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well, i had 2 bms this morning and i prelubed with jelly and then inserted my mgx without the hot glue, but with the tab inside a ping pong ball and didn't seem to get much action–i can only hope that i'm getting rewired from all these sessions and that someday all hell will break loose

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took off hot glue from tab and tried it without any modifications cause helix seemed to be getting a good bite in the right spot–it was less aggressive but i think it still hit the spot, or near it–still at the same place although there always seems to be something happening–just not enough and not self propelling–will take a day or so off as i've noticed that when i do that my ass and prostate seem to be working while sitting and without the aneros–maybe that is when my body decides what to do with the stimulation it has been receiving from these aneros sessions–maybe i need some "rewiring" time–will try not to have a session tomorrow

ed's journey

warm water douched and prelubed with k-y again–usual session with some interesting feelings and some dead time, although there doesn't seem to be as much dead time any more–did whole bunch of things with no advancement

ed's journey

over on the forum pages i wondered if i had so little movement of my aneros because i no longer used prelube, nor did i water douche either since i first began, so i did both tonight and i think it improved my session–i had buzzing and pulsing almost the whole session, and i was able to pretty much control it too–formerly it would last only a few seconds and then stop, but tonight i was able to keep it going for minutes at a time and i could go from the buzzing to the pulsing too–the buzzing is not arousing, but the pulsing is–it raises the heart rate and gives the chest that anxious or "caffeine" feeling–the feeling that something is going to happen–of course this is what is needed before an orgasm can occur so it is a good sign to me–well i guess that should teach me a lesson about shortening my preparation cycle

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lubed up the mgx with k-y again and had another session–still progressing, but only slowly–had the pulses in my ass and some other feelings in lower abdomen–like the abdominal quaking cause i believe it signifies that some rewiring is taking place and will bear fruit in the future–maybe i'm still too directional and goal oriented and not laid back, even though i relax as much as i can–one thing different was that i took some contractions very hard and held them as long as i could instead of holding only very slight contractions–i held the contraction that buried the mgx up to the hilt and gave good contact on the p-tab

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tried the mgx like it was yesterday–not too much going on–had the ass pulses like yesterday but this time with the mgx–i think that if i could maintain the pulses for a considerable length of time it would lead to some pleasure–the pulses are surely more enjoyable than the buzzing

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started with the modified mgx–still slow going–brought the p-tab contact point a little farther away from the stem–still where i was a week or so ago–some ass buzzing and a few dives in the ass

tried the helix, unmodified, with a little more success in that i got what i call ass pulses instead of the buzzing–the pulses are more enjoyable but harder for me to maintain–had very little considering the amount of time i used

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well, i think part of my problem the last two days was that i was slightly constipated–today was a bit better after some bms, but not entirely satisfying–there is very little movement of my mgx–i think i will have to continue moving the contact point on the p-tab until i get constant, aggressive contact on my sweet spot–i know it's right when i get a constant buzzing in my prostate–this seems to be a critical point for me–when the contact is not there or is only slight, i don't get the increased heart rate and the buzzing in my hole–well i was never told this would be easy!

ed's journey

well, made the tab shorter and lower but it didn't change the results much–still only minimal feelings generated which don't lead anywhere-tried complete relaxation, holding slight and heavy contractions, breathing, different positions and other stuff–not advancing so far–will try to lay off tomorrow and start again the day after

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well i don't seem to be progressing after adding hot glue to the tab of my mgx–i think i overdid it and added way more than i had with the candle–the contact spot is now higher and closer to my balls–will cut it back and try it that way tomorrow