The Erotic Bridge Between the Reality and the Forbidden

The sexual connection I have with my wife is unique; I can’t have it with anyone else, unless I fall in love with that person and have sex with them. The blending of our emotions and our experience of sexual euphoria when we make love, or do mutual masturbation or partner focused pleasure makes the experience of intimate connection, other worldly and profoundly intimate. I acknowledge that I can never have a sexual experience bound in the complex dimensions of our relationship with anyone else and I never hope to. But I also recognize every sexual experience has a physical and emotional dimension and provides unique pleasure. As much as I have sworn to be monogamous I am also an intensely sexual man with erotic desires. As a result I savor the experiences I have and have a voracious appetite for sexual experience. It is a big dilemma.

The last dozen or so years have taught me that sexual pleasure that is tinged with an element of the forbidden or the vulgarly erotic adds a quality to the experience of pleasure that speeds up my pulse, makes me giddy with lust and deepens the orgasm that results. I derive intense pleasure from sex. It may not provide the deep spirituality and emotional high that sexual intimacy with my wife does but it imparts the resonant vulgar ecstasy and desperate euphoria that makes the pleasure extra sweet.

Three weeks away from Aneros and wanting it so bad!

Hi guys,

From July 11 until this evening Saturday August 1, I was forced do without Aneros. I had a financial emergency come up which caused me to suspend my Aneros sessions. Yet, the Aless continued unabated during the interim, and wow, I wanted to have a session real bad. Fortunately the crisis cleared up and later on tonight, I am having a session to celebrate.

I have washed for my session my usual Aneros buddies. They are in order tonight: Helix Classic, Progasm Classic, Tempo, and Maximus.

This morning I awoke this morning before sunrise with a delicious erection. That in itself is an indication that I am hungry for a session. My glans was engorged and I enjoyed stimulating it. But I could not linger in bed this morning. [In fact, I seldom do]. I had a function to attend this morning.

Most guys realize that their sexual apparatus is a dynamo of power and pleasure. It is not only their cock that is the wand of this pleasure, but also they know that their testicles, prostate, and subsidiary organs there are involved too. But also, many guys discover that the Aneros unlocks new worlds of experience for them also!

The "Golden Years" Are Here

It's been quite some time since I entered anything into my blog. I've been on my aneros journey for over 6 years now; and, I've recently retired – some 4 weeks ago. I haven't found a new rhythm in my daily schedule yet. A couple of health issues have arisen in the past 3 weeks, with eye surgery scheduled for next week. I find myself with time on my hands and wanting more than ever to share with like-minded men — who thus far have been very elusive. As the days slip by, I am constantly reminded that the "Golden Years" are here for better or worse. I have come to the conclusion that I'd better use whatever means of arousal I can get while I can still get aroused – not clear sailing though for a straight but curious Christian guy.

The Sexual Ecstasy of an INFJ

A number of years ago I took a Myers Briggs personality test. The other day as I was cleaning out old files and papers in my desk, I came across a folder with my resumes, it contained the results of that test. It was a very interesting read; I had not read it in a long time. Beyond the fascinating insights it gave me in its explanation of decisions that I have made in my career after I took it, it was particularly intriguing when I considered it in the context of my sexual journey. I had taken the test in my late 30’s before I began on this path of erotic discovery.

The first thing I did before I read it and prejudiced myself about its results was get on line and take it again. I scored it after carefully answering all the questions; I was pleasantly reassured that nothing had changed in 30 years, I was still an INFJ.

The interpretation of each MB type was explained in a set of profiles that accompanied the test on line. For an INFJ like me the summary profile said that I sought meaning in relationships, ideas, and events. Relative to the last several years of my sexual journey I had indeed done that; I had joined some sex forums but left them because they were shallow and a lot of the talk on them was inane. However, every forum that I was on I met people who became close personal friends in my real life off the forum establishing meaningful relationships with them.

Right path? Wet orgasm, no touch

So, 2nd time cumming wet without touching the cock… Am I on the right path? It seems to me as part of the rewiring process to cum without an erection or touching, albeit not dry, must be a good sign? Could have probably gone again but time was an issue.

Any thoughts?

Ghost Butt

Writing this the day after because I had to savor the events… Been about 2 weeks since my last ride, and my taint softened up a bit again. I only say this because when I ride more consistently, my perineum gets tougher and the P-tab isn't so aggressive feeling.

Oh, and no sex of any kind for maybe 4 days… the glands were throbbing to drain! I plugged in my Pro Jr. and practiced contracting my actual anus, not just the PC muscles. In about 10 minutes, I was getting major involuntaries and new stimulation from the K-tab. I'm guessing my ass is building some amazing strength from these sessions.

Ballooning my abdomen by taking in a slow belly breath added even more pressure, and I got some great rapid anus contractions in return, almost like a machine gun. When these fired off, my penis erected and I spasmed shut. My glutes contracted rhythmically and added movement to the locked up Aneros. Then all hell broke loose and I was grunting loud into my pillow, my body tense as fuck. When it was over, I had kicked everything off the bed.

Interesting progress

had my first non-erect orgasm with cum today.

Had some time, heavy thrusting and working it up.
Pretty certain the cum came from stimulation caused by my cock bouncing against my inner thigh )was on side, both knees up at right angle(.

But think its important since the cock stay soft. Wasn't actually certain it was all cum- was more runny and clearer than normal but thicker than precum.

Happy hunting!

First Super-O !

Had my first bona–fide Super–O last night! Felt warm floating feeling wash over my body and then started shaking all over and had orgasmic release.

Previously, I'd done a session with as much non–aneros prostate stim as I could muster the evening before, with no results. Felt I just wasn't getting enough prostate stim to do the trick. I may have done some corona stim which resulted in a regular orgasm, which really frustrated me. Also, I've typically been rubbing the base of my penis to get aroused.

So the next evening I figured I'd focus on the prostate itself, and I used the helix out. I almost hate to because of the prep and cleanup work. But, BIG improvement in prostate stim. It must have been all the practicing I'd been doing with K–contractions )not sure if these are kegels, but it's the muscle that stops urine flow( and other stuff, but this time the helix REALLY felt stimulating and pleasurable. Previously, it felt THERE, but not really pleasurable. Must have finally activated stimulation directly to the prostate.

So spent maybe 20–30 minutes of k–contractions, moving my hips around and abdomen touching, nipple stim, and felt stimulation in the prostate area steadily getting stronger. Really took the full 20–30 min of warm up time I think.

Weed

tried weed last night- two good puffs. Has been years and it was strong.

Jumped in a hot bath, watched some porn, then out for my session with Kelly Howell's ecstasy on. Definitely immediate and powerful session. Lots of involuntariness, i thunk a mini-o or two. And and overwhelming sense of how deep and good it could feel.

The weed allowed a free-floating clutter-less mind interestingly and a deeper sense of relaxation. But typical of weed, questioning the fleeting past moment's actions led to questioning if "that" just happened and/or did I do that or was it involuntary. However, that became the fun and the game to see how deep and wonderful it could feel. I topped up about 3 hours in and couldn't regain where I was so went on to a super T. I did sleep with it in and nothing to report.

Now I question if its worth the artificial stimulant- short circuiting the re-wiring process- or should I not try any more weed and go back to 'normal'.

Fun times on this journey!

Tantric sex

I’m a bit disillusioned with orgasming using the aneros method. I have had some good success but it seems to take hours of effort to get any returns at the moment, probably just me. I have been meaning to read about tantric sex for a while and found some good information this morning; it’s similar to what I am doing but involves direct masturbation or sex and subverting energies away from a normal ejaculatory orgasm, together with energy circulation. What I like about it is the emphasis on meditation and energy circulation rather than the rather vague technique of aneros.

I tried it quickly and managed to get 2 quick dry orgasm before I accidentally ejaculated. That was quite a good start. I tried again later in the day and managed to get into a continuous state of orgasm with a few small prostate contractions but I was frightened of ejaculating, possibly concentrating on that too much, and of course ended up ejaculating )again!(. I am going to keep experimenting, and try to circulate the energy more, at least I am guaranteed an orgasm of some sort each time I do it, so in many ways it is way better than the aneros technique.

I meditated again today and managed to hold some long periods of a clear mind. I gave up after only 20 minutes because my mind was starting to chatter too much.