Another “living fantasy”…..It started with my lover wanting me to start wearing my chastity cage at night instead of just my chastity cup. So I obliged. She knows that I cannot escape from my cage no matter what. She wants to really prevent me from masturbating. And she wants to see more precum. There is no expectation of orgasmic release for me now. It is a different feeling from that which I have had before. Usually, I expected a release about once a week but this time it is different. Since she has the control and the keys, I am not in control of my orgasms.

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I have regular erections within my cage now but they are not painful at all. I feel pressure from within the cage and my testicles swell up and become very hard. After a while, however, they return to normal and the pressure subsides. I suppose that I will be begging for release soon enough. The feeling while in my cage is almost like continuous arousal. I feel my precum inching its way towards the tip of my penis.

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I am listening now to a nice track: “Best of Chillout 2016 /Influence”. It’s about 2 hours long and I am not yet halfway through it. I feel another drop of precum finding its way……I will go lie down again and take this all in…. Read more »

At day 4 – I’ve had really calm energy during the day, not feeling all that sexual. But when I’ve been having sessions/sex in the evening last two days they went really really well. Had lots of control and lots of orgasms, and very easily was able to stay away from the point of no return.

Don’t feel like I have a lot of stored up sexual energy though during the day. But at least my sessions at night have been great! When I stop them, I go soft within about 5-10 min and don’t feel horny. But at the peak of them, even when I end them, I’m really having a good time and feel lots of sexual energy.

Will be interesting to see how the next few days pan out (weekends are my biggest risk for a screw up since Im more likely to have sex, and that can be a little harder to control).

Last few days was feeling really good. Great mood, good energy, not sexually frustrated. Felt excited about sex a lot during the day, looking forward to sessions that would be coming up.

Also during sessions last few days felt like I had a lot more control and easy to know where to stop stimulation to cock and avoid the point of no return.

Failed last night during playtime. Too much muscular tension I think while playing and triggered the ejaculation reflex. Stopped it with my muscles but the hormones and stiffness of my cock immediately decreased. So while it only lasted a few seconds and there was maybe only one contraction – which I squeezed and held a squeeze for 10-15 seconds to stop further contractions (and nothing came out), i felt different and knew it had gone too far.

So time to start over.

I feel more tired today and just less horny. When I focus down mentally to what my cock feels like, it just doesn’t feel as sensitive or good as it did before I failed and broke my 16 day no ejaculating streak last night.

Still woke up horny though and jerked off for about an hour. Didn’t cum. But erection would go down fast when I stopped stimulation a few times. But not feeling quite the same. Just more tired, less sensitive to pleasurable touch.

Bit mad at myself that I’m starting from 0 after a successful 16 days but that’s a mental thing I need to get over. I still can enjoy lots of good sessions on the climb back up to tie or exceed my 16 day record. Hard not to be a bit disappointed with myself.