A Fantasy and a Reality

When an erotic fantasy finds me it is like it has found a comfortable chair; it settles in and stays, relaxing and pondering the facets of its own lush eroticism. It has certainly been that way over the last week or so with my fantasy of sexual and emotional intimacy with A, a woman I volunteer with.

Last night I had a particularly pleasurable fantasy involving the two of us. It happened because I saw her at a meeting of the organization she works for, and that I volunteer for yesterday. As President I have a lot of interaction with her before, during and after the meeting. She is Secretary to the board.

The fantasies that I have that involve real people that I see all the time seem to be the dominant ones in the erotic landscape of my mind. Certainly the homoerotic fantasies I have at the pinnacle of MMO ecstasy are not realism based; when my anus is quivering and my prostate is pumping and my cock is lurching in convulsive orgasmic spasms my fantasies become surreal. Most of the time they involve a exquisitely muscled faceless guy who is exuding male sexuality; he is drilling my asshole with a massive erect cock whose shaft is tracked with rigid veins. The convulsive spasms of pleasure pumping deep in my own anal canal become spasms of his cock as it rhythmically pumps a thick hot stream of his sweet ejaculate deep into my anal cavity.

Joy & Pain )Round 2(

So I wake up in the middle of the night as usual. I feel the warmth of a man next to me. The memories of last night come flooding back. I glance over at him sleeping soundly. I dont have a clue of what time it is, there are no windows in here, but it feels like its really early in the morning before sunrise. I do notice he's only wearing his underwear, and only partially covered by the sheet, must have taken his clothes off at some point. He has a pretty nice body, my eyes wander to his crotch imagining whats behind that thin layer of fabric. I reach out and touch his chest, his skin is warm and smooth. I wonder if he feels that way all over, my fingers trail down to his stomach, then right above the waistband of his undies. I run my finger through the beginning of his happy trail…soft man hair nothing like it.

Aless & Kegels : CONNECTION!

Hi guys,

This morning after bathing, shaving, and dressing, I sat before my PC and immediately fell into the bliss of a strong, delicious Aless. My body and psyche had tricked me into thinking that it was time for an Aneros session. Indeed, just about every morning if I have time on my hands, I have an Aneros session first thing in the morning. Most mornings they tend to be long and leisurely.

However in a few minutes I have to leave for a weekly appointment that occurs on Saturdays.

But boy! What a sweet, powerful Aless!

My prostate is alive, pulsating with sexual energy of pure pleasure. There is a direct connection with my nipples, pecs, abs, thighs, and certainly my glans penis with my prostate!

But there is also a close connection with my breath and my quivering prostate. But what really fuels my Aless this morning are my occasional Kegels. So powerful, so sweet.

I believe I have discovered a powerful meditation that is centered upon my prostate. But intimately connected with my alive prostate, are my testicles, penis, perineum, and even the root or bulb of my penis. It is also so beautiful, so powerful, so sweet, and so manly!

Take care!

Forbidden Fantasy

I am in Seattle visiting my daughter and son in law. They have a great place out here; it is a tri level modern house with four bedrooms, one of which has total privacy on the lower level. That is where I am sleeping. I am here without my wife as I came to California on business and this was a side trip as long as I was on the west coast. I have been here four days so far … I will leave at the end of the week.

I have been spoiling them, cooking their favorite things and going out to eat. Yesterday my son in law )a volunteer fireman( had an evening meeting to go to at the firehouse and my daughter wanted to go to a book signing and lecture in Kenmore up on Lake Washington. I volunteered to go with her. The author was no one I was interested in; her books appeal to young and middle aged women. They are one step above chick lit. It was a really hot day yesterday, the first one we had since I came here.

As we drove into the parking lot in front of the bookstore I noticed a green space across the street, it looked like a park. I decided that maybe I would go and cool off by sitting in the park under the shade trees while she was in the book event; the trees shaded the lake and obscured the view of it.
We parked in the lot and my daughter went into the bookstore and I walked across the street to what I thought was a park. As it turned out the “park” was a club for member s only. It looked as it had a beach on the lake, a clubhouse and tennis courts.

Surprising New Interests

So when chatting a little while ago some interesting topics came up. I challenged myself to stretch my imagination a bit and here's what I came up with.

So generally I'm not into men who cross dress. I dont have a problem with it, its just not something I am usually drawn to. Maybe because so many men are not able to pull off wearing what could be considered "womens" clothing well. Well my mind was changed when I happened across a picture. After staring at the pic for a few minutes my mind went crazy so buckle up…enjoy the ride…

The first thing I noticed about the picture was the obvious. His outfit. It was obviously something that one would of course bill as a woman's outfit. A black mini skirt, and black lacy top. Both were snugly hugging his masculine body. The next thing I noticed was his face, then his facial expression. He looks so cunning, so confident, so very sexy in a super manly way. Its almost like he is playfully smirking at me, daring me to do what I was thinking. His presence can almost be felt. Nice pad…apparently is a hard worker. His daughter's pics on the fridge behind him remind me how great of a father he is. The washing machine beside the fridge makes me think of fucking him on top of it. Damn he looks sexy.

Vice Love

Last week I wanted to test myself. I went a whole 5 days with out riding or having a wet orgasm. The only thing I allowed was a less rides that came by just building up energy. It was rough but I learned a lot about my sexual appetite.

Firstly I learned that i watch to much porn. I consume a lot and even though that porn does not always kick start my sessions it is always a factor in the ending results. With not stimulating my self consistently I had more time on my hands. But still even with out watching porn the images were still in my head which kicked started a lot of my a less rides. My jock straps got soaked up a ot from all the pre cum that poured from energy flowing through my body and me just letting it flow with no budges or stopping to calm down. I let each orgasm flow at its own pace.

Also with the stopping of cumming and jerking I started back working out. That also gave me a few hard on's. Who knew jogging and jumping jacks would turn me on. I mean i was doing them in loose fitted basket ball sorts with no underwear underneath. (i workout first thing in the morning and i sleep nude so free balling is kind of my thing) My meat just flopping around also brought on a few a less rides and mad pre cum sliding down my leg. Also sleeping on my stomach had to start. I rode a less ride a little to long and almost came. it felt so good though.

Joy & Pain

Gotta replace the old with some new, so this is a mix of fact & fiction )mostly the latter(. I'll let you figure out which is which.

Met a guy…broke a ton of my rules giving him a shot. The things I felt for him I hadn't felt in over a decade. He'd already shown me he's a dark man. Said he isnt into "dark arts" mystically, but he's as evil as they come. He lead me to believe I was his friend, that he respected me. At his first convenience he used me. He knew he never wanted to see or speak to me again but that didnt stop him from fucking me repeatedly. I was nothing but a cum receptacle to him. Yet he continues to try and con me into believing he respects me, likes me, and is my friend )or still wants to be that…yea the fuck right(. Last time I checked you dont lie, fuck, and kick friends to the curb…apparently his view on friendship, respect, and just about everything is warped to fit his delusional mindset. He's delusional…and I'm done with him. I've made up my mind I wont sacrifice myself, that doesnt stop the pain though. Sleeping has been in large part replaced by lamenting over my stupidity where he is concerned. This will pass…just wish it was a little faster.

Fantastic Session

TL;DR:
* Week of abstaining from anything erotic
* Builds libido perfectly for a session
* Sweet sensations, everything happens without any prompting
* Clamping solidly, continuously
* Allow breaks to naturally happen for around five minutes.
* Sex is on fire.
* I really hope the neighbours don't hear my moaning or humming.

Now I'm into a good routine of sessions! Every five to eight days or so is when the libido builds up enough that my mind urges for some sexual activity. That's something of a sweet-spot for Aneros session — and it's relatively new, first uncovered early into the abstaining for a month. The big build-up of libido in question is likely from divorcing myself of anything erotic during one week, most of all nipple stimulation, which can quickly cause an orgasm to burst the bubble. )However, it's great before a session to get some momentum going(

So basically, Aneros sessions of recent act as a valve to let off some sexual energy.

Or frustration; last night had a scenario of stressing needlessly on whether to have a session, partly due to the awkward after-effects detailed at the end. Pleasure waves began making unprompted rounds that day – a sign of libido hitting its peak. At the same time, I was feeling oddly grumpy and fed up. That alone can often break sessions, resulting in delaying them by a day or two. But I went with it. Besides, the Progasm may cause problems like last time and the session is only an hour.

Saturday Morning Syn

I woke up Saturday morning in the mood for a session, so I got up, took a shower and cleaned myself inside and out. My Helix Syn was already in the bathroom so I thought I would go ahead and insert it so as not to disturb my girlfriend, who I thought was still sleeping. All the lube supplies were in the bedroom, so I searched to see what was available in the bathroom. Ended up finding some petroleum jelly and vitamin E oil, so went with that…

To this point, I have had limited success with the Helix Syn. It was my first Aneros device, and was lucky to experience some minor contractions and sensations on only it's second use, but it was nowhere in comparison to the experiences with the Tempo and Progasm Jr.

Helix Syn inserted, into bed, I start by relaxing and just clearing my mind of everything, including the Helix Syn inside me. I find if I try and concentrate on it too soon, I clench up and things just don't move along. Instead of then starting out with the Kegel exercises, I like to use slow gentle hip thrusts to try and move the Helix up and down over my prostrate. The slower the better, you can also incorporate slow breathing to help further manipulate the device in rhythm with your hip movements.

Thought I Was Here Before

A had a revelation yesterday. What I thought I was experiencing wasn't quite as it seemed. I had had many super O's over the past few months, but now it seems that they weren't originating where I thought. The ones where I used my nipples to orgasm certainly were centered in the prostate, but the ones where I relied solely on the Aneros weren't. I now think that they were anal orgasms rather than solely produced from the prostate. I believe this because I finally reached a level that I thought was already experiencing.

The anal orgasms never felt quite the same as the nipple induced orgasms. They weren't as intense, but they could last longer and were more steady. A session on Friday gave me a hint as to this other level of sensation from the prostate. I started out with a Peridise then had a decent session switching to the Helix. For some reason I thought I'd try the Progasm afterwards despite it being uncomfortable 3/4 of the time. This time I discovered one way that I could avoid the discomfort. When I made sure my anus was relaxed the Progasm got more comfortable and there was more sensation from the prostate than I usually get from the Helix.