Losing track of my session numbers because I feel like keeping track of them leads to expectations and having expectations for the journey is a bad thing!
Okay, I'm definitely onto something here.
After finally learning how to separate out my PC and Anus muscles, after taking plenty of time each day to exercise the PC muscles, and after truly getting myself into the grove, I believe I've felt my first rael P-waves.
Mind you, I am still unsure if I'm feeling my prostate at all. I am still unsure if my contractions are real or self-made. I am still unsure if this is the correct path to take. However, I derived pleasure from my experience. It wasn't orgasmic, or even mini-orgasmic, but it was on the cusp. Unfortunately, I went too wild, lost the feeling, and needed to finish myself off by masturbating due to feeling massively blue-balled. But here's what happened.
I was nearing the end of my 60 minute session, it was minute 50 or so, and I decided to try for the weird spazzy contractions one last time. I managed to get them a few times during the session but it never leads to anything too pleasurable, it doesn't really make my aneros auto-fuck me like other people describe, and it consists of me simply trying to hold a PC contraction for as long as I can which, in turn, tired me the hell out.