Author: lingaman

My Male – Male Fantasy

The last ten years of sexual self discovery for me has been the most amazing and freeing period of my life. I attribute my wondrous erotic enjoyment of the last ten years to two things.

First is my rewiring, accomplished by ten years of Aneros use. My rewiring awakened the orgasmic power of my anus and prostate; it made me a sensual man who appreciates the erotically arousing attraction of men and women and it opened my eyes and mind to expressing my erotic thoughts.

The second thing that has opened the doors to sexual pleasure for me over the last ten years is the internet. It has provided the safety and security for me to anonymously express my erotic thoughts and it has opened the door for me to meet other guys who feel the same about their sexuality without risking exposing my lurid interests to anyone I know. Indeed just the fact that I can make this post and admit some of the things I have is itself a testimony of the power of the internet in my life. Read more »

Yet another Corner Turned

After a while it begins to get redundant when I write these entries expounding that this session was the best or I discovered a new technique that pushed me even higher. But the truth is, that is what this journey is about reaching new heights each time. Each session I do does teach me some new technique as I get to feel the wondrous new pleasure that results. And yes every session does allow me to open a door to a new level of ecstasy that I never experienced before.

So that being said here I go again. It is necessary to keep in mind that there are certain triggers that are necessary for me to have a pleasurable A Less or A session. Typically they need to occur between 2-6 AM. They are usually best if I have had an emptying ejaculation within the last 12 hours. For me that image of thick semen spewing in rolling spurts from my cock slit is often stuck in my mind as an erotic image that will help to launch me. Also for me pressure on the underside of my cock head is also a trigger. Until now that pressure has been from pressing my cock head into my wife’s derriere or even better against the heat of her anus if I am erect to my full length and sufficiently hard, which is typically the case in the early morning hours. Read more »

Orgasmic Symphony

When I don’t make these posts I feel like a part of my sex life is missing. Describing the experiences I have is as much a part of my sexual response as is having them. There is an erotic excitement to writing these that I miss when I skip them. I savor all the things I write about as they happen to me, then I get to savor them again as I remember them and commit them to words. The act of recalling erotic sensations and experiences allows me to indulge myself like I woud with a favorite wine or chocolate that I have been craving. They satisfy me as they turn me on. Savoring the sensations, emotions and rapture I experience and describing them to readers is as sensual as the experience itself.

When I write these entries I am fully erect and dripping precum; I am now. I am embarrassed to say that I use ladies panty liners to keep from soaking through my pants when I write; indeed I have one in now. I have just learned that they have come out with a version of underwear liners for men. I will have to get some and see if they work as well as ladies. I must say however that the understated fetishist in me secret is turned on when I slide a women’s liner in my underwear. What can I say? Read more »

A Less Nirvana

I was born and raised in New York City. At 11 years old I learned how to ride the NYC subway and figure out where it took me. From that point on the greatest city in the world was my oyster. Almost every week from then until I was 18, I used the magic carpet of the subway to take me to some new neighborhood, street or destination that needed discovering.

For all the hundreds of places I was in the City in those years and the hundreds more that I have been there since then, there are still many, many more places that I have yet to discover and visit. New York is a large city and there are thousands and thousands of fascinating and diverse places each promising its own nuanced experiences. Even today when I go to NYC I am always finding someplace new and exotic to experience that I have never been before.

I have come to realize that my experience with MMO is just like my experience of NYC. The Aneros is my subway system. Every time I insert I am transported to some new place and each of those places has a nuanced sensation of ecstasy. A few years into my MMO journey I learned to do A Less MMO’s; these subtle and elegant orgasms are yet another part of my orgasmic landscape that beseech me to visit frequently. I have been doing massager less MMO’s for many years now. The last couple of years I have been doing them just about every night. That translates to 500 sessions more or less each year. It continues to amaze me that each one of those sessions is distinctly different. And just like a trip to NYC, each time I get on the orgasm train I find a new stop with different sensations and a different experience of each place. Read more »

An Amazing Night

The calm before the storm is the best expression I can think of for this next ten days before Christmas. Last night conformed eerily to that description. It was deathly quiet in the house, none of my friends were on line, the dog was sound asleep on the futon next to me in my office where I sat cruising on the computer. J was upstairs in her studio working on a project. It has been several years now that all the kids are gone from the house; the current quiet has become the norm. The term “empty nest” has real meaning around here, it is very quiet at night. Add to that, early darkness and no one on line; it is no wonder that evenings have become a time for me to ruminate and write. So at 8 PM I began writing a section of my next erotic book.

Against this backdrop of the mind numbing calm, my rich inner sex life has become like the lights of Broadway. Last night was no exception; the events of last night were so amazing that I needed to get them written and posted before I forgot them. So instead of doing my work this morning I am taking this diversion to get this written so I can post it. Read more »

My New Reality

Years ago I fantasized that it would be amazing to experience orgasms that lasted more than several seconds; the idea that I might experience an orgasm that lasted an hour or two was the stuff of science fiction in my mind. Yet here I am in 2015, not in a Ray Bradbury novel experiencing them. I (we are) am very – very lucky to have developed this ability and have these mind blowing experiences every few days; for some of us its more frequent than that.

For me and many of us the experience of an MMO is like surfing. I am continually discovering some nuance in technique or mental context that modulates, amplifies and intensifies the orgasms. I have been at this for 9 years now and each session I do I learn something new or have some amazing new sensation or combination of sensations. Aside from the ecstatic sensations of MMO part of my addiction to it is the kaleidoscopic arrays of ecstatic orgasms that they bring.

Two nights ago I had yet another session that revealed to me the profound pleasure of MMO. This session was also a landmark session which was why I chose to do this entry. Its noteworthy achievement was that it was the longest session I have ever endured. I do not use the word endure lightly here. This 4 hour experience pushed the envelope in MMO for me; it was excruciatingly pleasurable lifting me to a state of agonizing rapture. Read more »

Orgasmic Confluence

Over the last few years the dimensions of my sexual response have come together to intertwine and deliver excruciating pleasure. I have found myself thinking a lot about the nature of my sexual response in my new state. So it was earlier this week on my drive home from a meeting that my thoughts turned to the erotic. Day dreaming as I drove a prodigious erection resulted accompanied by the expected flow of precum that soaked my underpants. I had plenty of time to ponder on the complexity of my experience of erotic bliss. The inspiration was an intimate liaison J and I had a few nights earlier.

In the past I was biologically programmed to see erotic pleasure as an external thing focused on my cock, like most guys. My psyche was hard wired to experience pleasure as an external physical event, in both visual and physical perspectives my sexual pleasure was experienced through my arousal stiffened penis, outside of my body. The sight of J alluringly nude, sensually exposed, always elicits an immediate visceral response; my cock hardens and lengthens and the welcomed erotically warm desperate itch of arousal licks at my cock and tugs on it sending waves of erotic delight to my brain. Read more »

Prostate Massage

My situation is the more I cum the more I need to cum. It is kind of a use it or lose it state of being. So after a ball draining hand job the night before last, my desire last night was steaming and hissing like an old radiator on a cold winter morning. When J and I got in bed I doused the light, and she cuddled up against me and put her hand on my chest. I reached up and put my own hand on top of hers in a reassuring pat. After a few minutes I kissed her forehead.

My sexuality has been evolving and shifting over time. The nature of my desire has swayed as it has increased each year. It has been a process of expanding need as I sought edgier and edgier experiences. The path has led me to the most extreme thing I have done so far, engaging in M-M sex a few times. Having reached that watershed I feel like it is the end of the experimentation phase of my sex life. The last few months have witnessed me turning to more and more inward and intimate relations with my wife and a move away from male involvement. It is a welcomed home coming to female intimate connection.

She began to be involved in my MMO sessions a couple of years ago as an active participant and has been a willing passive participant several times a week. We have never done anal sex on her but she does love both cunnilingus and analingus. Most of the edgier sex we have done has been on me. Read more »

September 9

For quite a while I maintained two separate sex lives, MMO and sex with J. However, the last two weeks have witnessed a curious joining of the two. They have come together to entwine in a complex tango of sexual intimacy, sensual experience and mindful emotions. The wall between the very internally focused and intensely pleasurable sensation of MMO and its ability to turn my thoughts into molten waves of orgasmic rapture and the highly emotional intimacy of coupling with J or coaxing her pussy to convulse in orgasm with my tongue has broken down. Those two worlds now are twisted together like the strands of a rope. It is impossible to discern one from the other as I look down the rope.

I have also written many times about my sexuality being like a kaleidoscope. In MMO or in the sensual diversity of my sexual activity with J, each moment reveals an exquisitely pleasurable sensation, profoundly moving emotion or a riveting sexual response. Each day is a new experience; the magnetic pull of eroticism on my iron cock and the tender merciless song of sweet erotic rapture tantalize my prostate and anus changes from one day to the next. Read more »

My Sexuality, My Fantasies and the Tao of Eros

Tao: the unconditional and unknowable source and guiding principle of all reality; the process of nature by which all things change and which is to be followed for a life of harmony. The Tao is the path, the art or the skill of doing something in harmony with the core meaning of life.

It is 20 years ago that I began this journey of sexual discovery; after all this time I now realize that my purpose has been to pursue the Tao of Eros; but it didn’t start out that way. When I began walking in this path of sexual discovery, my simplistic goal was to seek higher levels of arousal. Along the way I came to the realization that I also wanted to better understand female sexual response so I could be a better lover.

I discovered the opportunity of the Tao of Eros when I discovered Tantric Sex Practice in the first year or so. With my new knowledge I sought out eastern thought and philosophy as the first steps along the path. I read books and I did retreats in Tantra, Zen and Taoism; I studied some of the theory behind Kundalini Yoga. I read books on Extended Male Orgasm and Male Multiple Orgasm.

Those early intellectual efforts years ago opened my mind to so much more than kinky means to seek arousal. As I looked to increase my libido I gained sexual proficiency, instead of pushing horniness to new heights, instead I discovered new pathways to orgasm. Finally I discovered the power of eroticism and subsequently became a sensual man who followed the Tao of Eros. Read more »