One step forward, dozens of steps back

Writing this mostly to vent really, and also for help and advice. I go into some gross details so read at your peril. Hopefully the nice people here can pick out the problems or what I’m doing wrong.

To keep it short, I have been using my Trident on and off over the past 12 months for little to no results. My sessions often have days to months in between due to lack of motivation or not wanting to commit the large time investment to it, but as of recent I’ve been going at it more and more. I have only had one truly pleasurable session, but that was so far in the past now that it might as well have not happened.

I’ll section my process and shortcomings to make it easier to write out.

**Preparation:**

Currently I try to make time for a session after returning from the gym (I treadmill daily) and showering. I make sure to have a bowel movement 30-60 min before I douche with warm tap water using a rather large bulb I bought for the job. I used to fill this bulb as much as I could before douching which was a very big mistake. I would have an unpleasurable session, then find out when removing the Trident that I had residual poo water inside me. It was as gross and messy as it sounds. I figured that out, then started filling the bulb with very little water which ultimately stopped that from happening. Trident removal is now very clean aside from some lube.