Coming Clean and liking it in the end

As I mentioned in my first blog, a huge step for me in this amazing journey was getting over the perceived ‘gay thing’ of liking my ass played with. Took me twenty years from first sexual experience )masturbating at age twelve( to come clean.

I knew from the first time I really masturbated, there was something about my ass. As cum erupted from my cock for the first time ever, I also vividly remember my ass spasming too with a pleasure radiating from deep within. During those first frantic days of wanting to cum and cum and cum, my ass took a back seat, but it wasn’t long before it beckoned to be explored.

“Is it gay?” questioning, obstructed my exploration initially. However, when truly deeply aroused during long sessions there was no denying my ass—no I—wanted something more. Soon an eraser pencil was scrubbed, Vaseline applied, and tentatively inserted. Ooh! Kind of interesting. Almost immediately I realized there a special spot on the front wall of my ass it feels REAL good to rub against. Of course my teenage cock wouldn’t be ignored and my focus shifted. The resulting orgasm was really intense. Afterwards, the doubts set in again. Dirtiness, “Is it gay?” nagged at me. Read more »

So Excited

Hey guys hope everyone is having a great Sunday. I come to you all today very excited and full of joy. My precious Progasm Ice will be arriving Tuesday. YAY I am so ready. I have been listening to my brothers here tips and advice and my body is really craving this new experience. But I am going to put my body, mind, prostate and erotic phoenix on hold for a while. I got my progasm as a birthday gift from my dad. Yes he bought it as a a thank you gift for his beautiful experience he has been having. So to prepare I will withhold all sessions til my birthday which is Sept. 11th. I know thats a long time.

No wet orgasms, no riding, no erotic reading. NOTHING! I know it will be hard an I will be extremely hard but I will just fight through it and take a lot of cold showers. I can't devirginize my ass for anal play so If I don't play for a while I will become tighter and newer again. My last ride and beautiful orgasm was last night. I enjoyed it and will have to cherish it to I am able to cum again.

I know with having a awakened prostate this task will be very difficult to achieve but I have the strength and the capability to not touch or think anything to get me going. PRay for me guys. I will need all the help I can get but do not send me any waves or pleasure I might just combust. lol

New Experiences

I began using the aneros, Helix Syn, at the end of April. Someone had told me about the great powers and experience they were having with the aneros and I figured I would give it a shot. Before I bought it, I watched some pretty phenomenal videos online that users had posted and decided that I would like to be in on the action. Long story short I bought the Helix Syn, came home, sat right down on my bed immediately, and began to use it as if it were any other sex toy. As I know now this is no toy like any other. I've tried to use it off and on with varying degrees of success of the last several months…. until two nights ago.

For the first time in a while I had a completely free afternoon. So I thought I would try my best to give the aneros another go. I was feeling aroused but not particularly like I wanted to jack off or have sex so this seemed like a very good time. Milestone. I slipped the aneros in and decided to just follow more closely a "do nothing" pattern for now. I would keep the toy in for a while, become aroused but focus on my prostate entirely and not my penis. This helped tremendously and after about :45 of having the aneros pressing against the wall of my prostate I began to feel it there. I felt the pressure and then I began to feel it move, I was not controlling the anal contractions but they began very slowly and within the next ten minutes or so I had much more sensation. Within the next half hour my ass was buzzing, a constant pleasurable aching similar to that feeling just before the release of an orgasm when your breath halts and you KNOW it's coming. I was intrigued by how this was not subsiding, it simply continued. Read more »

Something different

Hey all,

I have been MIA for a while. My partner and I have been very busy lately, but that does not mean I have stopped my journey. I have had some great sessions in the past month, and just have been too busy to log on or log about it. But tonight, I had some time, and got a really different and fun session in.

I was coming home from the store, and the boyfriend was working. I had things to do, but my prostate actually FELT like it wanted to be touched and drained, it was weird. It was a very full and almost inviting feeling. I got ready and decided to use the helix. It was very weird, because it slipped in with no work at all.

I laid on my bed one my back with my knees bent. After about 5 minutes, the waves started and I was in bliss. I was trembling…but it was so delicate. It was like my prostate wanted something more. I rode the helix for a while, and had a few mini-o's. after coming down from like my 5 ones, I decided to see what would happens if I slipped the progasm in. So I switched it up. Read more »

Silently Screaming

i've been quiet it my blog lately, but in my house i've been blissfully silently screaming in pleasure. i've become totally enamored with my prostate and all the lust it fills me with when i use my Aneros boys. i've had day after day of sublime bliss, riding the erotic waves that flow from my hole throughout my entire body. i used to focus on bating my beautiful cock, but he gets tons of pleasure from my Aneros boys just like i do. he swells, throbs, bounces in lust, oozes and drips little treats for me to feast on as my Aneros is doing its work. never been closer to heaven…

Session #4, a huge leap.

Session 1's big milestone was getting the Progasm in.
Session 2's big milestone was understanding that a Super-T doesn't work on its own.
Session 3's big milestone was feeling my prostate finally wake up.
Session 4, however, was the biggest milestone yet. I got my first contractions and my first P-waves.

The most important thing I learned was the difference between all the muscles going on in my pelvis. The contraction section of the wiki should be required reading that comes with the device. I also managed to figure out how to properly apply my lube so I would have no discomfort during insertion.

So there I am in Session #4, finally using my PC muscles correctly, finally noticing an interesting sensation coming from my prostate. It's this strange pleasurable feeling combined with the feeling of holding back pee while also occasionally getting an urge to purge. While I'm holding a stronger contraction, I notice that the muscle begins to move on its own. Finally, my first involuntary! This combined with the pleasure makes me ecstatic that I can actually get this thing to work. I didn't care what happened next, I was just glad I finally got to this point. Read more »

The Beginning

Let's start with the bio.

I'm a 29 year old male. When I was younger, I purchased a Fleshlight. The site I bought it from was also selling the Aneros. At the time, I thought it wasn't for me.

Over time, the Fleshlight helped me learn enough tantric control to get a full-body orgasm from my girlfriend's handjobs. Seeing as how that's amazing, but requires her to be around, I figured it's time to get something I can do solo.

I've actually known of the male g-spot since I was a young teenager but I've finally grown tired of my own preconceptions about the anus )and grown tired of finding a woman willing to try anal play( and also noticed that Aneros came out with the Progasm Jr. It seemed like serendipity and thus I've started my journey.

To start: I've never placed anything far into my anus.

It turns out my anus is essentially covered in hemorrhoids (I believe 4 total) but thankfully they are all external. It's rather awful and has been the source of me taking this long to experiment in the first place.

So here I am with my Progasm Jr which I ordered because I wanted to start small and I'd like as little resistance as possible as well as little pressure on the hemorrhoids as possible. I lube it up, get into the recommended position )lower leg straight, upper leg to chest( and proceed to take 15 minutes finding my asshole. Seriously, it's hard to find under the hems. 10-20 minutes getting the head of the Progasm in, then another 5-15 minutes getting the rest in. Read more »

NEW DISCOVERIES

Over the past 10 days or so, I have had so new experiences that make me think I've made it past the "Newbie" stage.
A week ago, Saturday night, I took to my rooftop deck to watch the Perseid meteor shower, realizing that the chances of a clear, hazeless sky were nil, but hoping nonetheless. So it wouldn't be a total loss, I went up with my Helix in and lay on a lounge chair. This was a good idea and, though I only saw 6 of the brightest stars thru the haze and 4 meteors over 2 and 1/2 hours, I quickly began to feel the P waves )?Perseid waves( and ended up "seeing stars". I then went in and lay on a mat laid on a bed in a spare room with my butt over the edge, but on the mat and I have found that to be consistently effective in getting things going. A 45 minute nonstop series of exquisite peaks of pleasure happened with the "Do nearly nothing" technique.

The major change in my experience has been my nipples "coming alive". With the Aneros in, they become amazingly sensitive and each brush or stroke or flick I feel right down there. I have tried the same without the Aneros in or after a session and it is not the same. That is, until last night )the 19th(, when I began my first aneros-less session with careful light nipple strokes and felt milder but definite stimulation down there. I quit after 30 min, because I needed some sleep. Read more »

Pro's & Con's

I'm different. I can feel and people are now starting to notice. The smile has gotten wider. I have a extra spring in my step. I am just filled with extra joy. I have a ora around me that is shining bright and is blinding everyone I come in contact with. My phoenix has spread his wings and emerged into everyday life and is here to stay. My old life is calling back to me but I'm so far gone that I can't go back even if I tried. My phoenix has me on a track to pure blissfulness and I can't disobey.

A lot of guys in the chat and forums always ask me how I got this way and I don't have a answer for them. I don't even know how I got here. It's like my body was made for this. Like my body been urning for this feeling and I finally have mastered it. I'm so different. I don't even recognize my self anymore. It's good but also has it's down falls.

Pro's:
I'm so happy
I have lost weight
I'm more energetic
I can handle stressful situations better
I have stronger orgasms
I have a heavy flow of cum in my orgasms
I'm not shy anymore
I'm a lot more talkative
Get work done in a timely fashion
Have a closer relationship with my dad
I pre-cum a lot more
Have longer orgasms Read more »

still dry

So its day two and I am still dry. Well I'm pre cumming right now from the a-less session I'm having but I have not had a wet orgasm in two days. But last night was so hard. I mean really I was so damn hard. I started my session at 10 p.m.. and was sleeping with my helix syn. Now when I build up to the orgasm im soft but then when I'm at the top I begin to pulsate and rise like a bean stalk. My dick was just moving by its self. It was flinging back and forth slinging pre cum all over my legs and stomach. I also had a cock ring on too. Bad mistake when your trying not to cum. But I really wanted to push my self to see if I had self control to not cum.

I was backing away from those orgasms very slowly. Any false move or a extra thrust and It would have been a major spill. But I was keeping calm and just kept riding. Mind you I wasn't even touching my penis at that time. Then I began to jack and edge my penis while I rode my beautiful Helix Syn with a cock ring listening to aneros mp3's. I was so boned up flopping and jacking and moaning. I had to cover my mouth cause I was beginning to become loud. I was soaking my sheets with sweat and pre cum but none of the good stuff yet. But I want to cum so bad. I wouldn't let my dick go. I found out that if you trust up with the device in it will really hit it hard and good. Read more »