Author: JD05

Still on the Journey

Hey everyone,
I'm still on the Journey and only a few minor things to report.

Firstly, I have sessions nearly everyday but the weekends are a family bust- which makes the Monday or Tuesday a little special.

Secondly, I continue to not obtain the erection and the mental excitement is less fantasy and more direct visual (eg searching for the right porn) which is a distraction but fun too since I can tie p-waves directly with the right visual.

Thirdly, have had several HFWOs – running probably 10% but seem to be more frequent- about 1/2 of those generate an actual moan of pleasure and the distinct feeling of ejaculation from my penis tip is amazing- and a mix of amazing pleasure and disappointment that its wet (but hey! Still HF). I try to limit my hip thrusting which brings on the HFWO along with nip stim, and move internally.

Most importantly, there is progress as the buildup of sensations is within a few minutes vs the previous normal of about 40.

I really look forward to my sessions and try not to super-T but once or twice a week.

Happy hunting!

Steady progress / Lube Observations

Making consistent steady progress its seems – can work the pleasure up within minutes and with nipple stim plus thrusting/rocking, can ride the mini-Os within 30-45 min consistently. I am treating this like a milestone since I can sense more can come with more time and practice. Usually finishing off with a super-T but the occasional hand-free wet-O happens )probably due to nipple stim?(.

Switching from a medium/light store purchased to a powder Cobeco solution later this week. I have definitely noticed the thicker lubes feel better, ride better and last much longer. So with the powder, I can mix to my desired thickness.

Happy hunting.

Another positive evening

really pleased with tonight- was able to generate mini-os quicker and again probably 6 or so. They were also more intense and could definitely feel something much bigger was lurking with moments of increased body heat and definite pulse spikes. But alas, the super-o wasnt to be. Although I had a mini-o that had me thrashing for a moment but didnt experience the loss of control.

Seems my Journey has starting to clear the forest.

Progress- mini-Os

have been traveling the Journey for a while now and this week am alone, so I treated myself to a new Progasm Jr.

Had some good p-waves immediately with it but then was interrupted. Returned after soaking in a hot bath and some porn. I continue to break my no-porn rule… Seems the only way I can help distract the mind.

After the bath, back to PJr and went for a seriously long ride.
On left side, knees together, bent as in a chair generated some great p-waves again but flipped to right side after a couple hours, same position.

The PJr seems to fit me well- can control it for various movements. Found a really good porn clip as my p-waves were hovering, and then concentrated on making a 'come hither'/g-spot movement on the prostate. Slowed my thrusting even further to just below a subtle rocking… Let it build and enjoyed 5 or 6 mini-Os over probably 3/4 hour.

Wanted to see what the eupho would do for me, so swapped and flipped back to left side and almost had another mini. Swapped back, flipped back but could not regain and was very tired. Finished with a whopper of a super-T.

The minis were dry and great. It was nice to ride without the recovery from a normal O.

All in, pleased with the session and satiated for a while – until tomorrow probably!

Right path? Wet orgasm, no touch

So, 2nd time cumming wet without touching the cock… Am I on the right path? It seems to me as part of the rewiring process to cum without an erection or touching, albeit not dry, must be a good sign? Could have probably gone again but time was an issue.

Any thoughts?

Interesting progress

had my first non-erect orgasm with cum today.

Had some time, heavy thrusting and working it up.
Pretty certain the cum came from stimulation caused by my cock bouncing against my inner thigh )was on side, both knees up at right angle(.

But think its important since the cock stay soft. Wasn't actually certain it was all cum- was more runny and clearer than normal but thicker than precum.

Happy hunting!

Weed

tried weed last night- two good puffs. Has been years and it was strong.

Jumped in a hot bath, watched some porn, then out for my session with Kelly Howell's ecstasy on. Definitely immediate and powerful session. Lots of involuntariness, i thunk a mini-o or two. And and overwhelming sense of how deep and good it could feel.

The weed allowed a free-floating clutter-less mind interestingly and a deeper sense of relaxation. But typical of weed, questioning the fleeting past moment's actions led to questioning if "that" just happened and/or did I do that or was it involuntary. However, that became the fun and the game to see how deep and wonderful it could feel. I topped up about 3 hours in and couldn't regain where I was so went on to a super T. I did sleep with it in and nothing to report.

Now I question if its worth the artificial stimulant- short circuiting the re-wiring process- or should I not try any more weed and go back to 'normal'.

Fun times on this journey!

Continuing Journey… starting to make sense

Hit a milestone today and unfortunately had to cut the session short…

I now understand several things…

1( definitely mental… worrying about your porn is a huge distraction. Instead of porn, find a long tease video or webcam instead.

2( anal quivers… the very slight pokes of electricity that come and go are NOT what is meant… although these are awesome and a sign of warming up, the quivers are slightly more subtle are are consistent.

3( breathe into it… as you tense up, relax, breathe and let the contraction loosen. Try to hang onto the sensation – replacing your tension with a deep diaphragm breath or two

4( be confident in the boomerang effect – review @Crimsonwolf's )THANK YOU!( forum posts – and relax with confidence that the boomerang will come back!

Dream O?

Was sleeping last night )A-less( and all of a sudden wham with anal spasms and all. Woke me right awake, heart pounding, wondering if I physically spasmed or moaned and very curious if I woke y wife…

deathly silence… except for my heart racing…
and now my mind all confused – was that a dream? or was that real?