So last night, I went for my aneros for the first time in a few weeks. Did the prep, primed myself with my pure wand for 15 minutes or so, and popped in the helix. I started out just reading some lewd stories, my trigger of choice during play, but I guess I was super duper tired, because I dozed off for maybe 20 minutes. Woke back up, realized it was still in and I wasn’t ready to give up. So I got back into reading, not really totally into whatever the stories were about, just doing it to stay awake. At some point, I started to feel something really strange. It was this intangible feeling in the base of my hips, and all of a sudden, my whole body was flooded with this feeling I’m not going to be able to describe. It wasn’t necessarily sexual, but it felt really really good, like a body high. I wasn’t smiling, I was just totally incapacitated. I didn’t feel like the toy was moving at all, but maybe it was and I just couldn’t focus because of the bodily sensations. I wasn’t sure what to do, but when I’ve had involuntary reactions to the aneros in the past, I tried too hard to keep myself in the mood, like reading faster and faster, as if I’ve got to get to the big climax before the feeling fades. So I just set my laptop to the side and closed my eyes, and tried focusing on other things that turn me on. The feeling stayed for maybe three minutes, before gradually fading away. I was both incredibly happy and devastated. I knew I’d made progress but I was so bummed to have lost it. Read more »