Progress update a year into my journey

First I want to say thanks to everyone who contributes to this subreddit – your experiences and tips have been invaluable in my journey and I finally feel like I made some major progress so I wanted to share with you all since I can’t really share with anyone else.

Bought my first Aneros, Helix Syn, last year during my State’s initial COVID closure in March since I’d be home and finally have time to explore. Hadn’t had a ton of success since then: some involuntaries here and there but nothing I’d describe as pleasurable. That all changed yesterday.

Started off my session as per usual – with a bit of porn, nipple rubbing, took a few hits from my vape pen, the works. I really wasn’t focusing a ton on contractions but rather let my prostate dictate to me what it wanted. In the past Ive definitely been guilty of chasing the feelings, despite having read EVERYTHING to the contrary. There really is a mental shift that has to take place. Not just KNOWING to stop chasing/let it happen but actively forcing yourself to SURRENDER. When I finally got in that headspace I turned off the porn and instead of contracting, releasing, rubbing my nipples, watching porn, etc. I just decided to feel whatever happened in my prostate and to concentrate to extend those feelings as long as possible – regardless of whether those feelings were pleasurable or not.

Some of you have described it as a “button” being activated. Others have called it a “whisper.” For me it felt sort of like a small jolt, barely perceptible, not quite pleasurable, but like the feeling of when you first shoot a load dialed back by 99% (if that makes sense). I almost confused it for the need to pee. I don’t know why it I decided to just go with it. It might sound funny but I actually thanked my prostate, mentally, and gave it control. I said “whatever you want, just let me feel that for as long as you want.” That changed everything.

The feeling went from not pleasurable to interesting. Then from interesting to good. The longer I focused on staying in that feeling, the longer, deeper, and stronger it got. Pretty soon the involuntaries started up again but this time they came with feelings of pleasure as if my prostate was fluttering or dancing while my ass was contracting and PULLING at the Aneros.My prostate definitely seemed to grow in size, firmness. Despite having my eyes closed and blinds drawn there was a light that got brighter and brighter the longer I focused on staying there. I quite literally followed the bright light. LOL. I should note – I personally didn’t exert much pressure and didn’t focus on the activity – just the feeling, the journey and let my ass/prostate do the rest. At one point my prostate just felt abuzz, like it was radiating, activated. Like there was an engine that turned on and was driving or rotating (that feels like a strange way to describe it but that all I’ve got. Immensely pleasurable feelings took over my entire body and it was as if I was in a wave, a high. It was euphoric.

I wasn’t hard, I didn’t shoot, but it felt absolutely amazing! I just wanted to stay there for as long as I could. In all honestly that feeling lasted maybe a minute but I was floored. I just lay there in the aftermath and for the next hour or so continued to accept whatever was happening. Playing with different techniques now that I recognized the initial feeling. I don’t know if these are the mini O’s or a full on O but I stopped worrying or caring about what it was just thanking my prostate for giving me those feelings. I had a few more of these supper intense reactions during my session.

To wrap it up – since this has been extremely long winded – this is just a post of encouragement to those of you still waiting for something to happen. Let go, truly, let go and just let it be about the ride and not the destination. I also want to thank all of you for sharing your experiences because it gave me the motivation and drive to keep going even when I felt like my prostate was broken or it would never happen for me. Can’t wait to continue on my journey to see where I go next!