Author: simplepenguin

third session, beginnings of real feelings and excitement

So my wife so nicely edged me last night for about an hour, first with conscious stimulation for 10 minutes, letting me show her how to do it with my penis, testicles, nipples and all of that good stuff. Then she edged me for another 45 minutes more “casually”.

Then I went upstairs and inserted the toy, very easy and no muss or fuss.

This time I started to feel my prostate and had the beginnings of orgasmic sensation in nipples and prostate.

I was a little apprehensive as this is my third day in a row, but it seems fine and I am continuing to feel and experience more.

I have realized I can focus more easily on sensation to feel aroused, instead of fantasy. And fantasy can just be thinking of my wife edging me, or about her butt for instance, not about doing anything.

I did feel a bit of discomfort in my descending colon. Eventually I ended the session, feeling more aroused and horny, and I edge a bit more proficiently, stopping at the PONR just to have a ruined orgasm and ejaculate a fairly small amount to regain my erection quality. I remain today (next day) very much aroused all day so far, and feeling incredible, and my wife and I had a nice edging cuddly session today. This is fantasticQ

first session and agreement with my wife

In my teen years I masturbated to porn so often, 16 being my record as far as I remember. Sometimes I’d get into the shower and stick a finger up my butt and massage my prostate while I masturbated my penis. That’s the extent of my butt play.

Today, I’m in my early 60s and I had continued to masturbate every day, sometimes twice a day, and I was a compulsive porn user.

But I stopped both masturbation and porn about 8 years ago as I adopted “Tantric” sex with my wife and we were having sex 4 times a week, and I’d cum maybe once in 10 days, inside her mostly.

The tantric sex was good because unlike my best friend and many others my age, we had a lot of sex and I could focus on my perineum relaxation and bring sexual energy into my whole body and have basically half hour whole body Os of a type.

And I see my wife as mega attractive and the greatest woman in the world, which she is, but I really see her that way.

Except after I have ejaculated and then it’s usually depression, loss of feeling in my penis, and loss of interest in my wife.

I have recently realized that “edging” during sex results in fallout that makes an ejaculation necessary, and creates ED if I don’t have an ejaculation. Read more »

First real session and trying to get arousal without expectations

Last time, my first session, I inserted the toy wrong. This time I oriented it correctly and everything went much easier. I think my rectum is getting benefit from this practice, actually, rather than hurting in any way.

I had been edged by my wife, and hoped this arousal would spill over into the session but I’m not sure it did.

I tried on my stomach, on my sides, on my back. It was difficult to feel much and my focus was feeling something and actually I was able to rock and feel what may have been a prostate massage of some kind and it was extremely pleasurable. At one point my legs were shaking. I just calmed down and tried some more movement, contractions of the rectal muscle, PC muscle (I am not able to tell them apart and contract them pretty much separately), and nothing at all.

I tried some fantasy to get my arousal up, thinking of my wife in various scenarios, and I suppose that helped build my arousal. After about an hour it was time to stop and go to sleep.

Next morning I had intercourse with my wife and haven’t had good erections (or any erections) for a few days. It may be supplements I’m taking but more than likely it’s just being fired up about sex and what I’ve been reading, kind of exactly how porn affects me, so today I’m backing off on that. Read more »