Author: RSilva

Why are my dry orgasms so rare?

I think my blog posts are gone but it doesn’t matter 🙂
I’m 32 year old from Portugal with very little sexual experience (just been with other men occasionally and curious to be with a women but in general much less interested in women).

In super resume I’ve had aneros for 8 years now and I’ve got dry os but very rare, and never got a super o.
Some sessions I had in the last week kinda exemplify what I was able to get with aneros and how I think I have much to evolve.

In general my aneros sessions are pretty uneventful.
They generally take 3-4 hours (I use do nothing), and I can get some background pleasure but it generally don’t evolve much.

It’s extremely common however for me to quickly (especially if I just take a quick look at porn or just sexual images) start having some rhythmic movements of the aneros and my dick, because it’s hard when this happens. There rhythmic pulses are pleasant but I won’t call them pleasurable, because they’re just “nice” and nothing special.
Like I said this is extremely easy to get, but also they do pretty much nothing. Read more »

Low Testosterone Again and Considering Circumcision

My aneros sessions keep being bad.
I got my aneros sessions keep being bad.
I got my new blood checks and again my testosterone is below what is normal for men above 60+, and I’m 31.
Prolactine is also above limit and FSH is a bit below the normal level.
With this it is probably not surprising that I keep having no sexual desire and I think this is one of the reasons my aneros sessions are always devoid of fun. In the past they were a bit better, the good ones were rare but they happened.
Last time I went to the endocrinologist my second hormone check was good so they sent me away with no treatment or something.
This time I hope they give me something, it’s 2-1 now in favour of low testosterone.

Another thing is about my premature ejaculation.
As you know this is the major factor in my depression and it just poisons everything in me.
I can’t bear with it, it’s a constant pain and frustration.
So I’ve been considering if I should do a circumcision.
I know it’s not the usual PE treatment but I am in despair and honestly I have nothing to lose as right now I can’t have a satisfying sexual life.y new blood checks and again my testosterone is below what is normal for men above 60+, and I’m 31.
Prolactine is also above limit and FSH is a bit below the normal level.
With this it is probably not surprising that I keep having no sexual desire and I think this is one of the reasons my aneros sessions are always devoid of fun. In the past they were a bit better, the good ones were rare but they happened.
Last time I went to the endocrinologist my second hormone check was good so they sent me away with no treatment or something.
This time I hope they give me something, it’s 2-1 now in favour of low testosterone. Read more »

Another HFWO – my enemy can’t leave me

Well my sessions don’t improve, and worse than that it’s so incredibly rare to have a good session. And when things are interesting 95% of the time I end up having a HFWO.
In fact I feel this is related to my premature ejaculation. And that’s like 90% of my depressed mood, it’s just so frustrating and aneros ends up being just another colateral damage.
This affects me so much I’m gonna post another message here I wrote in another forum, as I’m getting really desperate as I feel no way out of this nightmare:

“Well, where to start.
I’m 30 and I have always had premature ejaculation.
I’m 1,73 m high (5ft 8in) and 100 kg (220 lb).
When I was a teen I didn’t care much about it because my mindset was “when I grow older this will improve”.
So time went on and on and on… and nothing changed.
In the last 5/10 years I’m been burning inside with all this, I’ve sought plenty of help (including professional) but nothing ever helped.
I’m reaching that point where I’m starting to get desperate.
I feel so hurt inside, and it is getting worse.

So details.
Like I said this always happened, but I didn’t care much of it when I was a teen.
I’ve always been a very introvert, calm, person, and another (un)related thing is that I’ve never loved anyone.
Yes, I’ve never felt any kind of crush or anything of that. It’s totally alien to me.
I didn’t care of it when I was younger but now it’s another thing that is hurting me. Read more »

Strong dry orgasms feel good

In the last week I’ve had somewhat successful sessions where I reach weak dry orgasms.
I generally don’t always reach dry-os and to me it is the thing that makes a session good.
Being in a almost orgasming plateau without reaching orgasm is very frustrating to me.
Yes, it is pleasure but it is not satisfying and my body wants the orgasm thing so if it takes too long I become frustrated.

Seeing that my body was aroused from these sessions and that it was likely I would reach dry orgasms again, I decided to record a session.
The first part of the session is in this link: http://www.xtube.com/video-watch/Aneros-Session-2-Multiple-Male-Orgasms-MMO-Part-1-2-30549581
I tried to upload the second part but for now it has some kind of problem so I’ll update to put here the second part when it is available.

In this video my best reaction to Aneros can be seen, in this case I used the Maximus model.
I don’t flip, shake nor do crazy things, and aneros almost doesnt move.

I like the do nothing method as I want to be surprised and I feel it’s the most comfortable way.
In this session in the previous 2 hours nothing happened.
Nothing means I only felt the general pleasure of the aneros in my prostate.
About 20 minutes before the first orgasm I start feeling something building.
This isn’t a guarantee that I will reach orgasm as many times I feel this and nothing happens. Read more »

An example of the best session I can achieve (yet)

Yesterday I had one of those sessions I can describe as the best aneros sessions I can get (at least right now).

It isn’t mind blowing but it’s really good, I hope in the future it gets better and better, but specially faster to reach the good part.

I’ve already talked about really low sexual desire. Maybe that’s one of the main problems I have: get things started.
I can feel the aneros touching my prostate from minute 1, some years ago I got an hard on immediately, today I sort of still get a minor reaction.

But for things to reach the really good parts, I need time. And by time I mean hours and hours.

In the morning I had a 2 hour session with Eupho just to experiment. Lately I’ve been using Progasm Ice and have some nice sensations, I think its stronger contact on the prostate may help bypass my low sexual drive and arousal.
In the week before when I had a session I used Progasm Ice so I wanted to see if Eupho’s movement would give me something different (and better).

It didn’t, all I got was the nice but not spectacular general feeling of being pleased.
I always use a bit of porn at the beginning to wake up my dead prostate, and it works.
From my previous experiences nipples are dangerous as many times they lead me to hands free wet orgasms. Read more »

The unavoidable ejaculation

My sex drive keeps being as low as ever. With a possible change starting only in September things keep dragging.

Most of my sessions end in nothing.
When I have a lot of time sometimes I can get to somewhere.
In the last productive sessions I ended up with another old friend, the unavoidable hfwo that ruins my sessions.

In the first session it came out of nowhere, and it was fast.
I had just inserted Aneros and I was viewing some porn to get some arousal.
I was like 30 mins in with nothing special then suddenly I feel the orgasm coming, with no previous warning.
It went from nothing to ejaculation, and the weird is that I had only the background pleasurable feelings before it came sudenly.
I’ve never experienced this before (the sudden out of nowhere ejaculation/orgasm).

In the second session as usual it took some hours until I felt something.
I was getting the feelings of general pleasure and I was relaxing and letting it continue, always with the do nothing approach.
Sometimes I fell asleep and kept waking up, the session contnued and eventually it reached a part where I started to feel more pleasure and, as also common for me, eventually it was too much and it triggered the ejaculation.

My third session was long but nothing special happened. I was again in the plateau and nothing happened for hours. Read more »

The Plateau again – how to kickstart something else?

Yesterday I had another session, a long one, and this time I tried to use Mgx.

It resulted in the same pattern I have when I can feel something else than “blackground pleasure”.

And what it is? The plateau.
For 2 hours or so I was in a state of relaxed pleasure, more than background pleasure, but not having amazing pleasure.
What’s frustrating is that when I get to that state I feel that I’m close to something great, but never get there.

My prostate barely moves, and I think my body needs somehow how to spark the prostate into having involuntary contractions in this stage.
I prefer to do nothing and wait – nipples don’t lead to the right place, and I want to be “surprised” by pleasure, I want it to come to me.

During this time sometimes I feel a little more pleasure and my penis can go semi-hard or hard. Sometimes I can feel a faint pleasure pulse in the prostate, but it fades and goes nowhere.

It’s frustrating because I “know” if the prostate starts spasming by itself at this stage it will be wonderful. It’s the feeling of being so close but unable to reach it.

How can I, doing nothing, teach my prostate to have involuntary movements and trigger “real” sexual pleasure?

The Plateau – There and not further

In the last weeks my doctor changed my anafranil dose to half, which could kick something in my sexual drive.
I’ve tried having some sessions meanwhile with progasm ice, progasm jr, helix syn and maximus but nothing come out of it.

The problem is that I need a long time for things to start and generally I fall asleep during the session.

Yesterday I decided to try eupho. My prostate is kinda dead and recently I’ve been trying to have more contact with it to trigger something. In the last days I’ve tried something else, getting more movement with helix syn and eupho.

As most of my sessions in the last years, I don’t have much hope that a session will be good. Anyway, I keep trying. My sexual drive is extremely low and I wonder when will I be able to have a proper sex drive to help me in the aneros way.

So after inserting eupho I watched some porn, in this case the xtude Aneros MMO video of that guy with helix syn where he explains through the session what he was feeling. I really like this video and I like the slow session that I can watch for almost an hour. Read more »

Was that something?

Today in the short session I had I felt something different. Well, not a different feeling, but one with a different outcome.

Generally I use my nipples when I’m frustratred and get nothing from sessions, as nipples make my prostate move. Problem is I eventually ejaculate.

Today I had not time nor privacy enough for a proper session so I I tried to try a bit of helix syn. As usual, I felt nothing for half an hour, so I went back to Prograsm Ice, which has a stronger contact with the prostate, and in my current situation (low testosterone, depression drugs etc) that’s my best bet to make my prostate feel something.

I was very limited in time so I went with nipple stimulation to al least feel some pleasure.

Using my nipples eventually make me ejaculate, but before the ejaculation phase I feel some subtle pulsing in my prostate and cock which I think are similar to the ejaculatory reflex. They feel good but when I’m on them I’m generally in the slippery rope of falling in the ponr of ejaculatory orgasm.

So today I felt those isolated subtle movements, but today for 2 pulses I felt them much clearer. I felt my prostate being really touched by the aneros, when generally it’s much harder to tell. So I was surprised by how strong the prostate was being contacted. I didn’t feel any special pleasure, just a clearer feeling of the prostate being “hit”. Read more »

The Obstacles in my Path (2013-present)

I’m very frustrated because I was writing a big post and suddenly the site refreshed somehow and I lost everything I wrote. So I’ll be very short now, I’m sorry.

– While having sessions I end up in a point where I feel very tense and I feel some kind of urge. Problem is that I end up ejaculating.
– Nipples have a noticeable impact in my prostate, but if I keep using them I end up ejaculating. I have premature ejaculation, is my ejaculation button preventing me from having real dry orgasms?

– Some years ago I started getting followed by psychiatrists and psychologists because of depression. So I ended up getting meds. Right now I’m taking clonazepam, bupropion and clomipramine. Can this have an impact and explay why nowadays it’s almost impossible to feel anything? Surely, but how much?

– This year my testosterone level was found to be below normal. It wasn’t in previous years. In December I’ll have an appointment and I hope I can get some solution for this.
– Sexually I am an extremely depressed and frustrated. I don’t have erections just by though, it takes time to get real hard and when that happens I’m seconds from ejaculation. In short, sexually I am a complete failure. This is one of the things that contributes the most to my depression as I feel a lesser man. Profissional help so far led me nowhere, which frustrates me even more. Yes I’ve taken levitra, viagra, cialis and prilligy and they aren’t a solution to my problems. Read more »