Author: SaddleUp

Spa Day

Today was a Spa Day. My wife was going shopping, and I enjoyed a big part of the day during which I was alone and could enjoy myself. I began with a tiny puff of herb, then followed with a quick shower. I closed off the bedroom and turned on a small heater to let things warm up a bit.

It wasn’t long before I was ready for my first session with the Helix Syn in several weeks. I’d done some Anerosless sessions and a Peridise session, but otherwise, I hadn’t had much in the way of opportunities.

My sessions tend to be fairly short, a half hour to 45 minutes. But when I can have a Spa Day, I usually stop, rest, have some tea or a bath, then have a second session a bit later. So it literally becomes several hours of pleasure.

It was a bit tight getting the Helix Syn in, though I’d lubed pretty liberally. Once in, though, it went wild. I began with some very light nipple touches. I just graze my thumbs over them, then wait for the echoes and waves, wait, then do it again. Very quickly I began having small orgasms, and they became bigger and more powerful. Some seemed to rival the biggest I’ve ever had, and then they began running together. I told myself to relax and enjoy this, I give myself permission to have this pleasure. Read more »

Spring 2012 – Fully Immersed

As Spring came on this year my wife was required to be away from home for a few weeks. We hate to be apart, and I dreaded it. But I also know that I make my best progress with Aneros play when I have privacy. For me, knowing that there is no one around gives me the freedom to really shout and moan and reach further into my fantasies, to say what I want from my imaginary lover.

Several things really accelerated my experiences at this time. First, I ordered the "Hypoaerosession" CD downloads. My first session using this turned out to be my best, and gave me new concepts to think about. These concepts are, first, security: I articulate that I am safe to do this and that it is good. Second, I think about "what it is that I want." "What do you want? What do you want?" Answering this question always pushes me into greater arousal.

Around the same time, I purchased the Helix Syn. I really like getting my perineum pounded, but now find that I like the more subtle tickling of the P-tab on the Helix Syn. And it seems to me to be a warmer, softer f**k inside me.

Everything seemed to come together for me. I was becoming aware of some great variables to play around with: cannabis, hypnotic music, position, which toy, relaxation, KSMO techniques, and fantasy/visualization. Read more »

Silk

I have been writing several installments to this blog which provides some of my history. But now, I want to jump into the present.

Today, my wife had a job interview. I wished her love and luck and she was on her way, and I decided to have a short Aneros-less session, using iDoser. I set up a 15-minute dose of "Green". It was our first cold morning of the year today, and I was already wearing a super lightweight silk longsleeve shirt for warmth. I slipped on a silk thong. Then I lay on my back, knees up, just like I do in my Aneros sessions. Within seconds I had a contraction in my perineum. Through the silk I gently made light circles around the outside of my nipples. Then I ran my hand across my stomach. I began incorporating vocalizations and humming, and some of the things I've learned from practicing KSMO techniques.

Normally I do my sessions naked, and this was my first time stroking my nipples through cloth, particularly silk. I've often used baby powder or KY Warming Gel on nipples, and this was one of the things that really accelerated my rewiring.

My first touches telegraphed straight from my nipples to my prostate. When I do this, it feels almost like an electrical jolt about an inch deeper than my perineum, with additional low-toned vibrations which spread through my pelvis, especially into my penis bulb, balls and ass. Those vibrations remind me of the touch of a bow on a cello string. The string is big, thick, and the low, scratchy but mellow vibration instills whatever is in its path. Read more »

Winter 2011 – More Learning

As the dry orgasms got more familiar, I developed the ability to relax more during them, and thus to focus on the sensations. Then I began to be able to distinguish more nuances within the feeling. What initially I felt as a rather blunt pleasure became more and more exquisite as I was able to feel as different kinds of contractions in different specific areas.

Now I believe that there are pleasures happening almost everywhere in my body — in my prostate, in my anal area, in my stomach, in my nipples – all at the same time. The fun is in focusing on how that body-wide pleasure manifests itself at different points.

I continued combing the forums for more information, and realized that it was because of trying to confirm my expectations about what I should be feeling. My expectations did blind me for a while from realizing what was happening to me!

There was a time when I wondered, "is it possible that there is no such thing as a Super-O?" And when writers to the forum questioned its very existence, there were quick responses from the more experienced members that one needed to reconsider his expectations. I think I misunderstood this statement! It did not mean that I should *lower* my expectations. To me, it meant I had to understand that I was having these Super-O type experiences, but not focusing and relaxing enough to feel all that it was offering me. Read more »

Fall 2011 – Early learning

After receiving my MGX in September 2011, I began doing regular sessions, twice a week, of about 20-30 minutes each. Initially, I found the feelings uncomfortable. The fullness was unfamiliar to me, and I had a few cramps. It was very difficult for me to get comfortable, to relax. But I did press on, convinced there was something to the concept of separating ejaculation and orgasm, but also in part because I believed it to be good for my prostate.

As the months rolled by, I continued my regular sessions. I began watching porn, and enjoyed the build-up of arousal. I began ending all of my sessions by masturbating to ejaculation. That felt good, and I slowly began having an expectation of an enjoyable solo sex session whenever I used my MGX.

I read the through the archived forums with fervor. As I read through thousands of postings by the Aneros community, I learned and tried new things. I read CaveOfMystery's "Quick and Dirty Path to the Super-O," and began exercising my PC and sphincter muscles daily. I would do Kegels while sitting at my desk at work.

These exercises soon yielded results: I began having tingling sensations. I enjoyed my work more than ever!

By December 2011 I had tried smoking a tiny bit of cannabis during a session. I also played music by "Liquid Mind" or other ambient or hypnotic artists. The combination was excellent, and I began having contractions and pleasure waves on a regular basis. I had fewer and fewer "dud" sessions. Read more »

Retrospective on One Year Anniversary

I'm just finishing my first year with Aneros toys and other dry- and multiple-orgasm explorations, and what a fabulous year it's been. I started as a complete skeptic at age 54. Now I'm more than just a believer. I now have access to so much pleasure, so much enjoyment, and a whole new frame of mind. I've learned much about how my mind works in the process. I think it is fair to say that I have had great success with these methods, incorporating Aneros, KSMO sessions, amygdala tickling/clicking, music, binaural beats, cannabis, nipple play, stomach rubbing.

My goal today is just to establish this blog, get something down in black & white, so that I have a place to explain my journey thus far. As I organize my thoughts offline, I'm hoping to go through some of the steps I've gone through, and especially focus on some of the many things which have helped me along the way. Perhaps the most important piece of the puzzle has been allowing myself to open up even more to many new types of sexual fantasy, which has greatly increased my arousal level. Raw desire and arousal are the drivers of this process, I believe. The other techniques are here to enhance that arousal, to drive the desire to greater heights.

My greatest joy is that my wife is now becoming a greater partner for me in this journey, and her arousal is getting stronger after a difficult time for her over the past year. Read more »