I cannot for the life of me find my prostate

At this point I’m convinced that I was born without it or something.

I have literally tried everything I can think of for years: I started with fingers, then dildos, then Aneros, then vibrating toys, then even poppers, but literally nothing works.

I don’t understand how you guys are able to have these mind-blowing orgasms with just the tiniest toys, when I bought a several-hundred-dollar Lelo Hugo, and I can’t even feel any pleasure. When I go in with my fingers to try to stimulate it, I don’t even think I’ve even ever found it. I feel like there was just some elaborate conspiracy at my birth for removing it or something.

My question is to you guys, what do I do? I’ve been patient, I’ve poured a nice sum of money into this stuff, I’ve tried so much stuff for years. Do I just give up, or do I keep looking for other things? Is there a toy or method that I haven’t tried that you guys recommend? What do you guys suggest I do when the Hugo or the Aneros is in there? Sit there and do nothing, or kegel? The more detailed, the better.

I just feel like I’ve been trying for years on this and have wasted a bunch of money for not even the slightest wave of pleasure. I’m really just taking any bit of advice from you guys.

Thanks.