After my excellent Peridise experience at work, I was hoping for some advancement with my Progasm. But I had a pretty uneventful bedtime session )2+ hours( following steps that had been fairly successful previously. The next night, I opted for the Peridise and experienced another unrewarding session. I was going to lay off for awhile, but I couldn't resist trying another work session with the Peridise and had only limited response from my body. Disappointed to say the least! But that night, following my workout, I inserted my Progasm at bedtime, fell off to sleep, and was awakened with an erection great p-waves. The intensity ebbed and flowed for at least an hour with the best sensations I can recall.
I took my Peridise on a my weekend trip and inserted it on Saturday night with no meaningful results. Upon arriving home from my trip, I followed the same steps that have been successful with my Progasm two nights prior. Some ok sensations, but nothing memorable in what would have to be classified as another step backward.
Oh well, Rome wasn't built in a day, and clearly neither is my rewiring and enlightenment.
Tag: Breathing
Quiet, but nice
I'm meditating regularly. Yesterday I was circulating energy into my sacrum and up my spine, I suddenly got an immense surge in my lower back during the day, I thought at last the real Kundalini is on its way, and was able to meditate immediately and I concentrated on the feeling. It became very powerful but nothing broke through. I really think that I have to be careful.
My theory is that my original experience was forced in that I pushed energy up through my chest and into my head and triggered a partial Kundalini. It went through the wrong channel rather than rising up my spine.
The lesson learnt from yesterday is that you can't force it, much like trying to force an orgasm. If I am not ready for it, I am not ready for it. I have decided that it will happen naturally if I work on meditation, relaxation and positivity. It might take years but it will come when it is ready.
I'm also having slight difficulty with dry O's again. I'm sure it's because I tried to force a Kundalini yesterday and I have put things out of balance again. I certainly haven't got anywhere near a super-O again yet. I feel like it's a prize waiting for me once I have balanced myself sufficiently and it will happen when I have truly given in and accepted myself and that I'm not in control.
Thanks to Linghaman I Found Peridise
I took Linghaman's advise and ordered a Peridise. I arrived at work this morning )plain box(. I made a quick visit to the men's room, lubricated the Peridise, and went back to work )desk jockey(. Although it took a few hours, the waves started happening without any effort on my part. The last two hours of work have been terrific. Luckily I have a office because there have been periods where moaning was has been required. More later…
Corona Stim & Dry-O's
Had a weird experience last night and this morning.
I had a two hour session last night stimulating my penis topside corona. The position I use is two fingertips just under the edge of the glans. When my dick's hard, there's a little depression valley that runs around the penis there, just below the glans. With fingertips in that valley, I just jiggle them lightly back & forth )toward then away from penis tip(. If I do this and play with my nipples, there's a p-wave that extends from my penis top down the base and shoots probably into my prostate.
With the other hand, I play with one or the other of my nipples. Usually, the fingers on my nipple hand are doing a "run in place" manuever lightly )twiggling( on the skin where they are.
So I was playing with that and got the thought that I could walk the pleasure around my dick by moving my nipple hand around )while keeping up the corona stim with the other hand(. So I walked my nipple hand )twiggling all the way( down progressively to the abs skin just above the base of my penis )2 in up toward chest(, because that's normally an extremely sensitive area for me.
When I did that, the electric pleasure MOVED from my penis head, progressively down the shaft and sort of went down into my prostate. Really felt good. I could stay there a while, but I think if I stay there too long, it arouses the pathways that lead to ejaculation. )Because I ejaculated one other day playing around there too much.(
Intense
Yesterday was a very intense day. My first dry orgasm for ages, a state of ecstacy during the day and almost a full Kundalini experience out of nowhere.
Then it went quiet. I felt very stressed as if all my progress over the last week was for nothing. My children were misbehaving, one developed a fever. I tried for another orgasm last night but couldn't relax into it. My wife was very stressed and I could feel it and that didn't help, disappointment set in again.
I couldn't sleep and now I'm tired at the start of a 60 hour work week.
Yesterday I was flying and progressing, now I'm grounded but not in a spiritual sense. Time to relax and see what happens it's probably all for a purpose.
Lurid Fantasy
There are certain things that just go together, things like milk and cookies, beer and pretzels, baseball and peanuts and movies and popcorn to name a few. But beyond food there are also experiences that seem to be elegantly matched to certain mood setting actions. The combination of the enhancement and the action makes the experience profoundly pleasurable and at times very moving. Examples might be sitting by the warm crackling glow of a campfire in the black of night, or enjoying the flickering golden hued intimacy of candles surrounding a hot tub. For me it would definitely be candles making dancing sinuous shadows as I lie between J’s thighs savoring the sensual eroticism of her hot pussy sucking on my cockhead. Or it could be soft music and scented candles in a dimly lit room creating a relaxed sense of sensual privacy while my oiled hands explore her body and stroke her intimate places as I give her a massage. This marriage of mood and experience is perhaps one of the most magical aspects of our human psychology and experience of pleasure.
For me MMO and fantasy are one of those pairs that are just made to go together.
Beginner Prefers Progasm to the Progasm Jr.
I purchased a Progasm Jr. a couple of weeks ago. I based that purchase off of comments on the forum and reviews of the products. After three sessions of nothing, I was disappointed but undaunted. It seemed as though the Jr. was providing very limited stimulation to my prostate. I had tried the passive relaxed method along with multiple positions and contractions, but hardly felt any sensations. I decided that because I am 6' 2" that perhaps I needed more length and girth (I'm slim, but the Jr. was so easy to insert and didn't seem to result in any particularly full feeling).
So I ordered the larger Progasm and was rewarded with much improved results. After a shower, I had no trouble inserting the Progasm. It provided a much fuller feeling and the urge to urinate that I had not experienced with the Jr.
I used the relaxed right side approach and after a period of breathing I moved to some contractions. It took awhile but after 30-45 minutes I was rewarded with some very pleasant sensations that intensified with additional relaxation and contraction cycles.
I did not experience an orgasm, but I had an excellent session with the promise of an orgasm on the horizon. And in any case, the sensations were some of the best I've felt in who knows how long.
I think I disagree with the concept that the Progasm is for experienced users. With the right lubrication it was easy for this beginner to insert and provided better feedback than the Jr.
I'd advise beginners not to shy away from the larger Progasm from fear of its size. Size may be just what the beginner needs. I'll probably give the Jr. another try after I have really mastered the Progasm. But for right now I am going to be concentrating as much of my time as possible on the Progasm.
A Night of Bliss
After dinner a few nights ago none of my friends were on line and J was upstairs in the studio working, it was very quiet. I sat at this keyboard motivated for erotic interaction. As is usually the case when that happens I decided to spend some time on erotic writing. So at 8 PM I began editing a strategic part of my novel. It is done but I find great joy in going back into it and tweaking the story. For me, the primary purpose of the novel is to stimulate my arousal and the rewrite effort does that big time. The chapter was describing an intimate interchange between a man and a 19 year old daughter of a good friend. The narrative really got me worked up.
Anyone who has read my blogs or knows me knows that I am attuned to giving pleasure. In my limited experience with guys I really love to do oral and frot, but with my lovely lady it is oral sex on her that is the epitome of my intimate interaction with her.
An awakening?
I woke up this morning and noticed that I was abdominal breathing whereas normally I have a very dysfunctional upper chest breathing pattern. I felt quite emotional as if it’s a sign that something is changing.
Everything is starting to make some sort of sense now. I think that I had a form of Kundalini experience when I had my super-super-O. It was no different to what many people have described experiencing on the forum, but for me it was more profound on an emotional level, and I wasn’t ready for it, or maybe it was given to me for a reason so that I would realise what I needed to do with my life and how I needed to change. It’s all very spiritual and I’m a very logical scientific person but somehow it just seems to make sense and I’m happy with that.
I am now reading all about Kundalini and learning about meditation. I always thought that meditation was simply about relaxing, and yoga was just about sitting in odd positions and relaxing. There is so much more to it and I wish I had learnt about this years ago. Someone put a link to this blog in the forum and it has opened my eyes totally and explained to me what it is all about. So I am now practicing breathing patterns, and trying to completely change my attitude to life, and already I am experiencing changes. I am starting from basics. I can see where I need to go with my life now.
Not sure what to call this one
This now feels slightly out of place in a blog about using the aneros, but the journey started when I opened that box, and it has taken me in a very unexpected direction.
I have read about spiritual awakening and I can recognise a lot of it happening in myself. I am letting it happen to me. Emotions and thoughts keep washing over me. I imagined myself telling my father that I loved him )it's complex( and broke down in tears as I drove into work. It struck me how similar it was to having an orgasm, the process was out of my control, my breathing seemed to push it further on and my body convulsed slightly and I felt a tension being lifted. I didn't crash. There is some circularity to everything that is happening now.
After this morning it all went quiet. I had a calm day at work. There's probably more to come I just need to wait.
Then I read more about chakras. I'm still slightly confused about them. My friend knows a lot and is keen to guide me, and she knows people who know even more. I will be asking her for more guidance soon as things progress.