Author: smudgefish

Still not working

I have been doing a lot of thinking having had no breakthrough yesterday. I tried plenty of times to orgasm but nothing happened, I even slept with the aneros in and felt good. There was one orgasm type event that was nice, but totally pleasure free )I have had one of those before(, and I just couldn’t relax into it. Two days ago I was going into orgasm within minutes of trying. I didn’t sleep again last night due to frustration and kept trying although I knew that I should just give up it was so tempting.
I am now exhausted after spending one night with powerful orgasms ripping through me one minute, in total calm ecstasy the next, and one night in total frustration with a few hours sleep in between.

I’m also very uncomfortable with a constant pelvic pressure bordering on pain and a tense fluttering in my lower abdomen. I have previously interpreted this as being tension building up needing an orgasm to release it, and in fact in previous days that is what has happened it felt much better after an orgasm.
I now realise that this pressure is pure nervous and sexual tension, if I try hard to relax it goes away, but then starts coming back. This is a serious barrier to having any more orgasms. I’m sleep deprived and uncomfortable so it’s just not going to work. It’s like being in continuous sexual tension without any chance of relief. I did try masturbating normally but it doesn’t go away. Read more »

Now it's not working

I though I had got this all worked out yesterday. My expectations were high that I could now orgasm at will and I expected to be able to have another mind blowing experience tonight.
I can get to the edge of orgasm easily now but just cannot cross over, it's driving me mad it was so easy last night. Maybe I am just too exhausted from last night or stressed from work but it' just not working. I've been so close for so long it's starting to hurt and I can feel an orgasm ready to explode but it won't and I am desperate – probably not the right frame of mind really.
I know the answer I need to have a normal ejaculation to get some relief and forget super Os tonight or I will drive myself mad. I know I can do it. Maybe my body is telling me just not now.

It's working!

One my wife went to bed last night I easily managed to go into another orgasm, again sitting at my computer. I have worked out exactly where I need to focus to bring on my orgasm – along the underside of my penis and I can amplify this quite quickly now to the point where I can orgasm easily.
This orgasm rapidly became INTENSE! It felt like I had gone up a gear. The orgasmic waves felt more powerful than I have ever had before, in fact I really did wonder if I could take it, and my prostate was contracting so hard it felt sore )not too unpleasant(. After a few minutes of this I had to stop and rest. Read more »

Another day

Woke at 4am feeling a bit turned on. Tried for an orgasm, couldn't do it and fell back to sleep. Woke at 7.30 again and started to let sensations build, again without the aneros. At last I broke through and enjoyed a wonderful pulsing orgasm gripping my pelvis with each wave. I tried my hardest to relax and enjoy it and let it take me. I have real trouble relaxing when in an orgasm I think it's the next thing I have to learn. This time was better than last night but it did fizzle out after only about 10 minutes.
I really feel that I need to practice meditation and learn how to fully relax, I know that there is more pleasure lying in wait for me and I am blocked somewhere.

Some pain today

Kept getting the feeling I wanted to orgasm whilst sitting at the computer today. Managed to have an orgasm sitting at my chair which without the aneros. It was an awkward position trying to control my legs but it felt good, even had my wife look in through the door and ask me a question and I managed to bring the orgasm back straight after.
A bit later after the first orgasm subsided I kept trying again after this but got nowhere.
I was feeling a bit frustrated and told the family I was going for a lie down in the afternoon, inserted the aneros, and had another orgasm lasting about 30 minutes. This one felt really good. I went through several different types of orgasm, at one point I had pure pleasure extending into my legs and up into my back and I never wanted it to end.
I think I might have overdone it, particularly straining to have an orgasm in the morning. By early evening I had severe pain in my testicles and lower abdomen which got worse and worse. I had suffered 'blue balls' a few times in the past and soon realised this felt just the same. I ejaculated and it didn't stop which got me a bit worried but within the next hour the pain had totally settled which was a relief. Perhaps others should be aware of this happening – it really is painful and if you don't know what it is it could be very worrying. Read more »

Exploring further

Woke up and had another aneros free orgasm, didn't last long, nothing special this time although having said that it was as mind blowing as every one I have had so far.
Sitting at the computer I managed to have yet another )again without the aneros( which lasted about 15 minutes.

I keep getting all sorts of tingling sensations around my body now, and quite often I suddnely feel as if I am going to orgasm without any warning. I had a small one whilst standing in the kitchen unpacking the shopping. Couldn't let it go very far though as my wife was talking to me at the time.

I took my eldest child to a gymastics competions and thought why don't I try getting an orgasm somewhere else in my body and managed a lower abdominal orgasm. I had to work hard to stop it spreading to my prostate as I could have easily had a full blown prostate orgasm. As I was sitting in a row of other parents I had to stay totally relaxed and just enjoy the sensation and really control it. It wasn't as intense as a prostate orgasm but it was a new experience and something I am going to experiment with.
Shortly after the abdominal orgasm settled I suddenly noticed a tingling in my mouth. By adjusting my breathing I managed to amplify it slightly, I wonder if it's possible to have a mouth orgasm? I think almost anything is possible now.

Beginnings

I had thought about getting one of these devices for years after reading about them and eventually took the plunge. My first session was disappointing, I expected too much too fast, the second was similar and I put it aside for a week having achieved nothing more than a slightly interesting feeling.
My breakthrough came when I went to stay in a hotel overnight and took it with me. I thought I had plenty of time, nothing else to do, and would give it one more go without expecting anything magic. I inserted the device, lay down on my back, and relaxed. The feeling came quite quick and I thought 'this is interesting' and went with it being careful to control my breathing and concentrating on the pleasure, fairly quickly I started shaking and could feel something building. I was determined to allow it to build and kept concentrating and then it happened! I can't even remember exactly how it felt the first time but I remember feeling out of control and trying to catch my breath and thrashing about wildly and feeling my hands go numb, and being totally amazed that I could actually do it.
The first orgasm must have lasted 20 minutes, I noticed that I had leaked a big pool of clear fluid from my penis. I thought time for bed removed it, cleaned up and lay down. Curiosity got the better of me and I just had to do it again, and re-inserted. The orgasm grew fast this time and before I knew it I was there again and had another 20 minutes of ectasy this time I remember feeling waves of pleasure riding up my chest and trying to control it a bit more, clenching my anal muscles to move the aneros around and press on my prostate and heighten the pleasure, using breathing to control the orgasm. I think I could have gone on forever, this lasted about 30 minutes and I thought I really ought to get some sleep now and let it fade.
It was about 2am by now I tried to get to sleep but couldn't and thought why not do it once more? Again I managed to get straight into another orgasm, this time it was even more intense my whole pelvis feeling like a tingling block of pure pleasure waves of orgasm going in and out of my chest.
I must have had an hour and a half of orgasm that night.

Second session and more

I am married and have kids so finding time to use the aneros is difficult. I had the house to myself for a few hours so immediately got naked and inserted the aneros.
I was expecting immediate results after my amazing session 2 days before.
It didn't happen. I lay there for an hour, got close but couldn't go over into an orgasm. I was disappointed and tried to push it and gave up after an hour feeling very disappointed and frustrated. Every time I had any feelings I think that I just expected it to transform into an orgasm, it had seemed so easy the other night. The more I tried the harder it got and the harder I pushed the less likely it was to work.
I had a rest but had to try again. After another hour I was ready to give up again, the family were due back in half an hour anyway, but decided to have one last try. It was worth it and at last I was rewarded with an orgasm lasting about 20 minutes. I was looking at the clock all the way through thinking I'm going to have to end this soon, which made it a bit subdued compared to my last orgasms but it was definitely a full orgasm.
In my first few orgasms I just rode it, and didn't really notice individual orgasms, this time the waves came and went, and I managed to have 2 orgasms that felt like a normal ejaculatory orgasm by using strong anal contractions to push the aneros up hard against my prostate but these were way more intense and longer lasting.
I think I am addicted.
I went to bed 'early'. Family at home. I thought why don't I just try to do it without the aneros? so just lay on my back and concentrated on allowing the feelings to build again. Within 5 minutes I was orgasming without the aneros!! It was almost as good if not the same. I had to stay quiet and was aware of my breathing and my legs jumping and didn't want anyone to her me. It lasted a good 10 minutes.
My wife then came to bed, went to sleep, and I tried again and had another one very quickly. Don't think she noticed I really tried to keep my legs still.
I am definitely addicted.