing around as I layed on my side with knees bent and then the contractions…a mish mash of pulling this way, pulling that way, muscles in my groin and abdomen were pulling in all directions and the p waves were dancing around. And then an O…so so powerful. I'd never experienced one this strong before. The intensity just kept building and building higher and higher to the point where i wanted to cry. I felt as though I was going to burst. I wanted it to stop but I wanted it to continue at the same time. This intense pleasure was like an orgasm but multiplied what must have been like 10x maybe 20x more powerful than a traditional O. After a few mins i came down of this O and was lying there panting heavily trying not to cry out as my housemate was sleeping next door. Just as i thought i was getting back down to base level, a jolt of pleasure so so strong went through me and suddenly i was back at this super intense level. If this was not a super O then I really don't konw what is haha. I was ready to burst again as the intensity kept building and building. I was having the ride of my life and I didn't want to get off. I don't know how long it lasted or how many of these O's i had but after a while I decided to try the progasm again. I slipped it in and contractions started but it was a much more diluted sensation. I reached an O again but it was nowhere near as powerful as what i'd experienced with the Helix. After this I put the Helix back in but I think my night had come to an end. It was heading well into the early hours of the morning and called it a night. I don't know why it had been so powerful that night..maybe my ass was still tired out from earlier in the day and not being sober certainly counter-acts what's been said and what i've experienced before.

More Progress

So despite some interesting and new feelings going on with the progasm I stil think that I probably jumped in at the deep end too much. I decided to order a helix instead and try with that instead. It arrived yesterday and the anticipation soon had me tearing the packaging open. My first impressions were that the helix makes the progasm look huge. It is only now that I realise quite how big the progasm is. I slipped the helix in with ease and it settled in. The thing that i really like about it is that it stays in place. The progasm tended to slip out a bit on me until my canal tightened on it and took grip but there was no such issues with the helix. I started contractions and nothing was really happening compared to the progasm…well I thought that was the case. It seemed to take a lot longer for any feelings to start happening. I was running out of time but there were some slightly different sensations going on compared to the progasm. I left it after a while as I knew my flatmate would return home soon. I was eager to try again soon. Then today I found myself home alone unexpectedly since my work duty was cut short. I lubed up and slipped the helix in. I started contractions just taking my time letting the new toy start to work. Slowy after a while or so, it must have been an hour i felt these rolling contractions start happening through my ass up into my stomach..amazing feelings as they just happened on their own and then i felt an orgasm start building up. I'd never felt this with the progasm. It was like a standard orgasm but I wasn't stimulating my penis and there was no ejaculation. So this thing does actually work! By now i knew i'd made the right choice in getting the helix too. The orgasm was fairly short lived but it was a great feeling. I took a short rest but things were still going on down there and I could feel the helix moving about still. Soon after another orgasm started building but this one was much more powerful. It started around the prostate but this time it radiated upwards through my body. I was blown away and was enjoying the ride. It probably lasted only a minute or so but was like wow. My dick was just flowing with precum. I came down off this O and tried again but I think my time was over and went for a T….gotta say that was also one of the best traditional O's i'd had beating that I had with the progasm. I'd thought I'd had a super O with the progasm but after today's experience I now know I didn't or if I did it was very different. I'm going to enjoy the helix I think.

P wave evenings

After this session with Alana that ended in the best traditional O i'd had in a long, long time, I was keen to move on. I spent the next few days looking for alternatives to the hypnaerosession and found the I-Doser sexual simulations session. No spoken word here, just chilled out music…perfect I thought. Another new discovery that evening was instead of lying on my back which I found tended to tense up my stomach too much, I lay on my side as suggested in the forums. This I found later would be key for me. The session started. I had my progasm in and I was relaxed on my side listening to the session. That's when it started…the twitching I'd read about. I was breathing with it and there were twitches…just small but still this was a significant moment. It meant that things were beginning to happen. At one point this wave of pleasure just washed through me…wow. It felt like a wave too rolling up my body..i wanted it again and the odd twitch was there. The audio session was coming to the end and strangely my mind was taking it in and things were happening but I did think they were disconnected to the progasm. I was becomming pretty turned on and near the end of the session was experienceing I guess what i'd describe now as an edging feeling…that point a little before you cum but not a full orgasm. For me this was an amazing feeling. I hadn't touched my cock at all and it was still pretty limp but these almost orgasmic feelings were in my body. The session had ended but I just had to listen to it again. I detected twitches from the progasm but I don't think i was really focussing on them enough at that point. The 2nd run of the session ended and again although I was very highly aroused I hadn't experienced a whole series of p waves that I'd have been expecting. Still, it was progress compared to my previous sessions. I took the progasm out and slipped into a relaxing sleep. Then….something weird happened….i was awoken an hour later…wtf was that…..the progasm wasn't inserted but this intense p wave just went through me. I was taken aback but wow, just wow and then it happend again. I wasn't doing anything but another one hit again. What was happening to me..my body just seemed to take control and send these waves through me. I contracted just slightly and another wave hit…yes! I was getting there…another wave…i was lovign the feelings. I just couldn't stop the waves and the night was rapidly disappearing. Eventually I think I did fall asleep but a whole hour before my alarm went off to get up for work. I seemed to be exhausted the next day but I was in a blissfully relaxed mood all day and very chripy. Wow, I needed more, just wow.
I know it's suggested that you have a break inbetween sessions but I couldn't wait to experience these what I now recognised as p-waves again. The next night I was back again with the progasm. I put the simulation session on again and my toy started twitching but i wasn't getting any waves. I could feel it moving ever so slightly but no waves. Hmmm, what was going on? I ended the session and took it out. I didn't masturbate normally for some reason. I was just lying there on my side after the session breathing slowly and relaxed. Hmm i thought, what happens if i make a contraction, so I did. The unexpected happened..contraction then a second or 2 after, p wave! Loving the feeling i went for another contraction and again it happened. I was hooked and yet another sleepless night occurred but I wasn't experiencing this body shattering, shaking super O I'd read about. However it seemed that without the progasm in i was able to experience these p waves. I think it was around this point that I starteed realising that I was using the wrong muscles. I staarted contracting different muscle sets and realised that i was probably just making anal contractions alone and not really involving the pc muscles. I started to concentrate on working this new muscle set. It took a bit but sure enough this is where the pwaves for me were working from without the aneros inserted. My current line of thought is that the progasm was actually just that little too big to get my pc muscles really working and that a smaller model would be more appropriate. I might still go back and buy a smaller model just to see if it provides a different experience, but for now I was just enjoying the p waves. Again sleepless nights occurred as my body took over and uncontrolled pwaves went through me….how could I stop them??? I neeeded to stop but at the same time i didn't want to.
Still nothing what I would describe as a super O though.
I was still trawling through the forums looking for that final piece of the jigsaw. Was there anything there that would take me over the edge. Focus and breathing was the next thing I started working on. I still wasn't getting any great pleasure from having the progasm inserted, so I'd start off using it and get it twitching and then later take it out and just concentrate on the pw aves without it inserted. I decided one eveing that I was going to take it really slow and let things build and focus on any minute sensations that occured. Any tingles I'd try to mentally focus on and enlarge through deep breathing. I was working and the p waves were setting in. It was around this point that I started feeling anal contractions too and also contractions in my stomach muscles. My body was beginning to tense up too. The first anal contraction was amazing..just surged up through my body. I guess this was an anal orgasm? I continued on breathing with my p waves and the feelings grew and grew.
Then it hit…..bang across my whole body…..I hit this new plateau of pleasure I'd never felt before. It didn't subside like a p wave and went on for a few mins. My whole body was rigid and tense with this pleasure rolling around me, precum oozing out. No shaking though like i'd seen in some videos but then again i read that it's diferent in everyone… but yeah I think I just had a super O, my first one. I don't think it was major but it was definately different from a p wave. Pretty exhausted after this I tried to get to that point again but couldn't manage it. I settled down that night in knowledge that I'd come a pretty long way in quite a short time…weeks infact when i'd been expecting months or nothing at all.
I tried again I think the next night but I had consumed a few glasses of wine too many and I have come to the realisation that this numbs the sensation. You do need to be mentally able to focus. The pwaves came but nothing else.

A new train of thought

So the blue toy was back in my bag. Waste of money I thought and I left it for a couple of weeks. But somewhere in the back of my mind the thought of this mystical super O was still there. I really wanted it. It was at this point I started delving deep into the Aneros forums and indeed for any new member like myself I can't but recommend reading as much as you can. These forums are simply a superb resource and full of information. I really wanted to make this blue toy work for me and work with me. I started to realise that my technique was wrong and I was probably using the wrong muscles. I'd read up on relaxation and using the right lubes too. The hypnAerosession intrigued me also. I'd practiced a bit of self hypnosis many years ago when i'd had trouble sleeping and needed to relax. I'd found that i was able to fall into a trance like state and that it emptied my mind of thoughts and just relaxed me. As I knew that i was able to do this I downloaded the session and stuck it on my phone to listed to that evening when I had a free house to chill out a bit. At this point I was still using a liberal amount of lube. Happened to be liquid silk which was all I had to hand at the time without producing a batch of Jlube which is what I use for larger toy play. I read about maximus so ordered a bottle of that too. So lubed up and Alana on I setttled in for some relaxation and hopefully some new sensations. For a gay guy though, listening to Alana is a little weird. She's seductive for sure but I'm really not interested in her breasts…no offence intended, i'm sure they're lovely ;-(…however, the session itself was working in terms of relaxation. I really was sliding deeper. It came to the point in the session though where i needed to start contracting so I did. But yet again nothing really was happening. I was lying there on my back in a deeply relaxed and fairly aroused state but where were these p-waves i'd read about. I was contracting, holding and relaxing..trying to do what she was saying but nothing was happening. Again, frustration yeilded…i pulled my headphones out and just went for a traditional wank. By this point i'd usually have pulled the progasm out but i left it in this time. I was yanking away but this time it felt different…the feelings were much stronger and felt so much better. I ejaculated and wow, that was simply the best orgasm I'd had in a long time. It was at this point that I realised that something was different, something had changed or I was allowing something to happen. It was these first signs that gave me some hope that actually I might be able to get this thing to work. I was now determined to take my body to a new level. I'd read that this could take some time…weeks, months or even years so I started thinking that this will be a journey and I'll give it a chance. However, progress would come quicker than I could have imagined.

What to choose, where do I start….disappointment looms.

So I wanted to test the waters so I decided to get one…but which one. My fetish for slightly larger toys led me to the progasm. The size wasn't an issue I thought so went for it in the blue. At this point I'm still doubting that this was the correct one to go for…I'll explain further later. I ordered from a UK online shop and the anticipation grew waiting for my new delivery. Sure enough the next day it arrived….wow…I'm impressed. Sex toys I'd purchased before arrived usually in a plastic package or a bag but this was different. It kind of reminded me how Apple works with its products. I love the way Apple packages its products and in the sex toy world this Aneros product was great. I opened up the box and there it was before me…the progasm…and shit, wow…yeah that does look quite big. I sat there wondering how this was going to work its way around my anus. But it looked beautifully crafted. I couldn't wait to try and was home alone. I think at this point I'd really not read much into it and the urge to try it meant I didn't read the instructions as well as I should have. I was in a horny frame of mind so whacked on some lube and shoved it in. Getting it in for me was easy. I'd been playing with much larger diameter toys and it slipped in pretty easy and within seconds it was comfortably inside me. So i'm lying there…what now I ask myself? Err the instructions say squeeze so I did. I did this a few times….absolutely nothing. I must have laid there for about 30 mins just squeezing and nothing is happening. My prostate is dead I though. I knew it! It just wasn't designed to give me this extrememe pleasure. Have I just wasted my money on this plastic toy. Disappointed I removed it and just watched some porn and masturbated as normal. Another day maybe and put my progasm back into my toy bag. Maybe this toy is just not for me….or is it?!?!?! ;-(

My first ramblings

On the exterior I'm straight laced, professional but internally and sexually omg i'm a different person. As a gay guy I love finding new things sexually to explore. Previously I'd soley considered myself a top and any anal play for me just didn't bring any pleasure at all. Maybe I just wan't allowing myself that chance to experience things. Recently I've let myself open up and started playing with regular sex toys and let guys penetrate me. I still didn't really get much pleasure but kept at it. Fetishes started creeping in though and I read various websites about toy play and electrosex. Electro really appealed to me and I really loved it and I think this is where my anal enjoyment started to begin. With an anal probe I started getting pleasurable feelings in that area which i'd not experience before and was keen to expand my horizons. However, when it came to my prostate I thought it was dead…my toys came into contact with it but nothing really seemed to happen. I fingered it..it just caused discomfort and no real enjoyment but still I was keen to expand my horizons and experience different feelings. I came across some blogs on the internet about these aneros toys. I saw them on various sex shop sites whilst buying other toys and started reading testimonials. Nah, they wont work on me I told myself looking at them and ignored them. Then one day I started looking into them more. I stumbled across this site and the forums, the chat entries and "Super O's"….the thought of pleasure surging through my entire body was an instant turn on. I wanted to experience this too…this where it all began…..